dullage

So for everyone commenting on my posts, thank you very much and i will be getting back to you just tonight I'm knackered. Why? so today after a long, boring, quiet day at work and every part of me telling me to go home i stuck to my guns and made the journey to Toastmasters and yes i made sure i congratulated myself. So being the first one there i took the time to work on my youtube videos and attempt all the editing i could. Now i took the time in toastmasters to once again speak to everyone and getting myself involved and also got offered to meet up with one of the entrepreneurs there who pulled me to one side and explained to me that he was thinking about what i said last time about how i want to be a motivational speaker and he told me he might have a business proposal for me as his starting his own business. So next week i will be getting up with him as i told him not to explain anything till we meet up. I also spoke to a load of people at toastmasters and as usual am boosted with confidence. Also i got filmed there to be put on youtube on there page and jumped the chance. WELL DONE ME

Positive....... done really good at work, wrote a to do list a youtube idea list, uploading a video to the forum, made edits to youtube videos, wrote in the forum. Improvements..... need to spend more time learning and improving my skill set, more time on videos and writing in diary, could have been more confident at work. Overall a good day at but definitely need to work more on myself as i feel I'm not improving. I need to listen to more podcasts and reading is desperate at the moment.

Just got in its now 12am and I'm sitting here writing my to do list for the future. Today i spend a bunch of the day doing the best i could at work and it really paid of again like yesterday being more involved with the customers and actually listening to them and did it show with my numbers on my selling. I then took the time to go on a date to get me out of my comfort zone tonight and before i went spend a couple of hours creating and editing videos which i will post on here tomorrow and set as public tomorrow. So over all a really positive and great day, tomorrow i will carry on from this and take the time to have some me time by reading. Sweet and short tonight.

So today was great!!! So lets start with the pros of today....... 1. stay positive and confident at work all day and this was due to the fact I was filked skin today and know i was aiming to get money to travel to Tialand. 2. sold a load more than usual and this was due to me being a positive person and really listening to people all day and speaking to them instead of sitting in silence. 3. took the time to help people with the little jobs that lead to sales. 4. spend 3 hours working on a youtube video editing, 5. remained happy all day and smiled. 6. put work in front of my lunch break. what i could improve on...... 1. took time to read a little 2.still haven't been able to upload a video due to slow internet 3.havent set goals but plan to tonight so will be done before i go to bed.

So your not going to hear any excuses of why the last thew days i haven't been posting on here. Why? cause I am not doing it to myself! Im not going to say i have not had time as i have and could have spared 5 minutes a night. Am I'm doing going to say i have been busy, because once again I have alway got five minutes. So I'm congratulating myself for the taking the 5 minutes out of my day to write in the forum for my self. Tomorrow i am setting my self the goal of getting a youtube video uploading on my slow internet and making a to do list with all the bits i need to do. EG. work more on my youtube channel, get more videos filmed, attend toastmasters on Tuesday, save for Thailand, read the slight edge, not just watch but study all my youtube videos and give honest feedback on what i can improve on, post on here and so on and so fourth. Its time i focus on one thing also not just try and do everything, so focusing on my youtube is y priority at the moment with work as its the only way to advertise myself and the only business i have at the moment. So tomorrow i will be posting how my goals list went and how my video upload went.

So today i looked into traveling and backpacking and this has got me thinking massively on if i should start traveling, leave my job for a year or so to work on myself and on a business idea. But his the problem i have is i don't have a business idea.... so this is were i am stuck. To travel i feel i need a idea so when i get out there i know what i am aiming to do and i can set myself goals, like my compass. So this is the point were i am going to start saving money up, which i am no good at but its bout time i learnt. Part from that today hasn't been that productive but am slowly getting back into the path of motivation i was on.

Thanks Cam for the comment really appreciate the comment they mean a lot. So i would just like to start by getting the negatives out of the way and thats that the last couple of days my confidence has dropped completely and it really needs working on. I don't know why maybe as i am still sterling in from holiday and my motivation still isn't as it was but I'm still working and completing my goals so I'm happy. So i made sure that my list of goals have been completed like the goal i set yesterday and hopefully putting these goals into action will really help. Not much too say today part from well done swell for going to work as i was going to go and pull a sickie at work to go out with family but decided that was the wrong was to go, so stayed and went to work. Tomorrow i will be posting my ideas on a business idea i had tonight and what i have taken note on so far. Well done today Grant.

sorry i haven't been posting on here recently, i have been on holiday having a break from life. Bu tin no way way shape or form was i shadowing from my responsibilities, oooh no i took time out while away to read and also filmed about 20 videos for my youtube channel which was a massive success as in the uk i have only filmed 1 so far, so well done me. Also while away i had time to think about how i want to or am going to play my life out, what i want to do and i have come to the conclusion that i want to do what Cam does. Travel the world and help people, teach people and have fun while doing so. Motivation speaking swell to overcome my fear an lack of confidence. I feel i have learnt that confidence is what you get when you have a purpose, having a purpose anchors you. It stops you getting pulled in the past and also to the side by distractions and having purpose is how you can hold your head high though life. I also by tomorrow want to make a list of ideas of things i want to do every month to accomplish like every month ask a girl out for a date, or get a girls number eat. By doing this i will be well on my way to building my confidence to how i want it to be.

Friday 10th June 2016 So today was not a over productive day but I still remain impressed due my high confidence i had all day. The day started with me waking up on my day of and listening to a podcasts, i then took the time to meet up with a mate and attempt to put in my golden roles i have recently learnt from Cam and the book how to win friends and influence people. My confidence sored and then after that took time out my day to meet up with some more mates and i can safely say i was the most confident I have been around them ever. I felt all day like i was glowing!! i then after spent the rest of the night listening to more podcasts. Tomorrow I'm invited to a barbecue with a punch of people i don't know and half of me is telling me not to go. But i am, I'm choosing to put my self out my comfort zone to improve myself. I honestly believe toastmasters, even though i just went the once had helped me so much. If that is whats happens in one lesson what happens after 6 months Well done!!

So Today was one of the best, motivation days i have had in a while? and why well let me start at the beginning (obviously) So waking up as morning i took extreme focus on feeding positive thoughts to my self. I was up and on the public transport smiling away to myself listening to my podcasts which lead me working my ass of before work and tidying the hole shop. By 9 o'clock as morning while other people were just getting up or listening to depressing music i had listened to around 2 and a half hours of podcasts, which just felt great. I spend the day even though quiet at work keeping busy, thought cleaning to sorting out jobs to emailing people i owe emails too. At work i managed to keep smiling, and when feeling negative i used Cams 3 tips and first time it worked. (i know not every time i can expect the same result but practise make perfect). I then treated my self to a look in waterstone books shop and brought myself a little book called 642 tiny things to write about and why well thats easy. Little questions i have to write the answers too... To keep my mind working where ever i am due to its small back pocket size. So when i have nothing to do i have something to train, my brain. I then lost my temper majorly towards the end of the day but after giving my self 2 minutes to chill and then realise how silly i was being was completely fine. And even went on to speaking and acting a lot more confident talking to girls who found themselves the shop. Well done to myself for having major confidents all day. I then came home again listening to podcast and sat in the garden at home finishing it off. 4 and a half hours of podcasts listened to day and a bunch of this new book filled out. I also found the time to write down parts in my life that have scarred me early memories and how now by doing the tasks i don't even think about. How its second nature. Im now congratulating myself on todays progress and hope to keep it going. Well done!!

So Today i had a massive talk with Cam and to talk to me while being in Las Vegas was really inspirational, thats why I'm still up at stupid o'clock writing in this forum after spending the night writing a review on Cams Skype call. Today was a completely different day and i really felt a lot more confident and i know it was all down to me asking the slight edge to go ToastMasters last night. The talk with Cam honestly was one of the best talks i have had with him and what we spoke abut really made sense about how to gain confidence when your not feeling confident. Massive thanks dude!! Only a quick post tonight and well done to myself for writing in this forum.

So Today i had a massive talk with Cam and to talk to me while being in Las Vegas was really inspirational, thats why I'm still up at stupid o'clock writing in this forum after spending the night writing a review on Cams Skype call. Today was a completely different day and i really felt a lot more confident and i know it was all down to me asking the slight edge to go ToastMasters last night. The talk with Cam honestly was one of the best talks i have had with him and what we spoke abut really made sense about how to gain confidence when your not feeling confident. Massive thanks dude!! Only a quick post tonight and well done to myself for writing in this forum.

So today is Tuesday and once again I made sure I congratulated myself for getting into to work early and waking up at 5AM. Today and work wasn't the best day I have had but I made sure after work I set myself of on my hour and a half journey to my first toastmasters event. Even after getting on the wrong train and my maps on your phone sending me the wrong way I still made sure even though I was late I went in to the meeting. I was unbelievable nervous which is strange as I normally can act confident when I greet people. This tells me I need to work on confidence more than I thought but at the end of the event made sure i stodd up, introduced myself amd i hoped I keeped some confidence but I don't think I did a haha. After the event I took the time to introduce myself to some people and asked what helped them and for there advice and what did they come back with......READ THE SLIGHT EDGE!!! so well done for today to myself for going.

Thanks MarI really appreciate your comment I see exactly what your say and will out it in to action. See now I see why Cam told me to post on here. Comments like this really help

So today was up nice and early again, got myself up at 5 and got to work bright and early while spending the time listening to podcasts and watching jim Rohn videos. I fell this helped me massively as the work day i saw a great improvement on my confident and socialising skills. Of course they weren't perfect but it was a start and that is good enough for me. I also finally finished my second ever book (how to win friends and influence people) which was without a dought a book i will recommend to anyone and everyone. I do however feel like i am putting pressure on myself which i feel is necessary to learn when i get home to when i go to bed, and if I don't i feel useless and i convince myself I'm not doing enough to improve my self or learning as much as i can be.... I also have been told by Cam that as long as I'm learning something a day I'm going forward, but i still feel like i need to. So tomorrow is going to be a good day as I'm going to make it and look forward to writing in the forum tomorrow.

Many thanks Alex for the comment and what a amazing idea If i could see everyone with a sign like that i really think that would help, instead of thinking people are not interested in convosation with me. When on earth did you think of that idea? So this is the fourth night i have took time out to write in this forum and it really does make me feel good specially knowing Cam has my back. So today once again I listened to a group of podcasts on the way and back home from work and I really did feel like i was taking in all the information i was listening too (so well done to me) I do feel though today at work was not as great again as it could have been. I struggled to make convosation but i am now congratulating myself for the chats i did have with people at work. So my plan tomorrow is too alive at work nice and early and I want to read over this forum and reply and check out everyones pages who have commented and comment back on some of there posts. I also want to engaged a lot more in convocation and take my self out of my comfort zone at least once .

Thanks Primmulla will be sure to read your forum and many thanks and again to you cam. So today once again was up and out the door nice and early waking up at 5 and on my travels i took the time to thank a bus driver, catch his name, introduce myself and explained to him how he was the most cheerful driver I have ever meet, how he always has a smile on his face. All in the name of brightening his day and making him feel apprieacted. I really struggled at work today again at times with my confidence but on the positive side I'm fully aware that my confidence at work is a major point in my life i need to work on and improve as much as i can. I also didn't accomplish as much learning as i wanted to do, but knew today was going to work out this way as i had various events planned as evening. Well done though to myself as i did listen to a bunch of podcasts on the way to work instead of listening to music!! This is a massive help for me at the moment as i can learn on the way to work instead of shutting into auto pilot mode. Also a massive well done to myself for still finding the time to write in the forum even though it is well past my bed time haha. And i will see what tomorrow brings.....

Good luck dude!

Thanks Tyrone and Cam for the messages really appreciate it as I'm sure your aware reply always help specially when there supportive. DAY 1: 5AM my alarm sounded and I pulled my self out of my bed and resisted the urge to roll over and full asleep with the simple idea in my mind (i can sleep and dream or i can get up and make my dreams) and wow did this help. My morning was extremely productive and as well as following my morning routine i had enough time to listen to a bunch of podcasts . I arrived at work two hours earlier then normal and spent the time tidying, preparing for the day and having time to waken my mind up in a productive mood. I had a bit of a confidence dip today while speaking to people (I work in retail) but was aware of all this and done the most I feel could have done to attempt to turn it around. I also got told by someone I work with today on what I'm doing wrong in work. Now normally as this women is sort of bossy I would have ignored her but instead listened to her and took her advice on board and thinking about it, its really good advice and I'm really glad i listened. Well done Grant ;). I have also managed to message some a thew people who i don't really speak to anymore on how i have been feeling and wrote to them starting what i have done wrong, how i could have helped the situation and by taking the blame even though most of the fault didn't lie with me. But it feels good and the person to whom I'm writing to don't feel like they have to stand up for themselves and they take the blame and attempt to convince me they are the ones that are wrong. So it has been a win, win. Im now listening to a Jim Rohn seminar and sticking to my guns on writing on this forum. All thats left is to read the rest of how to win friends and influence people and prepare for tomorrows day.

So about a month ago I decided to email Cam after watching his inspirational ted talk and love and behold i received a instant message back and he soon invented me to have a Skype call with himself and we had a massive chat. So now 4 weeks after, Cam has advised me to keep up with my progress by posting on here. This is something i have never done before and to be honest don't even know if what I'm writing will fit into this forum. I feel its important that people know i do not have a gaming addiction but have trouble keeping a routine on learning and trying to improve my life, staying motivated and most of the time give self talk to myself which makes me just give up and feel I'm not good enough and not going to accomplish what i set out to get. I also am nowhere near as confident as i want to be and feel i struggle half the time talking to people. I truly like a lot of you want to be happy and successful in life and one day own my own business with a beautiful wife and kids, traveling across the world. But for now small steps to help me get to this point. This is a big step for me and I am going to post a blog every-night on what i accomplished and the struggles i have. Hopefully this sounds okay and here we go...