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d.manuk
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Day 13
Went to the pool today
Went to the beach today
Yesterday I went hiking and bought some new clothes
Still feel like I am denying myself fun by choosing not to play video games, but I am getting slowly getting stuff done a little bit at a time.
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I get out of work at 3pm today and had nothing big scheduled, so all morning I have been thinking in a big voice that I will play League of Legends when I get home and how awesome it will be and how I will only spend 5 hours playing it today.
But, I also had a small voice inside of me saying "hey, go to the beach today"
and I am deciding to follow that small voice to Coney Island, I will try to do some quick yoga on the beach, write, and ride some rides
I am going to try to listen to that small voice more and see what happens, while ignoring the big voice in my head
listening to that small voice for my writing has made me more happy with the end result as well too
Day 11 of no video games
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Day 10
Instead of talking about the negatives today, I will talk about the positives.
So far in these 10 days I have:
Written 1 page in my journal, working on a fiction story
Made some slight home improvements
Started waking up 10 minutes earlier so that I can come into work closer to the time I'm supposed to be there in the morning ;P
Went swimming
Did some slight Japan trip planning
Cooked more dinners than I normally would (and more than I would have liked to
)Exercised a little more than I normally would
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You are really handsome and tall so you should not worry too much about romance.
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It seems that my life while not playing video games is not better or worse than when I did play video games, its just different. It is a bit slower but also a bit spacier.
I've felt that a lot personally as well. Embrace it! Haha.
One thing I miss about playing video games is that I can't shield people. I always liked playing support characters and saving people from being hurt with my skills. I am not sure how I can translate that into a real life activity.
That's so interesting! I always liked being the one tearing shit apart, I could never understand the other side.
Have you ever thought about a medical profession?
I wouldn't be able to do that -- blood and guts and illnesses are not something the real life me can deal with.
I am in a finance field that helps people retire, but it is not the same as a 'healer'.
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Today is day 9 no video games.
Things to do today after work: yoga, make dinner, write
It seems that my life while not playing video games is not better or worse than when I did play video games, its just different. It is a bit slower but also a bit spacier. I'm not sure that I like that aspect. I am able to accomplish a bit more and do some things I normally wouldn't do, such as swimming, because I become more bored and become more willing to do some more activities, but I noticed that I don't do that much more. For the most part I tend to zone out and am distracted/wrapped up in my thoughts now instead of playing video games. For example, yesterday I kind of spaced out listening to new types of music and then finding the songs l liked online available for download. Before I realized it, the night was over. I also tend to play with my cat a bit more. I also tend to go to sleep earlier. I am not sure if this is because I am less stimulated, but I have been going to sleep at 9pm/9:30pm instead of 10pm (I wake up at 6:40am).
One thing I miss about playing video games is that I can't shield people. I always liked playing support characters and saving people from being hurt with my skills. I am not sure how I can translate that into a real life activity.
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You're going to Japan??? I'm so jealous.
Yes, I'm excited! But planning the trip is not very fun.
Since today is a weekday, the video cravings will be easily managed/will be non-existent until Friday when I am done with work.
I went to a pool yesterday which is great, something I haven't done in 10 years.
To do today (leftovers from the weekend): japan planning - create a calendar and fill in daily activities I will be doing, writing
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I have woken up today with a very strong itch to play video games. It has been over an hour and it is all I can think about. I almost gave in but I decided see what happens. One contributing factor was that yesterday felt like a long day and I know if I played video games I would play them for at least 5 hours probably and it would feel like I had a much shorter weekend than necessary.
I have been browsing posts about quitting gaming throughout the entire hour.
List of things to do today: laundry, cleaning, japan planning, writing
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This isn't my first time trying this out, but I will try to have write a journal this time since I have 'failed' a lot at quitting gaming.
Today is day 5 of no gaming, and I am currently aiming for a 90 day detox. It's also Saturday, and it's extremely hot and humid out so there isn't much I can do outside.
This morning, I woke up and read comics for an hour. Then I went to the park to read for an hour. It was 8am so everyone at the park had a dog and I thought how nice it would be to have a dog if I didn't have to clean it's poop with my hands. I wish my cat would like going to the park more but sadly he does not.
I've done a few things on my "chores to do this weekend" list that I am supposed to be doing in order to keep myself busy, but honestly, I am really bored. I've been rolling around complaining to my boyfriend about how I want to play video games. My mind has been shooting back and forth between league of legends, dragon age inquisition, and elder scrolls online. Thoughts like "what's the big deal, it's just video games" "don't you think you're trying to be too perfect?" "gaming is not so bad, it's not a real addiction" keep going through my head. I've also noticed that when I quit gaming I tend to try to force myself to do more chores, which may not be the key to success with this.
Things left to do: Laundry, yoga, cleaning, japan trip vacation planning, whole foods shopping, work on writing a short story
Ugh I don't want to do these things. I just want to play as a ice mage or an archer or a holy priest. Why can't I be that in real life?
I wish I had a garden but I live in NYC. I feel like if I had a garden I would not want to play video games as much. But I keep managing to keep bringing back my one plant from the verge of death so I guess that is ok.
Yesterday, I spent some time drawing which is an activity I like. But I don't do it very much anymore because I don't see the point in doing so. No one is really going to see it, and no one will pay money for what I have drawn. This ties back to the sense of accomplishment video games give you and it has me conflicted about drawing. I prefer drawing to writing, but I think I have more of a shot at making money with my writing, and publishing a book is a goal I can work towards and would feel successful at doing. So I am conflicted about that too.
Later today I am going to eat korean bbq and watch the new jason bourne movie after I go grocery shopping. It would be nice to play video games right now but I am going to try not playing them.
This is my current favorite song: https://my.mixtape.moe/albsma.webm
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On Wednesday (yesterday) I got sick with a sinus infection and stayed home from work.
I played video games all day and it helped pass the time quickly. I played all day (intentionally) and was surprised how quickly the day passed.
I plan on playing video games until I am not sick because I feel bad and I do not have the energy to read a book all day or do something creative or plan my Japan trip and I didn't have much of an interest in watching tv all day. I am not sure if I should consider this a relapse since it was an intentional decision.
I will reassess once I am feeling better but I think I will try to continue with my detox since although it was very fun to play again, I could be doing something better.