Relief & Redemption

[DW1909X13]

Hi all,

Today is the day, after 20+ yrs of gaming most days for 6/8+ hours, that I call time on it.

There are many emotions going through me right now. But the strongest one by far, is relief. Relief that this potentially huge step has finally been taken and I can start to recover.

I have lost so much to video games as I know everyone here has. I've missed out on relationships with friends and relations, I feel like I've wasted my 20s and I have nothing to show for any of it. Nothing positive anyway.

The turning point was finishing a game earlier this year, RDR2, and for all the emotion, money and time I had given to it - in the end I felt nothing. It was at this moment I realized I had a problem.

I'm just tired of feeling like this, looking for the next 'fix'/distraction, the mood swings, the constant feeling of self-loathing and disappointment, knowing that I was trying so hard to get away from anything real or based in real life.

This has been such a dark cloud hanging over me for so long, as I'm sure it has been for us all, but I know I will come through the other side. And so will you too.

Take care all

[BePresent]

You got this, and past is a lesson we have, without it there wouldn't be enlightenment. I could relate to your post because I also gamed for 20 years, and joined gamequitters just yesterday, today is a day 2, and tomorrow will be a day 3. Good luck to you!

[DW1909X13]

And good luck to you. Its hard to think of all the time spent gaming without feeling a sense of "WTF was i thinking?!" but hey, its the future that matters.

And today is certainly day 2! We got this