Entry 24.02 (Written on 25.02)
Day 514: No Useless Videos
Day 512: Sticking to Food schedule
Day 116: Eating Only between 06:30 and 19:00 (Last bite before 19:00)
Day 106: Being in bed before 23:15
3 Things I did right, no matter how small.
-Waking up proactivelyat 05 10 for the third day in a row, though it makes a total of less than 6 hrs of sleep, still an important thing because it is done by choice
-Having a reduced lunch to avoid acid reflux 🙂
1 Thing I could do better-
-Write in schedule that if i complete 40 deliveries early not continue doing more, but go home and complete lacking pomodoros and visualisation after shower
Hey! Thank you so much for sharing a lot of your journey, from current gaming urges to past experiences of homelessness. It means a lot to hold those words ❤️
The risk is not worth it! I've gone through the same loop of "oh it will be no big deal I'll make sure it's safe", but no amount of safety measures matter when addiction is driving your intentions. And it sounds like it, to me- you do mention that you are at risk of falling into binge.
It's not worth your time, that risk or the possible consequences. I want you to be free, I want you to be happy, I want you to create a life where that kind of risk will seem unnecessary to take ❤️
Good luck navigating this situation however feels right; making regretful choices/mistakes is a part of the eternal learning process that is living- I look forward to hearing more from you!
Homework was to tough , it beated me up. Will go for a round two tomorrow). Liked GYM a lot, also did some fighting with training dummy. I lost due to my poor techniques and managed to injure myself a little, but it's no problem. Betten and tired, I cravled home, to take a nap and write about today's journey here
What I am thankful for:
- Gpt4 for not letting me down and helping with coding
Goal for day#14
- Call Gemini and try and go for round 3
- Prepere weekly wardrobe)
Oop, it's been a while. I haven't gamed in the meantime though, so yay me.
We're finally coming out of winter and I had a medical check-up done because I was/am so very tired all the time. I'm deficient in a couple things and hoping to feel better soon.
Apart from that, not gaming makes me feel all the feels instead of numbing/ignoring/procrastinating them, so I'm working with a therapist on that as well.
I hope everybody is well.
Ive had my dose of gaming today, played all day from morning. Ill attempt to fight resistance tomorrow once again. The human animal is supposed to be a pinnacle of survival after all, even If I fail I hope my unconsicous physical body will back me up.
@Pochatok Thanks for replying, I want to be a macho-infused toxic man though, might not be possible this life but atleast I want to make god think I deserve to be next life
@Dark That's great
I think spartan way of life is what I truly want https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bUzhJvlELU4