Well, yesterday was terrible, and I believe something broke inside me. I was working from home, but I couldn't focus on it. I was feeling like I couldn't take it anymore - Work, Master's Degree, Family obligations, the expectations of those around me - I had suicidal thoughts for hours, and I was feeling I wanted to take all the meds I have in my drawer, sleep and never wake up. I also tried to cut my wrists with a knife that was too blunt. Today I'm a bit better. Slept much better, and was able to handle some issues at work well. However, I am still depressed. I've noticed that I was drowning my inner thoughts with a constant bombardment of music, so I deleted Tidal from my phone and are now working and writing this in silence. Additionally, I signed up for a new gym near my home, so I can go when I'm WFO and on the weekends. My no-gaming streak continues, but I still feel a lot of temptation.
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FormerSKyrimEnjoyer ·