KO

Wew, almost done with the detox.

9/25/17 No urge to game or even YouTube/Twitch gaming content. This is a bit strange, I usually go back to gaming to cope by now.

Definitely , I went full Togashi on the journals and my improvement overall. Gonna start slow tomorrow and build myself up again.

Wow, I didn't realize that I was 74 days in :p. I need to start journaling again , at least that gave me some joy :I

9/7/17 It might be over for me

Good to be back buddy, about a day in for no PMO, no mood changes yet.

Good luck, KO! Thank you Pete! Reddit and YouTube are killing my time right now.

I'm about 50+ days no gaming, about another month to go for detox. Keep relapsing PMO, I'm going to abstain from most forms of social media starting now.

I'm back, can't remember how long I've been game free. Just struggling with PMO atm, just going porn free for now.

8/11/2017 Stats: Spirit: D Body: C Mind: C Charisma: D Discipline: C Developmental Potential: A What I Did Today: Pretty much procrastinated the whole day. At least I didn't game My Thoughts: Time to restart this journal again. What am I doing man, I can’t waste another on the same bullshit again. My time is literally running out but I’d rather mentally jack myself off. Ill thoughts starting to creep on me again. Lost my way but I never had a way. Just another paper bag floating in the wind, I want to die. This is all I could scrap from my incoherent physical journal. “Pay attention to your life.” “This is insincere and fleeting.” Plan for Tomorrow: Do something, bed is for sleep only, pay attention, consume a little less media.

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Not doing so well, skipped journaling for a while

Current books are Think Java and The Power of Habit.

7/30/2017 Stats: Spirit: D Body: C Mind: C Charisma: D Discipline: C Developmental Potential: A What I Did Today: Read a chapter but I spent too much reading and rereading but my understanding is still hazy. Next time I’m going say screw it and do something else. Found a newer and more concise version of the book. : x. Pen and paper coding, barely made time to meditate. My time was probably 1-2 minutes. My Thoughts: Trying to be productive by being busy is a worse feeling than procrastination. Feels like actual work but I’ve done nothing. Plan for Tomorrow: Set time aside to do shit. For example: Habits, Work, Hobbies, Reflection, etc.

Not this website. I'm referring to Reddit, that place is a waste dump with every jerk you've ever met and their grandmas. Yes it reflects on my social skills, I'd say they are poor right now. Whenever I go out, I try to greet people or start conversations. The conversations are either normal or awkward and die off after a few exchanges.

7/29/2017 Stats: Spirit: D Body: C Mind: C Charisma: D Discipline: C Developmental Potential: A Meal Summary: Meal 1: Oatmeal, waffles, banana Meal 2: Rice, ice cream, turkey Meal 3: Trash ☹ What I Did Today: Finished a chapter 5 minutes of open ended meditation Did some coding with pen on paper, the editor wasn’t working properly Workout Summary: Bench-210lbx7,6,7 Rows-155lbx8,6,6 DB Incline-50lbx10 Lat Pull Downs-125lbx10-Struggled with maintaining my form may reduce weight or rep range Lat Raises-25lb Triceps Pushdown-60lb DB Bicep Curls -30lb My Thoughts: “I hate this site, I wish I could leave” reading this comment, I said fuck it and left. I can't go back now :I Plan for Tomorrow: No naps, 15-minute timer, don’t break the change

7/28/2017 Stats: Spirit: D Body: C Mind: C Charisma: D Discipline: C Developmental Potential: A Meal Summary: Meal 1: Oatmeal Meal 2: Rice What I Did Today: 2x 4 minutes open ended meditation, read a chapter, did some programming exercises. Due to serve weather I was not able to get to the gym. My Thoughts: Feeling much better than yesterday, more productive as well overall. Plan for Tomorrow: Today slightly better

Haha, thanks I'll be able to level up soon

7/27/2017 Stats: Spirit: D Body: C Mind: C Charisma: D Discipline: C Developmental Potential: A Meal Summary: Meal 1: Oatmeal and bread Meal 2: Rice, egg, spinach, ice cream with nuts Meal 3: Garbage What I Did Today: Opened ended meditation 8 minutes. Read 10 pages Did minimal coding My Thoughts: Relapsed on PMO, this tells me I’m not as serious as quitting video games. I can’t go back today, tomorrow, the next day, next week, next month, next year, etc. Plan for Tomorrow: Burning my boats

Well, I'm no expert(intermediate) but I'll try to help you out. bench press will definitely improve your chest development. Compounds(bench/push-up)+isolation(chest press)will give you decent muscle development. And as for the rep ranges and sets, it depends on your goals. 6-10 for compounds 8-12 for isolation work for muscle.

7/26/2017 Stats: Spirit: D Body: C Mind: C Charisma: D Discipline: C Developmental Potential: A Meal Summary Meal 1: Milk, peanuts, waffles Meal 2: Rice and spinach Meal: Chicken and an egg What I Did Today: Finally woke up before 9:00 AM this week 10 minutes timed meditation-this session felt quicker than 5-minute sessions. Read for 30 minutes Studied some Java, a bit more to remember compared to Python. Workout Summary: 3x6 Squats: 275lb-ATG baby! 3x8 Split Squats: 30lb 3x10: Leg Curls: 145lb 4x10 Seat Calf Raises: 40lb My Thoughts: Still having thoughts about going back to my old lifestyle then I remember how guilty felt. My mind telling me this isn’t right. Plan for Tomorrow: Keep myself busier/more productive, I almost relapsed hardcore.

Good strategy Procrastination but I'll get it soon enough.

7/25/2017 Stats: Spirit: D Body: C Mind: C Charisma: D Discipline: C Developmental Potential: A Meal Summary: Meal 1: Waffle with peanut butter and chocolate milk Meal 2: Rice and peanut butter soup. What I Did Today: 5 minutes timed meditation, 5 minutes guided meditation “Honest Meditation” Finished How To be Miserable-Definitely going to reread this soon and revisit it often. Didn’t do that much coding, just reviewed syntax My Thoughts: Games and porn are not options for me, forgetting they exist. Taking a break from “self-improvement” books. Going to limit my reddit use or go cold turkey again. Plan for Tomorrow: Do what I wished did or didn’t do today.

Is it, especially went the focus is not pmoing, just need to distract myself. If they ever take my foot, chocolate will be the reason.

7/24/2017 Stats: Spirit: D Body: C Mind: C Charisma: D Discipline: C Developmental Potential: A Meal Summary: Meal 1: Waffles with peanut butter, chocolate milk. Meal 2: Rice and chicken. What I Did Today: 5 minutes of mindfulness meditation 11 pages read 1 Pomodoro of coding, finished a basic course Workout Summary: Pull -ups: 1st set 3x8 2nd set 3x6 3rd set 3x6 Seat Shoulder Press: 3x6-135lb-set up for this was dangerous at current gym, needed a spotter. Going standing shoulder press next time. Seated Cable Row: 3x8 95lb DB Bench: 3x10-50lb DB Flyes: 2x10-20lb Barbell Curl: 2x10-85lb-Struggled with keeping my form strict on the 2nd set. Skull-Crushers: 2x10-25lb-I almost popped my head open srs. My Thoughts: The day went much better than yesterday and it can only better tomorrow Plan for Tomorrow: Wake up earlier, get habits done ASAP