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Significant late Sunday morning post: It's 5 minutes til midday here now, but I've been awake since 4:30am from a dream-shock in the form of a TV monster (that I didn't even end up watching more of! - It was a previous creature). I'm pretty sure I actually gasped out loud, and that was my 8 hours of sleep already, so I got up.  Now, aside from a lovely morning trip for groceries, I've basically just been online, clicking away with music. As of today, two feelings have gotten to me instead of the usual one - 1) Making my gaming profiles simply unusable/item-less/whatever, and 2) A scary feeling of dropping into sleep whilst sitting in my chair, brought on by stretching my arms above my head and leaning back. -> Maybe I should have slept 2 more hours until daybreak and that might have been good enough, or maybe I needed a second walk yesterday instead of staying sedentary from midday onward. But there's probably no denying that gazing into the screen with an active mind but dragging the rest of me behind, played its part.  ^ That's not all though. I am awaiting the official assigning of two full-length work-shifts doing washing-up and preparation to me for next week, and I want to be sure that I turn up both fit, and healthy, without preoccupations. If I don't play my problem game, and nothing upsets me, and the work turns out badly (yet I felt a certain closeness with the staff from a mere 2 hours last week, so I am hoping I can get integrated there), then I'll be able to tell what to do next. ___________ So, I'm going to take one full week away from gameplay; by the Monday after next (in 8 or 9 days), I should have both worked and processed my thoughts and feelings about it. If I integrate well, I'll start abstaining with a multi-weekly count. My next post, I intend to start with 'Week 1, Monday:' (and so on), posting what I need to. That's all for the serious score. ___________ Gratitude: ~ Finishing off maybe 2/4 of the main parts to a full-fledge ('free to pwn') game profile, with precisely 'the right amount of stress' - there was a bad moment last night when I used 30% of some points total to avoid a much-too-dangerous task. If I weren't set on abstaining for at least a week already, I would at least restrict the activities list to an absolute minimum. I'm really not even close to beating all of the game's achievements and 'bosses' - on that note, it's hard being a real-life boss; why should I care if I personally can intentionally beat one? ~ A sunny day before four days of forecast rain ~ Wholegrain crackers with nuts ~ The only pain this Sunday has caused me so far, is finding out after 2 hours awake that a break from my game is pretty much non-negotiable. Giving this next workplace an honest try and keeping friends and family in the loop about things at this time of year is a high priority. Well, that's all - and I know it'll be hard, but happy weekend everyone, and good luck. ~ Matt

Entry 27.6 Weeks until average life expectancy: 2772 (80th birthday) Day 163: No Useless Videos Day 995: Sticking to Food schedule Day 598: Eating Only between 06:30 and 19:00 (Last bite before 19:00) Day 146: Being in bed before 23:15 3 Things I did well, no matter how small  - 4 pomodoros - Finished doh revah ve efsed, bedides adding receipts, Iäll send it without them and if requested will add them. Now just need to log into the tax office website to ask them whether to sent them the fixed one or the other because the difference is small - Having managed to go to two orthotics stores and have them look at my shoe inserts 1 Thing I could do better -Plan the whole day in advance, not half a day Gaming (Death, Slavery, Regret, Disease) - 5 Yan (Life, Individuality, Freedom, Purpose, Self-Fulfillment) - 164

Saturday morning: Easy decision, coming online here to type - I missed yesterday as I had enough to think about, plus I left my new, would-be boss a message saying I'd like further training/opportunities after the first 2 hours. I've woken myself up to leave one over the phone before the business ramps up today, and will leave it at that for the weekend. Also, a lot of my energy was used up yesterday on a friends program meet up for 3 hours, and I did some repetitive game-playing that I previously deemed 'too painful' to do anymore of, but was 'necessary to progress further' in it. If y'all must know, the time has come around again to watch the last couple of weeks of my subscription dwindle. Unfortunately, my brain has already formed some plans around that in free-play, but that is incredibly boring without people who will chat with you at the same time - maybe it'll mean a proper break. -> I know that the standard advice revolves around changes being promptly made in the here and now, but since I've already come here - I'll just be thinking about the timing of more important activities in the day, as usual. Time to try and plan the weekend; good luck all. Gratitude: ~ I double-checked why I couldn't heat my frying pan to finally see I'd knocked the plug out - fixed and cooking done ~ Even two hours of moderate working pressure made me grateful to return home, and later a healthy hour of lifting - I wonder what double or triple that would do in the same place, if it is to go well ~ I felt well enough to think of resuming a TV series just for its 80s vibes - though the scares and twists are a little weird - maybe principle says not to, but I could look at spoilers/plot summaries to assist me ~ Gratitude for gratitude (gratception) Over and out. ~ Matt

Entry 26.6 Weeks until average life expectancy: 2772 (80th birthday) Day 162: No Useless Videos Day 994: Sticking to Food schedule Day 597: Eating Only between 06:30 and 19:00 (Last bite before 19:00) Day 145: Being in bed before 23:15 3 Things I did well, no matter how small  - 4 pomodoros - Finished the unfixed part of doh revah ve efsed - 1 Video regarding highways 1 Thing I could do better -Pay attention that I'm avoiding work through messing around with food, and see what I can do to reduce this. Gaming (Death, Slavery, Regret, Disease) - 5 Yan (Life, Individuality, Freedom, Purpose, Self-Fulfillment) - 163

Yes! Wishing you well Allan 🙂