Day 18/90:
Thanks Yan (I can't @ you for some reason, it errors)
Yes definitely, it definitely help keep me accountable and hopefully some people can come in and check it out and it will motivate them also.
One topic I wanted to bring up:
Games were always something I'd do to fill the 'empty' time I had - so I felt as though, when I had an hour or two of 'dead air' (free time) I was always doing something and it was always so accessible. Rather than maybe get ready to go out, and then spend time socialising or working on my projects, it's much easier just to boot up a game. For example, as if we compare the times of both:
...Let's say it takes 30-60 minutes to get ready to go out, then you're travelling to where your friends are, that's maybe another 30-90 minutes, then you're spending the time socialising, that's 6 hours or so, so all-in-all you've sent let's just say 8 hours or so doing something healthy like socialising.
On the flip side, you just need something to fill the hour, so you boot up your favourite game which takes about 30 seconds let's say, then you login, and you're playing right away. Compare the two and the prep time for socialising is much longer than the quick game boot up and you're in and already getting that dopamine flowing.
So that does make Gaming harder to quit because it's something you can reward yourself with very quickly. Finished a hard day at work? Jump on a game as it's an INSTANT dopamine hit, it's an instant reward.
Socialising takes time to set up, prepare, travel, actually do - gaming is right there, instantly gratifying you. Same with maybe approaching those of the opposite sex: It takes effort, it's scary, it's so much easier to just boot up a video game and get insta-dopamine.
What I want to identify as is someone that, even if say my dating life doesn't really take off, I don't fall back into games. I don't identify as a gamer anymore. Even if things don't work out the way I want them to, I don't NEED games to fall back on, I can fall back onto just surfing the internet, or YouTube or movies, TV shows, books, whatever. Just not games.
As long as I do that and stick to it for the rest of my life, even if I fail at everything else in life, I know that I overcame my addiction to video games, and for that when I hopefully get to old age I will be really proud of myself for achieving, because for a lot of people they will die still addicted to video games, and I just don't want to be that guy.
I've played enough games at this point to last a lifetime, so I'm over it now. It's time to continue to do something, ANYTHING else. And for that, I am proud.
Until then, see you guys tomorrow.
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