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  1. KO added a post in a topic Just Do it Journal!-Going from Mediocre to Mighty   

    5/28/2017
    I have a great feeling about today. Why? No reason. Never mind, this day was shit. 
     
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  2. KO added a post in a topic Just Do it Journal!-Going from Mediocre to Mighty   

     
    5/27/2017

    Stats:
    Spirit: D
    Body: C
    Mind: C
    Charisma: D
    Discipline: E
    Developmental Potential: A 
    Meal Summary:

    -Didn’t track-

    Exercise Summary:

    -Skipped leg day, am I bro now? -
    General:

    Yo! It's KO with more pointless unnuanced rambling! Not living the way, I want to life and I choose to do nothing about. Instead I try to the numb the pain by escapism. You know the usual; video games, porn, and TV. Who do I want to be in life? How do I want to live? How do I become who I want to be in life? What are the steps I need to take to live like I want to live? Why am I doing all of this?  What is my reason? Yay for cringe self-development and shitty YouTube motivation. Looked at a NSFW reddit sub and I’ve never been so disgusted and disappointed in myself. Feelsbadman.png, wait no I don’t deserve png quality, Feelsbadman.jpeg.

    Read through Slight Edge Chapter 1!  Couldn’t be bothered to get out of a chair yesterday. Progress motherfucker! Getting rid of my website blockers, whenever I block websites I get too focused on what’s blocked and I try to find loopholes to access the website. I believe it’s better to have the mindset of its available to me but I DON’T want it. Done with online games, I mean what’s the point? I was playing the CBT and the progress was getting wiped and I spent all night grinding dungeons and for what? Depriving myself of sleep Giving myself the Quasimodo special? Hell, I remember one game I invested a lot of time in was shut down this spring and another one is shutting down this summer.

    Knowledge Gained:

    How to doesn’t matter as much as why

    Plan for Tomorrow:

    Doing the damn, the thing
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  3. KO added a post in a topic Just Do it Journal!-Going from Mediocre to Mighty   

    Another hardcore relapse, I want to die.
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  4. KO added a post in a topic Just Do it Journal!-Going from Mediocre to Mighty   

    Relapsed today, uninstalling and blocking. 
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  5. KO added a post in a topic Just Do it Journal!-Going from Mediocre to Mighty   

    5/14/2017

    Stats:
    Spirit: D
    Body: C
    Mind: C
    Charisma: D
    Discipline: E
    Developmental Potential: A 
    Meal Summary:

    Cheated myself

    Exercise Summary:

    Been skipping, going to continue Monday
    General:

    Relapsed yesterday, wasn’t it worth it. The game was boring and felt like I was doing chores. Feel unproductive as fuck spent a good amount of time watching TV. Going to full commit to this change, so far, I’ve been half-assing everything and getting slapped with mediocre results.

    Knowledge Gained:

    Obsession and desperation are damn powerful.



    Plan for Tomorrow:

    Do the damn the thing

     

     
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  6. KO added a post in a topic Just Do it Journal!-Going from Mediocre to Mighty   

    Relapsed on the 14th, regret it. Installed Cold Turkey and not going to look this time. 
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  7. KO added a post in a topic Just Do it Journal!-Going from Mediocre to Mighty   

    5/12/2017
    I want to forget about this day 
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  8. KO added a post in a topic Just Do it Journal!-Going from Mediocre to Mighty   

    5/11/2017

    Stats:
    Spirit: D
    Body: C
    Mind: C
    Charisma: E->D
    Discipline: E
    Developmental Potential: A 
    Meal Summary:

    Unpalatable junk

    Exercise Summary:

    Rest day not feeling it.
    General:

    YO It’s KO after another mini-hiatus. It’s just not working. I quit video games, I quit watching porn and masturbation, and I quit Reddit. Yet I still feel that I’m doing something wrong. My roommate started to drama with our ex-friends over text and I wanted no part in but he included me anyway. I have done it in the past but learned that if confrontation is unnecessary then it is not worth it. I really need to think about the people I associate with, get new friends? No, fuck having friends! Now he accuses me of avoiding him because I might be busy this summer. I’ll just be forever alone. Fuck it, I need to seriously reflect on my life I never felt this bad before. I give too many shits and fucks about things that don’t matter. Spirit levels are getting low, losing sight of the bigger picture. Charisma seems to be going up. I’ve been effortlessly greeting people and starting conversations with them.

    3+/3 people greeted

    Knowledge Gained:

    N/A. I seriously cannot think of one take away from today.



    Plan for Tomorrow:

    Daily routine, apply for more jobs, start a project not sure if coding or creative project but something to do before I relapse. 

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  9. KO added a post in a topic What is the last book you read?   

    Previously reading The Art of Not Giving a Fuck, put the book on hold but I enjoyed the content. Much different than the generic self-help nonsense you get. The concepts discussed in the book are applicable, like have a value system and holding yourself accountable. Currently reading The Slight Edge after various recommendations, not far in yet.  
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  10. KO added a post in a topic Just Do it Journal!-Going from Mediocre to Mighty   

    I just installed a game, so another relapse may occur if the game decides to work.  
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  11. KO added a post in a topic Just Do it Journal!-Going from Mediocre to Mighty   

    I relapsed around the 29th, I uninstalled right after because I remember how lackluster the game was. 
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  12. KO added a post in a topic Just Do it Journal!-Going from Mediocre to Mighty   

    YO, It's KO and this Day was objectively shit and I'll leave it at that. 
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  13. KO added a post in a topic Just Do it Journal!-Going from Mediocre to Mighty   

    4/17/2017

    Stats:
    Spirit: D
    Body: C
    Mind: C
    Charisma: E
    Discipline: E
    Developmental Potential: A 



    Meal Summary:

    Meal 1: Two eggs sandwiches on a multigrain bagel with American cheese. 2 Cups of water. 2 Slices of bacon. 3 oz. of potatoes

    Meal 2: Spinach. Chicken sandwich on a roll.

    Meal 3: Chicken. White rice. Broccoli.

    Exercise Summary:

    Light Week

    OHP 65lb, 85lb, 95lb x5

    Dips 5x6+

    Chins 5x5+
    General Activity Log:

    YO! It's KO. Doing a soft reset on myself. Limiting my morning routine to meditation(timed/guided) and evening routine to reading. I tried to do too much so I broke and went back to my old ways. Read 10 pages today. JFC I want to die right now.

    Knowledge Gained:
    *To recreate yourself something must be lost.

    Plan for Tomorrow:

    Keep up with morning routine and evening routine. Complete 1 lesson on udacity. 
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