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(통계는 주요 이벤트들만. 학교수업시간, 자는 시간, 이동 시간 제외. 클릭 시 커짐) 게임 끊은지 #38일째 오늘 일과 요약( 잘한 일 / 못한 일 ) - 수리학 과제 70% 진행.(+30%p) - 밤에 조깅함 - 친구와 함께 공돌이로서의 인생이 얼마나 안 좋은지 메신저로 얘기함. 이러니까 기분이 훨씬 나아졌다.

(Only major events. lecture time, bed time, and time on the road are not included. click the image to see bigger picture)Day #38Summary of Day ( Good work / Bad work ) - Hydraulics assignment 70% done.(+30%p) - Did jogging in the night. - Discussed how my(our) life sucks as an engineering students with my friend via messenger. It made me feel much better.

(Only major events. lecture time, bed time, and time on the road are not included. click the image to see bigger picture)Day #37Summary of Day ( Good work / Bad work ) - Done the first half of design team assignment. Lots of things to do. until Wednesday, hydraulics assignment(40% done) until Thursday, Structural mechanics assignment(0% done) until Friday, soil mechanics assignment(0% done) until Friday, hydrology team project(50% done) until next Monday, slab design team project(60% done) - If there's no exam, studying can be fun... I get stress when there's deadlines of assignments and exams. - Did a lot of hydraulics note taking.

(통계는 주요 이벤트들만. 학교수업시간, 자는 시간, 이동 시간 제외. 클릭 시 커짐) 게임 끊은지 #37일째 오늘 일과 요약( 잘한 일 / 못한 일 ) - 설계 과제 1차 마무리. 할 게 너무 많다. 수요일까지 수리학 과제(40% 진행) 목요일까지 구조역학 과제(0% 진행) 금요일까지 토질역학 과제(0% 진행) 금요일까지 수문학 조별과제(50% 진행)다음주 월요일까지 슬래브 설계 조별과제(60% 진행) - 공부도 시험이 없으면 재밌는 것 같은데... 시험이랑 과제때문에 압박이 생기면 그때부터 하기 싫어진다 - 수리학 노트 필기도 많이 함

Your calendar looks cool! Don't get too stressed to accomplish 100% of the things. 100% is a good thing, but I think 50% is still good enough. I think you can make it.

I had experienced the same situation few days ago. At that moment I felt like crap. This weekend, I've found useful ways to focus on what I should do(studying, specifically). It's simple. There are two things. The first thing is studying with someone else. It made me focused on subjects much longer. It helped me out a lot. It was a group project and I had to do something useful for the group. That's why I had tried really hard, I guess. The second thing is changing the place where you're in. I used to study at home. It made me distracted often. I changed the place into cafe or school. I could focus more. I won't tell that I'm always perfect. I sometimes can focus, and sometime can't. But I've been trying my best to keep going. I believe you can find your own method to be productive. Just try anything that looks useful. We won't lose anything. I know that I would get depressed someday, but now I feel good. You will find some of your good days in the near future. I think patience is really important to our journey. Keep it up! We can't always have a perfect day.

Day 36 - 정말 좋은 날이었다. 자유 시간 중 72%를 공부하는 데 썼다. 조별 과제 모임이었고, 결과가 좋았다. 나는 누구랑 같이 공부하면서 노트북도 활용할 때 집중할 수 있는 것 같다. 혼자 말고 다른 사람이랑 같이 공부할 수 있는 방법을 찾으면 좋을 것 같다.

Day 36 - Awesome job. 72% of the free time spent on studying. It was a group meeting and it was successful. I can concentrate on studying when I have a group of friends and laptop around me. I may find a way to study with somebody, not by myself.

(통계는 주요 이벤트들만. 학교수업시간, 자는 시간, 이동 시간 제외. 클릭 시 커짐) 게임 끊은지 #35일째 오늘 일과 요약( 잘한 일 / 못한 일 ) - 유튜브 영상을 보면서 시간을 또 낭비했다. 이제 진짜로 그만둬야 할 것 같다. 이것때문에 저녁에 있는 시험을 망쳤다. 정말 우울하고 좌절감이 들었다. 왜냐하면 스스로가 멍청하고 통제할 수 없는 것 같은 느낌이 들었기 때문이다. 차라리 자살하는 게 사회에 더 도움이 될 것 같았다. 저녁에 시험이 끝나고 정말 울고싶었고 죽고 싶었다. 이 상황을 잊기 위해서 또 게임을 하고 싶었다. 유튜브 영상을 보면서 시간을 낭비한 건 내 잘못이고 죄책감이 느껴진다. 게임을 하면서 또 도망치고 싶었다. 유튜브 영상을 본 것도 사실은 내 상황을 잊고 싶었기 때문이다. 공부해야 할 게 정말 너무 많았고 나는 완벽하지 않으면 쓸모 없다는 마인드를 갖고 있었다. 그게 내가 시간을 낭비한 이유다. 다 끝내지 못할 것 같은 느낌은 정말 큰 스트레스다. 한달 전에 얘기했듯이, 내가 1학년때까지는 정말 성공적이었다. 그런데 2, 3학년이 되면서 점점 그게 힘들어졌고, 그런 상황을 받아들이기가 힘들었다. 나는 실패하는 걸 잘 못한다. 내가 더이상 좋은 학생이 아니라는 사실을 받아들이기가 힘들다. 감정 조절하기가 힘들다. - 아주 작은 성과라고 한다면 아는 게 거의 없었어도 시험을 안 치지는 않았다는 거다. 어차피 그 과목에서 F를 받을 거기 때문에 쓸데없는 행동이긴 했지만, 내가 30일 전에 세운 목표는 더이상 결석하지 않는 거였기 때문에 어쨌든 갔다. 한 가지 더 쓰면 시험 이후에 게임을 하지 않았다는 거다. 내가 이런 작은 걸 쓰는 이유는 내 자존감이 아주 형편없는 상태고, 이런 작은 걸 쓰다 보면 그걸 올릴 수 있다고 했기 때문이다. 내일은 잘 해야겠다. 이번 주말에 이틀동안 과제때문에 조 모임이 있고, 뭔가 쓸모있는 일을 해야될 것 같다.

(Only major events. lecture time, bed time, and time on the road are not included. click the image to see bigger picture)Day #35Summary of Day ( Good work / Bad work ) - Wasted time watching Youtube again. I think I should really stop from now on. Because of that, I screwed an exam this evening. It made me really depressed and frustrated because I thought myself really stupid and not controllable. At this moment I thought killing myself is much more beneficial to the society. After the evening exam, I wanted to cry and suicide. I considered gaming again in order to forget the situation. Wasting too much time on Youtube is my fault and I felt guilty about it. I wanted to escape playing video games. In fact, I watched Youtube videos to escape my situation. There were tons of things to study and I had all-or-nothing mind. That's why I wasted my time. It was huge stress as I expected that I won't be able to finish the work. As I mentioned one month ago, I was really successful until I was freshman in this university. Things have gotten worse as I became 2nd and 3rd years in the university, and that makes me hard to accept my situation. I'm not good at failing. It is really tough to admit that I'm no longer a good student. It's really hard to control my emotion. - The only small achievement is that I didn't escape from the exam even if I didn't know many things to write. It was useless because I may get F on that subject, but my tiny goal that I set up 30 days ago was not being absent so that's why I went to classroom. Another thing is that I didn't play video games after the exam. I'm writing these tiny things because my self-esteem is really crappy and I was told to write down some good things even if it's small. I need to do better tomorrow. I have two days of team meeting for a project this weekend and I have to do some useful things for the team.

(통계는 주요 이벤트들만. 학교수업시간, 자는 시간, 이동 시간 제외. 클릭 시 커짐) 게임 끊은지 #34일째 오늘 일과 요약( 잘한 일 / 못한 일 ) - 토질역학 과제 끝냈다! 어제 많이 놀아서 기분이 안 좋았는데 작은 거라도 하나 하니까 기분이 좋아졌다. - 오늘도 유튜브 영상을 너무 많이 봤다... 내일은 진짜 공부 할 거다..

(Only major events. lecture time, bed time, and time on the road are not included. click the image to see bigger picture) Day #34 Summary of Day ( Good work / Bad work ) - Solved soil mechanics assignment! I was depressed because of yesterday's laziness, but I feel great now. Even if the assignment was a small thing, I've made a progress. - I watched too many Youtube videos again... I'm going to study hard tomorrow..

Day 33 I wasted time too much. Today's gonna be different.

Day 33 I wasted time too much. Today's gonna be different.

게임 끊은지 #31일째오늘 일과 요약( 잘한 일 / 못한 일 )- 하루종일 예비군 훈련을 잘 받았고, 저녁에 있는 수업도 빠지지 않았다.

Day #31 Summary of Day ( Good work / Bad work ) - Did well during an 8 hours of military training. After that, I attended evening class.

Day 30 64% productive

Day 30 64% productive

Seems like you're doing really great.

(통계는 주요 이벤트들만. 학교수업시간, 자는 시간, 이동 시간 제외. 클릭 시 커짐) 게임 끊은지 #29일째 오늘 일과 요약( 잘한 일 / 못한 일 ) - 와... 예제 하나 풀었는데 A4용지 3페이지와 1시간 30분이 들어간다.. ㅋㅋㅋ - 68.4%의 여유시간을 공부하는 데 씀. 좋은 하루였다. - 하지만 목표로 했던 과제 두 개 끝내는 건 실패. 0.8개 했다. 할 일이 너무 많다. 일요일 저녁 설계 모임, 월요일에 예비군 훈련, 화요일은 아침 9시-밤 8시 내내 수업, 수요일까지 과제 하나, 금요일에 콘크리트구조공학 전 범위 시험, 토요일-일요일에 슬래브 설계해야한다.

(Only major events. lecture time, bed time, and time on the road are not included. click the image to see bigger picture) Day #29 Summary of Day ( Good work / Bad work ) - It took 3 pages of A4 and 1.5 hours to solve a single example question... wow - Spent 68.4% of free time studying. It was a good day. - But I failed to do two assignments that I've planned to do. I did 0.8 out of 2. Too many things to do. Slab design team meeting in Sunday evening, Military drill on Monday, lots of lectures from 9 am to 8 pm on Tuesday(I only have one hour lunch time), one assignment until Wednesday, Concrete engineering exam on Friday(I have to study every chapter that students have learned this semester), Another slab design team meeting on Saturday-Sunday.

I wish you control video games, not the opposite way! Good luck.

Be very careful not to lose your efforts. Don't let video games conquer your mind again. I hope you can control game times properly.

I think finding something that can make you busy is the best way not to relapse. It would be better if it's 'a bit' stressful. Setting deadlines is a good way to forget video games. I hope you have a better day tomorrow

Day 28 72% of productive time.