life of unknown

[unknown72]

Welcome to my journal! I’m starting this journal so that I can keep a record of my progress while I cut down on gaming. I’m currently taking classes on video game design which makes it hard to stay clean from games all day but I can still stop myself from gaming at home. I’m going to try to replace my free time with watching anime and doing school work instead of gaming. I’ve already uninstalled all the games I have on my PC and my PS4, except Fortnite because I still want to play that with my IRL friends (I’ll only play when they are all on).

Today is day zero and I’ll be starting tomorrow. I don’t have much hope because I have a history of trying to quit gaming and failing many times, but maybe this time will be the one. Even going one day without gaming at home would be an achievement. Wish me luck! ?

[Self made miracle]

Best of luck man!

[unknown72]

Day 1 - Oct 30th

Today was pretty rough. I couldn’t control myself and ended up playing video games all day in school, and continued playing the second I got home. Within an hour of me playing GTA V on my PC I was already facing one of my biggest gaming problems: Rage. I was gambling in-game money at the new casino and after multiple losses in a row I went broke. This made me furious and I punched the absolute shit out of my monitor (thank god it didn’t break), threw my headset down on my desk, and just walked away. After cooling down for 20 minutes I realized that I can’t rely on my own willpower to stop playing video games, and decided to put my PC up for auction on Ebay. Hopefully it will sell soon so I can get rid of my access to games. Goodnight everyone.

[Self made miracle]

Good call to sell that computer, and sorry to hear about your relapse. It will get easier. Stay strong my friend.