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Entry 28.8 (Written on 28.8 at least the 3 things done well and 1 thing better, the count updated at 30.8)(Posted on 30.8 because of site technical issues) Weeks until average life expectancy: 2763 (80th birthday)  Day 225: No Useless Videos Day 1057: Sticking to Food schedule Day 660: Eating Only between 06:30 and 19:00 (Last bite before 19:00) Day 38: Being in bed before 23:15 3 Things I did well, no matter how small  -Morning jog -40 ish hours fast -handing in financial report finally 1 Thing I could do better -perhaps wake up earlier to have time buffer to call tax authority regarding the 100 euro fee they put on me. Gaming (Death, Slavery, Regret, Disease) - 5 Yan (Life, Individuality, Freedom, Purpose, Self-Fulfillment) - 227

Entry 27.8 (Written on 27.8 at least the 3 things done well and 1 thing better, the count updated at 30.8)(Posted on 30.8 because of site technical issues) Weeks until average life expectancy: 2763 (80th birthday)  Day 224: No Useless Videos Day 1056: Sticking to Food schedule Day 659: Eating Only between 06:30 and 19:00 (Last bite before 19:00) Day 37: Being in bed before 23:15 3 Things I did well, no matter how small  -finished all the homework of jurgen once more -2 pomodoros -when conversation with michael didn't happen today, learning german instead 1 Thing I could do better -Consider asking Jurgen to focus more on individual rules than overall text corrections? Gaming (Death, Slavery, Regret, Disease) - 5 Yan (Life, Individuality, Freedom, Purpose, Self-Fulfillment) - 226

Entry 26.8 (Written on 27.8 at least the 3 things done well and 1 thing better, the count updated at 30.8)(Posted on 30.8 because of site technical issues) Weeks until average life expectancy: 2763 (80th birthday)  Day 223: No Useless Videos Day 1055: Sticking to Food schedule Day 658: Eating Only between 06:30 and 19:00 (Last bite before 19:00) Day 36: Being in bed before 23:15 3 Things I did well, no matter how small -75% effort run -Getting storylearning course -Letting go of doh and deciding to pay 200 ILS to get the permission to focus on German learning already, and possibly avoid overpaying tax (Although until I pay it's not a real decision but that's the direction I seem to be going) 1 Thing I could do better -Get more trial lessons before doing one more with Jurgen? Gaming (Death, Slavery, Regret, Disease) - 5 Yan (Life, Individuality, Freedom, Purpose, Self-Fulfillment) - 225

Entry 25.8 (Written on 27.8 at least the 3 things done well and 1 thing better, the count updated at 30.8)(Posted on 30.8 because of site technical issues) Weeks until average life expectancy: 2763 (80th birthday)  Day 222: No Useless Videos Day 1054: Sticking to Food schedule Day 657: Eating Only between 06:30 and 19:00 (Last bite before 19:00) Day 35: Being in bed before 23:15 3 Things I did well, no matter how small  -Once I saw the shop of Edeka is too big and has relatively high prices, left it without getting anything. -Workout -Made goethe kurs purchase 1 Thing I could do better -Possibly make an order of food online, could have made the process 1 hr instead of 3, also I won't have to go to three stores possibly Gaming (Death, Slavery, Regret, Disease) - 5 Yan (Life, Individuality, Freedom, Purpose, Self-Fulfillment) - 224  

Saturday afternoon: So, I've been chasing the last listed game activity down for a couple of weeks now. It was still the beginning of August when I started and finished the second-to-last, and I don't think that I will spend much of September doing the same, at least. Other people online with me in the game-space have been checking how close to profile completion I am, and asking me how it's going - I haven't had the heart to type 'it's really nothing and not worth it overall' back to them, in public chat. But I have been saying it offline in-person for at least a year now - and I said it again to a gym acquaintance after our workouts: 'Don't play games like me/I do.' Back when I'd half-determined who I was as a person, at 13, I completed many puzzles on this same game. It was always how Wheatbiscuit Senior (WS) used to challenge me - with things like MENSA booklets, or Sudoku. These days, it's all about attention and personal investment. For me, this now remains a patience-grind; proving that I appreciate that some things will take time specifically in my shoes.  'The high' that games gave me were all about completing challenges that 'popped up' on-screen, as a result of me assigning value to them, just for being integrated in and developed - that is, once I knew I had reached the maximum 'reward/capability', I would be free to discuss and play everything else that I considered 'optionally fun'. - I looked up a new (to me) kind of puzzle on the game, and creativity was not emphasised on the information page, so I felt disappointed and sad that people still pursued its completion semi-regularly.  Back in my first year of college, I got lost trying to find the campus by departing the bus too early. I was determined to get there and discover a new physical location solely because it was 'the next challenge' from a person whose attention I valued and gave mine to in return - my mom. Things changed over the years, some not all for the better (I have thought), and a major reason is that after several forms of learning, I don't know what I'll be able to chase with the same fervour and eager attitude.  I still do puzzles in magazines and things, when I feel like I've taken care of my health and affairs and am still a little further ahead of being bored. If it weren't for the rapid 'dropping' of the fish that appear on my screen, and the increasing speed I am able to click to do that, I'd probably have gotten distracted even now. 😛  The best highs seem to come from feelings like last week's, that I would recommend to anybody. Those, and showing/expressing gratitude. So here's today's list: ~ Sensing when to blend in, and when to stand out (it is still relevant to me, as I search) ~ Having a mostly un-awkward exchange with a building-mate who had been locked outside ~ A dream that helped me make talking points with WS this morning, out on a walk ~ Being undeterred by a 'bad gateway' error to accessing our forums (I searched for a journals link) ^ I may add more. Peace, and thanks guys - happy weekend. ~ Matt