Stats: Spirit: D Body: C Mind: C Charisma: D Discipline: E Developmental Potential: A Meal Summary:
Been skipping, going to continue Monday General:
Relapsed yesterday, wasn’t it worth it. The game was boring and felt like I was doing chores. Feel unproductive as fuck spent a good amount of time watching TV. Going to full commit to this change, so far, I’ve been half-assing everything and getting slapped with mediocre results.
Stats: Spirit: D Body: C Mind: C Charisma: E->D Discipline: E Developmental Potential: A Meal Summary:
Rest day not feeling it. General:
YO It’s KO after another mini-hiatus. It’s just not working. I quit video games, I quit watching porn and masturbation, and I quit Reddit. Yet I still feel that I’m doing something wrong. My roommate started to drama with our ex-friends over text and I wanted no part in but he included me anyway. I have done it in the past but learned that if confrontation is unnecessary then it is not worth it. I really need to think about the people I associate with, get new friends? No, fuck having friends! Now he accuses me of avoiding him because I might be busy this summer. I’ll just be forever alone. Fuck it, I need to seriously reflect on my life I never felt this bad before. I give too many shits and fucks about things that don’t matter. Spirit levels are getting low, losing sight of the bigger picture. Charisma seems to be going up. I’ve been effortlessly greeting people and starting conversations with them.
3+/3 people greeted
N/A. I seriously cannot think of one take away from today.
Plan for Tomorrow:
Daily routine, apply for more jobs, start a project not sure if coding or creative project but something to do before I relapse.
Previously reading The Art of Not Giving a Fuck, put the book on hold but I enjoyed the content. Much different than the generic self-help nonsense you get. The concepts discussed in the book are applicable, like have a value system and holding yourself accountable. Currently reading The Slight Edge after various recommendations, not far in yet.
Stats: Spirit: D Body: C Mind: C Charisma: E Discipline: E Developmental Potential: A
Meal 1: Two eggs sandwiches on a multigrain bagel with American cheese. 2 Cups of water. 2 Slices of bacon. 3 oz. of potatoes
Meal 2: Spinach. Chicken sandwich on a roll.
Meal 3: Chicken. White rice. Broccoli.
OHP 65lb, 85lb, 95lb x5
Chins 5x5+ General Activity Log:
YO! It's KO. Doing a soft reset on myself. Limiting my morning routine to meditation(timed/guided) and evening routine to reading. I tried to do too much so I broke and went back to my old ways. Read 10 pages today. JFC I want to die right now.
Knowledge Gained: *To recreate yourself something must be lost.
Plan for Tomorrow:
Keep up with morning routine and evening routine. Complete 1 lesson on udacity.
Stats: Spirit: D Body: C Mind: C Charisma: E Discipline: E Developmental Potential: A Meal Summary:
Eat like chit and look like chit
N/A Rest Day
General Activity Log:
YO! It’s KO back from the ded! Bombed a test, I’d be surprised if otherwise. Invested my time into shit posts on Reddit and YouTube hoping for a solid return. Depression hit me like woooooah, “you feel that motherfucka? Welcome home bitch.” Decided to finally clean my room hoping to cure my depression. It didn’t but my room is looking extra fresh yo! Time to listen to depressing to music, I cry myself to sleep or get tired of singing along and knock myself out. Whichever comes first goddamn it!
Don’t force anything, don’t try.
Plan for Tomorrow:
Early wake up start an actual morning routine. My morning routine will start with meditation/stretch 5-10 minutes, reading for 15+ minutes, and journaling for 5 minutes. No more contrast showers, strictly cold for now. I’m too soft right now.