Week 0, Day 2
Projects:
Simulating Platform: On hold now as I need to fight properly with cravings. Don't want to do too many things at time right after I stopped gaming. Just want to take it slow.
Miscellaneous accomplishments:
I went to the gym first time in 2 weeks. I plan to keep reguralt attendence
Summary of Day 2
I woke up with the remorse and feeling of being defeated . Also Before sleep, scenes from BF V game were spamming my mind, I could not sleep properly. I did not even think about them, they were just there... I did some chores I supposed to do long ago, but had not as playing was always more important. Then I hit the gym and it felt good. I did full trening without skipping a single excercise. I also spent some time with my wife and son. Although my marriage is not in good shape. I feel ( I know actually) that if I will tell my wife that I'm addicted to gaming, she won't take it seriously... she doesn't support me in that as she was in the past, but I understand she has enough of my problems and now this addiction thing... it jsut too much for her to manage. I did not tell my 2 closest friends that I am doing detox from gaming either. So for now only ppl I have to support me are coming from this forum. I packed my PS5 and did a selling offer on some portal. Before I did that, I restored it to defualt setup and clearing any opersonal data.
That's it, I don't have much. I plan to do long entry this week, as I have done some analysis of myself and my addiction vulnerability. It will contain some scientific backgroud, I will write as I think I learn enough, why this happend and why this relapse lasted for 2,5 year... Anyways, until next time. Cheers
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