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BigPete247
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I like TEDx talks, but at the same time i hate TEDx because i'm getting the feeling that they are running off of biased information hashed out from stuff people can go online and find out. And you gotta love chaos in the workplace, it makes your work space feel calm when you see somebody next to you goes on a rant about eating the last printer in the cake shop or something like that. Good that you didn't remind your stepfather of gaming for your birthday, and Happy Birthday!
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Day 26
Good day. Today i found one of my game designs i did some years back. Godd stuff, might actually focus on finishing it now that i have the time. The occasional wish to game bothers me from time to time, but its nothing serious.
Ok, listen, close your eyes and imagine yourself holding your controller for a few mins, then break it in half. Still closed, out should come one of your designs.
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I feel like shit now.. I have done all the things I wanted to do but since.yesterday I feel like productivity and hope are not as high as o though to be
I am on my day 10 and yeah The blues from week 2 is gone so I gotta put real effort to keep up
Listen man, just stop right now and close your eyes, imagine yourself with a pen and paper in your hand. The paper says, 'Procrastination agreement: Do you want to ruin your life with negative thoughts or do you want to rule your life with positive affirmations'. Still closing your eyes visualize yourself writing with your pen, 'Yes, i want to rule my life'. The paper contracts and becomes a part of you. You then look up and see a nice girl and smile, she smiles back. Hope that helps, dirkj3.
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Good job. Are you going to continue with you daily journey log?
XD, i think he's still celebrating
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Congrats on beating your first month HappyCat, i feel the same way.
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I just Don't wanna anything for tomorrow but tomorrow we are getting graded in how we make recommendations to costumers who are entering the pharmacy....
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Good luck dirkj3, it won't be as hard just be honest
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Day 26:
Ok, i need to work on my social skills a little more, the aggressiveness has got to go. I guess it might be related to high blood pressure due to constantly thinking 'angry' thoughts, not trying to be subjective. But, in truth i need my music, that's what's gotten me through high school, the military, even graduating college. The stimulation really helps to express my thoughts in a more calm manner and keeps me level headed.
Other than that, had a good day in school as i got with my group mates one last time to go over anything we missed. Our professor extended the due date to Thursday after a long speech about how to take a 300 level class. So many people slipped up that it wasn't even funny anymore, seriously. The good thing is i was able to keep my head up and keep doing what im supposed to do.
I'm grateful for the easy day today and music, plenty of music.
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Keep those legs loose giblets! Good luck!
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I feel really happy for you. This a nice a achievement and something to be proud of. I like the fact that you are already setting up new goals. Thanks a lot for explaining the lessons you obtained from the Detox.
Overlapping journals I find it troublesome as well, think, think. Imagine a website where all your journals (I have 2 digital and 1 physical) are stored and which could be shared with millions of other people. Does this exists already? Connect Journal App? I am googling this
Don't talk, just do Definitely! Sometimes I feel that just by talking about goals I lose my drive to complete them. Making sure to start something before talking about it, makes it easier.
Gaming was a mask Correct, it seems that excessive video games are a symptom of a hidden issue.
Create not consume This is something that simply is not possible to see while you are gaming. It's like switching a button once you are on detox.
Also thanks for supporting me along at my journal. You were one of the first persons to encourage through Day #0, it helped me a lot, thank you so much.
Srry for jumping in late, Hey same here man, i never thought that i would honestly get as far as i did if it wasn't for your constant support @Mettermrck, i honestly thought nobody would care on here because i figured ok well i'll probably be cast out in a week just like how i was kicked out of every gaming community for trying to fit in, lets see if someone actually wants me to be here, but you proved me wrong.
I really need to thank you for finally reaching Day 90, because brother, you are probably the best darn forum activist on here i've met that constantly motivated and encouraged people's lives for the better and improved on his own no doubt. You really earned it. Thanks man, thanks for every darn thing you do and i really hope you continue your journals. You have uplifted an entire community. Good Vibes!
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Absolutely @BigPete247, friendship is not something to be forced on people. However how many times have we latched onto people we didn't like or weren't really in tune with us for the sake of company? (Or companionship, what's the difference?).
Trigger Girl acted all adult and blocked me without reply. I gave details about the whole story in the spanish speaking thread of NoFap which I've been frequenting lately. I might throw a translation in "the other journal" at some point in the future.
Without even realizing I've started to talk about my story and struggles in my native language, both in NoFap and here. It just came natural to me at some point. My testimony here is still in construction, I prefer to tell the full thing before allowing future comments and discussion if they happen (perks of being moderator) but I wish you could read spanish guys. It's turning out really nice, if I'm one to judge. I always believed the language barrier would be something much more traumatic. If anything, I'm mostly struggling with not going overboard with sidetracks, fancy words and other staples of my written communication. I want it to be on point, readable, and most importantly, impactful.
This morning I had a great intimate time with my bf. I told him all the story with Trigger Girl which made him equal parts exasperated and understanding. I am a creep and technically a criminal, and if I was someone else and the girl a friend of his, he would have advised to denounce me. On the other hand, it's me. What kind of argument is that? But then he said something about me trying to exit the patriarchy matrix and bettering myself so I guess it makes sense. Also that I focus too much in highlighting my defects/shortcomings/weaknesses. I take virtues for granted. Spent topic, still relevant, until I change my ways. I also told him I was really sorry for being a downer lately (I'm also sorry for having being a downer here too, people). Spent some time at the beach, shared a lunch, then lovemaking ensued... simpler pleasures of life.
Later this night (some hours ago) a friend invited me to watch a film at his place. There were more known faces there which I warmly welcomed. Another friend known for her existentialism was the one to suggest the movie, Into the Wild if I remember right. Based on a true story life of a young lad heavily influenced by the 90s who snaps from yuppie life and travels America alone. I'm turning 23 in 5 days, give my heart a break. The guy was an upper class Ivy League graduate, I have basic education, just fucking no. Just two more years buddy. Two years in military or a successful business in copywriting, whichever happens first. Then I travel. I want to go East. Russia. Kazakhstan. Iran. Mongolia. Russia. China perhaps. Corea, Japan, then jump to the Americas, perhaps going all the way south till Tierra del Fuego. That or Oceania but then I'd have to turn and go to India. Plans, plans.
Nearly, all the time, i once made a friend who keep stealing from me and i knew it was wrong but didn't say anything because i knew somewhere deep down he was a really good person. Just needed to stay out of trouble. Couldn't trust people after that.
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Have you read Vagabonding by Rolf Potts yet? Really good!
Don't do this to me man, I really need to have a normie life.
Probably!
You know what would be cool? Travelling Quitter. Remember that drawing in Algeria? How about doodling and planting stickers everywhere around the world? Politely of course, no contamination of patrimony. Oh boy, that would be the stuff. Dreams.
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Day 25:
@Vlad Now what i would do in that situation now is to imagine being in an Honor student's shoes
Yep, art sites picking up steadily now, already gained notoriety from a few groups but won't be able to sell my art until i actually work on it. Nothing much happened this labor day, other than finishing up the Literature group's 5 page paper together for tommorow. Anyway, Some were able to even invite me to other sites like Discord to display my art publicly. All in all i had a very productive day. So, here's a little present for you guys.
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@AlexTheGrape, What's up?, Good starting out man.
@Mettermrck I've tried it a few times, no dice.
Hey Big Pete! I'm doing well thanks. It appears I'm nowhere near as consistent with journalling as I should be, so sorry for the late reply.
How's your journey going?
It's going pretty good, i like how my life has really turned around, i gained more sociability and respect from a lot of people, even my dad. I'm glad i took a step back from gaming
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Ok, I'm sorry for offering HIIT workouts...welcome to the forums
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Day 24:
Well i had to skip church this morning, my nose bled again but not as much while my grandmother started crying about her arthritic leg being swollen, so i gave her an ice pack and used my pops recliner to help elevate her leg for better circulation. I turned to her favorite show on the Inspiration channel and haven't hear a sound out of her yet, either she might be sleep or is enjoying the show a little.
Tbh, i started getting less irritated with her since i quit because i was rushing for no reason to go back to playing video games. I even embarrassed myself online because she kept calling me through intense gaming sessions, which in hindsight, i should've practiced moderation to tend to her needs. But, all that is over now so there's no worrying about it, just got to do what i need to do as a man and skip the complaints for now.
Talked with a guy online about how i can improve on my art saying that i need to get a graphing sketchbook to work on my shading and sharpen my pencils more. He even gave me a few articles on shading and coloring aspects using colored pencils, it was very helpful. Thanks Vlad, Mettermrck, Zala and Daniel for your support.
I'm grateful for staying attentive and actually learning first aid.
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I think you might be onto something @Vlad.
Come to think about it, all of my friends are more or less stuck in life and unsure about the future. All of them. The most optimistic is my boyfriend and he was the latest addition. Does that mean I'm subtly improving the tier of my networking? I'm always struggling to keep in touch with these friends. Perhaps it's time to cut ties and start clean. They can always jump inside the train if I get my life moving, and then it would fall to me to allow them to join or not. That might be a smart mindset.
It's very smart, Hitaru, honestly it's up to them to make that desicion just i would be careful not to force it on them.
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It's great that you are making the next plan after you are done with the 90 days. Almost everyone say the Detox is just the tip of the iceberg. But it would seem that must people don't finish the 90 days nor they continue sober after the 90 days.
I honestly think it's better to stay productive Mettermrck, if you do game just remind yourself of what happened before, during, and after your detox. Should help, congrats on your last day buddy.
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@BigPete247 does this really have 49 g of protein?! I only know where to get the egg whites and the cookies for this thing lol.
And does it really taste like cookies and cream?
Yeah, if you make it right, XD, but there are other recipes on this guy's channel, i think there are some protein drink mixes on his channel too if you're not keen on cooking.
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Glad you had a good day, Fern, congrats on passing two weeks without gaming!
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Day 28
Sent to review several tasks at work. I'm kinda proud of myselft because half of them were along the lines of "Poking with screwdriver - $5; Determining a place to poke - $995".
In the evening we were discussing acquiring a car with wife. It would be our first car, and I am no a fence. I don't think there's a point of a first car being the expensive one. I'm afraid it won't find much use immediately but will eat it's share of money. Insurance, maintenance, parking spot. Parking in anthill-like new districts is tough and going to work is problematic because of Moscow traffic. On the other hand it would be of much use with having to go to clinics or visit friends and relatives with little kid.
Plans for day 29, which is now: go throught a practice test for chosen exam to assess things I need to refresh, work out few of them, get some rest.
Expertise costs money.
If you go ahead with the first car, find something reliable, in good shape and with a good aftermarket. "Beginner" cars are easily resold and are not much of a pain.
I agree with Mettermrck, don't do what i did, take a quick check and drive it out of the lot, if you have to...inspect that ride.
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02 Sep 17
Days to go: 226
I have finally started to come out the other side of this flu.
Gosh I have such a love for running now! I am now actively scouring events all around Australia that I can get involved in, which will encourage me to travel more. And get me more shiny medals for my wall
I think I need a new direction for this journal. As I have lowered its priority in the short term, I have started pondering what I want to achieve out of this journal, and if it can't be achieved in other, quicker ways. The end result has been my motivation to post has lowered a bit, I still have been reading everyone else's journals when I can, but I am struggling to work out what I want to use the journal for going forward.
I wish you good health!
I'm very glad to read about your passion for running and chievement.
Totally looking forward to learn about your strategic goals.
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Never heard of a female encouraging a person to gain weight, its always the opposite with me. XD. In all seriousness, when i had to workout i hit the weights first 35lbs, 45lbs, rest, use the 60lb weightbar to do curls and free lifts, do 20 reps on the bicep curler. Afterwards, i'd hit up an empty space near the treadmills to do about 30 reps of pushups and situps, alt with crunches. Rest. Finally hitting the treadmill for a power mountain jog uphill for 30 mins. Rest. That would guarantee muscle mass without losing speed, Vlad.
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Where are you at with moderation, @Moe Smith? Are you still thinking about it? I'm proud of you for how far you've come. You're almost there!
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Mettermrck, you are awesome, glad you're two days away from reaching your goals as well as staying on the move, nice job Bob!
I want to live my life!
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Great, imquitgaming, keep it up!