I want to travel to Scotland. My family lineage traces back there. We're all descendants of William Wallace and Robert the Bruce. Maybe I'm delusional but I've felt a deep longing upon seeing pictures of the moors and the sound of bagpipes fills me with joy. There's a longing that I can't shake. Seriously, I get goosebumps. Feels like a summoning almost, something that I can't avoid for much longer.
?You should be proud of yourself. Fighting that urge when it's so easy to give in. Good job. I hope your family member pulls through. The best part is that you can now be an active force and a presence in their life because you're not tied to a game somewhere. You have freed yourself and can now be there for the people who need you.