Will it last or even Work?

Today is the day I uninstalled every single came I have downloaded and played. I have been slowly drifting away from them anyway. I have left all the discord servers except 2 of which once I say farewell I will leave it would be to embarrassing and hurtful for me to go back. I still have discord though and am not sure if I should keep that as I do have family and friends on my server and several others. I am sick and tired of my life as I also am trying to quit smoking now the 2 are intertwined so now I have a chance to work on my smoking and there is plenty to do on that end as far as recovery goes. I am 60 years old and regret some of the years I have wasted on these 2 addictions. I want to live my life as if it were the last day on earth what that entails only meditation and prayer will reveal if I live to see another day. Please whatever God there is help me.