Listened to that book, as far as I remember it was a beneficial experience from which i took away some health improvements (lifestyle) don't remember which though 🙂 

Entry 21.12(Written on 22.12)  Day 812: No Useless Videos Day 810: Sticking to Food schedule Day 413: Eating Only between 06:30 and 19:00 (Last bite before 19:00) Day 116: Being in bed before 23:15 3 Things I did well no matter how small -Got downstairs together wit food to stick to schedule -Written down daily schedule which allowed e to do things much more effectively -Ordered the shoes I've been looking into. Attempt number 3. This time from official Saucony,so i hope it works 🙂 1 Thing I could do  better Ge out of bed immediately as alarm clock goes off. *Document the time afterwards Note to myself Good morning sunshine, a third of your Spain stay time had passed today. If you don't move your ass you'll fail your long term goals once more. Get yourself in your f****** hands and put yourself int a 16 pomodoro rhythm proactively. Beat your reptilian brain to silence

Entry 20.12(Night 21.12)  Day 811: No Useless Videos Day 809: Sticking to Food schedule Day 412: Eating Only between 06:30 and 19:00 (Last bite before 19:00) Day 115: Being in bed before 23:15 3 Things I did well no matter how small -After big meal reading a bit of intelligent investor instead of news.. -Out of bed at 07 22 which is an improvement in contrast to 10 or 9 that i had some days -8 pomodoros 1 Thing I could do  better -Still force myself to g through focused work after heavy meal?

I think I understood a peculiar form of self deception. The more I shirk my responsibilities, and neglect my health, the more I justify lack of success on things outside my control. It can be the employer that withheld my wages from me, the promotion that was unjustly given to somebody else etc. As this starts happening, morale and energy hits rock bottom. This causes a downward cycle of further hiding from responsibilities and blaming it on others.    I am really below my target level, for over a year.

Well done on posting daily. I would not place my state of mind and feelings at the treatment you get from others. They're not under your control, so whatever they act, accept it, and do what depend on you 🙂 If you're expecting someone to act in a certain way you're giving them power over your emotional state. Instead just concentrate on what you could do best in that situation where he didn't act optimally. Hope this helps. This is just my opinion though 🙂