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KO
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9/25/17
No urge to game or even YouTube/Twitch gaming content. This is a bit strange, I usually go back to gaming to cope by now.
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Yeah, we're here for you
If nothing else but to hold up a mirror and let you see where you could improve. You should definitely make a habit of journaling again.
Definitely , I went full Togashi on the journals and my improvement overall. Gonna start slow tomorrow and build myself up again.
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Wow, I didn't realize that I was 74 days in :p. I need to start journaling again , at least that gave me some joy :I
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9/7/17
It might be over for me
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Good to see you again, KO! PMO is a tough battle so staying porn free is a thing to be proud of!
Good to be back buddy, about a day in for no PMO, no mood changes yet.
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I'm about 50+ days no gaming, about another month to go for detox. Keep relapsing PMO, I'm going to abstain from most forms of social media starting now.
Good luck, KO!
Thank you Pete! Reddit and YouTube are killing my time right now.
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I'm about 50+ days no gaming, about another month to go for detox. Keep relapsing PMO, I'm going to abstain from most forms of social media starting now.
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I'm back, can't remember how long I've been game free. Just struggling with PMO atm, just going porn free for now.
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8/11/2017
Stats:
Spirit: D
Body: C
Mind: C
Charisma: D
Discipline: C
Developmental Potential: AWhat I Did Today:
Pretty much procrastinated the whole day. At least I didn't game
My Thoughts:
Time to restart this journal again. What am I doing man, I can’t waste another on the same bullshit again. My time is literally running out but I’d rather mentally jack myself off. Ill thoughts starting to creep on me again. Lost my way but I never had a way. Just another paper bag floating in the wind, I want to die. This is all I could scrap from my incoherent physical journal.
“Pay attention to your life.” “This is insincere and fleeting.”
Plan for Tomorrow:
Do something, bed is for sleep only, pay attention, consume a little less media.
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You have a great journal. I know it's hard to journal when you have less good news. But that's the best time....where else but on a whole forum of people with the same struggles?
True
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Not doing so well, skipped journaling for a while
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What book are you reading? You might have mentioned it before. I'm a voracious reader again, especially on this detox.
Current books are Think Java and The Power of Habit.
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7/30/2017
Stats:
Spirit: D
Body: C
Mind: C
Charisma: D
Discipline: C
Developmental Potential: AWhat I Did Today:
Read a chapter but I spent too much reading and rereading but my understanding is still hazy. Next time I’m going say screw it and do something else. Found a newer and more concise version of the book. : x. Pen and paper coding, barely made time to meditate. My time was probably 1-2 minutes.
My Thoughts:
Trying to be productive by being busy is a worse feeling than procrastination. Feels like actual work but I’ve done nothing.
Plan for Tomorrow:
Set time aside to do shit. For example: Habits, Work, Hobbies, Reflection, etc.
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what? Is it because this site reminds you of accountability?Not this website. I'm referring to Reddit, that place is a waste dump with every jerk you've ever met and their grandmas.
Now what is your charisma stat? Does that reflect your socialization? I notice it's a D and was curious about it.
Yes it reflects on my social skills, I'd say they are poor right now. Whenever I go out, I try to greet people or start conversations. The conversations are either normal or awkward and die off after a few exchanges.
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7/29/2017
Stats:
Spirit: D
Body: C
Mind: C
Charisma: D
Discipline: C
Developmental Potential: A
Meal Summary:Meal 1: Oatmeal, waffles, banana
Meal 2: Rice, ice cream, turkey
Meal 3: Trash ☹
What I Did Today:
Finished a chapter
5 minutes of open ended meditation
Did some coding with pen on paper, the editor wasn’t working properly
Workout Summary:
Bench-210lbx7,6,7
Rows-155lbx8,6,6
DB Incline-50lbx10
Lat Pull Downs-125lbx10-Struggled with maintaining my form may reduce weight or rep range
Lat Raises-25lb
Triceps Pushdown-60lb
DB Bicep Curls -30lb
My Thoughts:
“I hate this site, I wish I could leave” reading this comment, I said fuck it and left. I can't go back now :I
Plan for Tomorrow:
No naps, 15-minute timer, don’t break the change
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7/28/2017
Stats:
Spirit: D
Body: C
Mind: C
Charisma: D
Discipline: C
Developmental Potential: A
Meal Summary:Meal 1: Oatmeal
Meal 2: Rice
What I Did Today:
2x 4 minutes open ended meditation, read a chapter, did some programming exercises. Due to serve weather I was not able to get to the gym.
My Thoughts:
Feeling much better than yesterday, more productive as well overall.
Plan for Tomorrow:
Today slightly better
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Add +1 Charisma for squatting bro) Good stuff
Haha, thanks I'll be able to level up soon
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7/27/2017
Stats:
Spirit: D
Body: C
Mind: C
Charisma: D
Discipline: C
Developmental Potential: A
Meal Summary:Meal 1: Oatmeal and bread
Meal 2: Rice, egg, spinach, ice cream with nuts
Meal 3: Garbage
What I Did Today:
Opened ended meditation 8 minutes.
Read 10 pages
Did minimal coding
My Thoughts:
Relapsed on PMO, this tells me I’m not as serious as quitting video games. I can’t go back today, tomorrow, the next day, next week, next month, next year, etc.
Plan for Tomorrow:
Burning my boats
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You're still on track, KO. Thumbs up. General weightlifting question. Do I need to ever consider doing bench presses? I do the chest press machine at the gym and pushups at home. I'm not looking to be a massive lifter dude, just some nice muscle development as I lose weight? Is what I'm doing enough? Figured you might know based on your journal. ?
Well, I'm no expert(intermediate) but I'll try to help you out. bench press will definitely improve your chest development. Compounds(bench/push-up)+isolation(chest press)will give you decent muscle development. And as for the rep ranges and sets, it depends on your goals. 6-10 for compounds 8-12 for isolation work for muscle.
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7/26/2017
Stats:
Spirit: D
Body: C
Mind: C
Charisma: D
Discipline: C
Developmental Potential: A
Meal SummaryMeal 1: Milk, peanuts, waffles
Meal 2: Rice and spinach
Meal: Chicken and an egg
What I Did Today:
Finally woke up before 9:00 AM this week
10 minutes timed meditation-this session felt quicker than 5-minute sessions.
Read for 30 minutes
Studied some Java, a bit more to remember compared to Python.
Workout Summary:
3x6 Squats: 275lb-ATG baby!
3x8 Split Squats: 30lb
3x10: Leg Curls: 145lb
4x10 Seat Calf Raises: 40lb
My Thoughts:
Still having thoughts about going back to my old lifestyle then I remember how guilty felt. My mind telling me this isn’t right.
Plan for Tomorrow:
Keep myself busier/more productive, I almost relapsed hardcore.
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get habits done ASAP
Good strategy
Procrastination but I'll get it soon enough.
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7/25/2017
Stats:
Spirit: D
Body: C
Mind: C
Charisma: D
Discipline: C
Developmental Potential: A
Meal Summary:Meal 1: Waffle with peanut butter and chocolate milk
Meal 2: Rice and peanut butter soup.
What I Did Today:
5 minutes timed meditation, 5 minutes guided meditation “Honest Meditation”
Finished How To be Miserable-Definitely going to reread this soon and revisit it often.
Didn’t do that much coding, just reviewed syntax
My Thoughts:
Games and porn are not options for me, forgetting they exist. Taking a break from “self-improvement” books. Going to limit my reddit use or go cold turkey again.
Plan for Tomorrow:
Do what I wished did or didn’t do today.
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PMO is awfully tough. I still battle that one. Just keep moving forward. Keep it----mmm, chocolate bread. ?
Is it, especially went the focus is not pmoing, just need to distract myself. If they ever take my foot, chocolate will be the reason.
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7/24/2017
Stats:
Spirit: D
Body: C
Mind: C
Charisma: D
Discipline: C
Developmental Potential: A
Meal Summary:Meal 1: Waffles with peanut butter, chocolate milk.
Meal 2: Rice and chicken.
What I Did Today:
5 minutes of mindfulness meditation
11 pages read
1 Pomodoro of coding, finished a basic course
Workout Summary:
Pull -ups: 1st set 3x8
2nd set 3x6
3rd set 3x6
Seat Shoulder Press: 3x6-135lb-set up for this was dangerous at current gym, needed a spotter. Going standing shoulder press next time.
Seated Cable Row: 3x8 95lb
DB Bench: 3x10-50lb
DB Flyes: 2x10-20lb
Barbell Curl: 2x10-85lb-Struggled with keeping my form strict on the 2nd set.
Skull-Crushers: 2x10-25lb-I almost popped my head open srs.
My Thoughts:
The day went much better than yesterday and it can only better tomorrow
Plan for Tomorrow:
Wake up earlier, get habits done ASAP
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Wew, almost done with the detox.