Hi.
I haven't use a forum in a long time, apologies if this looks quite messy.
I enjoyed videogames since I can remember I remember playing in the super Nintendo back in the early 2000. As I grew I would always try to convince my friends to sit down and grabbed the second player controller, fortunately back then kids would go and play at the park pretty often .
Now, recalling my journey I would say that my parents were quite loose in limiting my screen time as I could often play for many hours, as a teen ager I got my first personal PC and then I can remember my mother saying the words 'You've got an additiction" of course I thought she was being dramatic.
I have been into gamming a lot during high school and Uni, fortunately many group assignments kept me accountable (didn't want to let down the team) to not let games take over the important responsibilities in my life. Now that I am trying self directed online studies I realise how easy was and still is for me to just game instead of getting studies done specially if there's no external pressure.
Moving forward, now I am 30 years old and I feel like it is out of control, I moved to live overseas 7 years ago and eventually cut gamming a lot, sometimes I would get hooked to one game for 2 or 3 weeks and then lost interest and kept up with my life. I can be considered a geek and always been in the loop of manga, games, art, movies and animation.
Four months ago I decided to try an old digimon MMORPG game that I used to play as a teenager.
And that's why i am here now, for the last 4 months I have been sitting on my computer for 2 to 5 hours a day just grinding in the game, and have spent a good chunk of cash on the game. If I am not playing on my free Time I am constantly looking for content on YouTube/Reddit related to the game. and even during my gym workouts I actively search content on guides to improve in the Game ( this takes away a lot of my focus) .
I have tried to uninstall the game several times but always end Up installing it again as I keep telling myself that I can still enjoy it with moderation, and most of the times when i log in and set a timer end up playing a lot more.
I am starting to feel concerned as my fitness is decreasing and my mind feels cloudy and my focus and short term memory are pretty bad at work.
I think cold turkey would not Work for me but neither does trying to play with moderation, SOS
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Jauny ·