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By wheatbiscuit · Posted
Sunday evening: As usual (though one of the few reasons I can think why is not feeling the same kind of happiness other Sunday-citizens were presumably enjoying), Sunday has been tough to get through. I had a concentrated bout of frustration and dread over trying to have texting conversations. I may have been a little silly, in the original sense of the word. I've been online, having somewhat the usual cerebral experience, and didn't end up going for a 'turkey' (three gym sessions on three consecutive days). That was fine, except I spent far too much time locked into a game - 'it'/the main culprit. I can honestly say that my plans for it have stalled. The game is, as of the present moment, a joke of a journey to consider. Maybe it was the thought of a first planned - duo - exercise session in the early morning tomorrow, or the place we've chosen to go, but I worked through an angry set of imaginings of my own making as part of a standby. I was also trying to watch an angry character (and a very mild-mannered one as well) in a movie, and may have soaked up too much energy. But I talked myself through it during pauses, and now it's time to wind down. Hopefully I won't be telling you the same thing tomorrow. I aim to be my healthy brand of cool, so things should be fine. Good luck all, ~ Matt Gratitude: ~ Blue skies ~ All grocery store stock available ~ Easy-ish cold shower water ~ Nothing outside that I perceived went much wrong ______ Notes taken: 'Gaming isn't even effective escapism', 'Too many opportune moments have I watched pass' (but how do I avoid hyper-vigilance?), and 'Do I have sufficient energy reserves to sit out unhealthy urges?' (and how might I develop more?) -
Entry 21.6 Weeks until average life expectancy: 2773 Day 157: No Useless Videos Day 989: Sticking to Food schedule Day 592: Eating Only between 06:30 and 19:00 (Last bite before 19:00) Day 140: Being in bed before 23:15 3 Things I did well, no matter how small - 4 pomodoros - Afternoon workout - Reading more about how to study to c1 exam on the guy's blog 1 Thing I could do better at 13 30 cut the meeting according to the living room watch and call my brother, then cut the meeting with him at 14. Adhere to the schedule as if it's a drill sergeeant Gaming (Death, Slavery, Regret, Disease) - 5 Yan (Life, Individuality, Freedom, Purpose, Self-Fulfillment) - 158 -
Entry 20.6 ( didn't get posted on 20.6 for some reason so I'm posting it now... on 21.6) Weeks until average life expectancy: 2773 Day 156: No Useless Videos Day 988: Sticking to Food schedule Day 591: Eating Only between 06:30 and 19:00 (Last bite before 19:00) Day 139: Being in bed before 23:15 3 Things I did well, no matter how small - 4 pomodoros - Afternoon workout - Sent 1 more email to IHK regarding whether it's acceptable to apply for a self-employment residence permit as a realtor who wants to work in cooperation with other companies on per-comision basis and more 1 Thing I could do better Eat dinner a bit faster to manage all the pomdoros earlier, begin evening routine earlier and go to sleep earlier Gaming (Death, Slavery, Regret, Disease) - 5 Yan (Life, Individuality, Freedom, Purpose, Self-Fulfillment) - 157
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By wheatbiscuit · Posted
You're absolutely right, to say that everyone who's worried about missing out while abstaining - especially during a first detox - shouldn't be. I can say that confessing all of my sporadic urges to play or daydream about playing during my 90 days off (which went on for 5 months, if I recall correctly) really worked, and were so rewarding that I couldn't put it into good enough words of gratitude or appreciation - not for lack of trying, either. What happened to me personally was after 5 months off, I bravely attended a 'slumber party' (for grown boys 😄) and went out the following day to enjoy it. However, the two homies I was with forgot something essential about my social anxieties whilst out and I felt so let down that I resorted back to my problem game, with eventual gusto. It's even in my forum signature now (though it may not have been then) - 'HALTED' = Hungry/Angry/Lonely/Tired/Environmentally-stressed/Dehydrated - and I was all of them at the time. I don't know if I actually consciously decided to advance a gaming profile as far as I did, during the following week, but I certainly went home and thought so much about 'the good/better' times spent playing such that I ended up simply collapsing and embracing them once more. Much like re-reading the Harry Potter series for the 12th time, there has always been a way of improving the amount of 'data' and feedback from my problem game. What I've done in the last 24 hours has felt positively wholesome, but I know that it isn't. I'm just trying to find out what my real-world limits are again now, with a designated 'safe space'. One problem with that is that time shows no mercy unless we show it first, most likely. Thanks for posting a discussion topic that's successfully guilted this addict. -
By wheatbiscuit · Posted
Saturday morning ramble + check-in: Nine hours of sleep, basically no dreams. I tried a lifting session yesterday evening at the local gym this time, and it went well. I've been doing a lot more walking than lifting for the past 2 weeks. One could blame chasing a gaming goal instead of maximising daily rest, then getting up to go and lift whenever I had the slightest inclination. Maybe we're all familiar with the feeling I mentioned yesterday, of leaving our bodies behind and 'going full cerebral' on a screen. It's not a prized connection, is it? Lol Two times, already, I saw myself signing in to a game area where there would be sure to be almost no happy surprises, because I was having trouble finding suitable job ads to apply to. Now that I've pretty much resolved to hand out resumes at a few places that may not even be hiring at the moment, I saw an hour or two free, before starting the day wholly. Habit and/or 'zombie-mode' was going to kick in, and I'd surely feel more like signing in IF the bright idea to test out some new replacement sneakers that I last wore last year. So I'll give that a try. Happy weekend all. ~ Matt Gratitude: ~ I actually liked the heating in the local gym; somehow it didn't stifle but helped me sweat healthily ~ Aside from 'leaping into action' on the last morning of the gaming goal yesterday and making chaos of breakfast, it was a good day; no other real catastrophes, though the effects of compulsive play lingered ~ The weather; plenty of clear skies ~ Water in the large water bottle I was gifted last year
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