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Day 17 - Today I booked a flight to Madrid and back for a month ( I still have no Idea where I'm gonna stay, and how it is all going to happen ) so I was quite busy imaginating all that I have to do. And not for a second thought of games or videos. Day 15 Sticking to food schedule - I am trying to go to sleep earlier and earlier, and so I combined lunch and dinner again. Not at all optimal, but it is what it is. P.S. Tomorrow is Judgement Day (Yom Kippur) and I'm planning on fasting. So tomorrow and two days from now will both have meals that are stuffed together. Wish me luck =/

Yesterday's message that I didn't post because of problems with internet: Day 16 - Still having small video watching thoughts, but they go away quickly. Emphasizing my wish to focus more on the project again. Day 14(Eating within food schedule.) Skipped dinner today as planned. Hope this will not happen again. Especially since as I mentioned earlier - I'm underweight

Day 15 - Don't think I had cravings today to watch useless videos. On the other hand I feel like I'm devoting too little time to my marketing project. I have a prior 90 day challenge that I have started(Only eating food I bought - Now 77 days. So I've been thinking once I reach that I might eat a fruit salad to celebrate, Not sure if I would want to break it after completing 90, most probably not. Sticking to food schedule or less Day 13 - Today I lost sense of time as a bike courier and accidentally started eating dinner at 01:40 am approx. for that reason tomorrow I'll have to obstain from dinner 😞 (That is 02.10's post which didn't get posted for some reason, I just post it from the recovered clipboard.)

Why 3 hours of sleep?

Day 14 - Many strong cravingss for both routines. Which happened every time I was before focusing on the marketing project. Still overcame it. A lot thanks to you sticking to food schedule Day 12 - batch cooked dinner for a week again. Proud of myself. Still treating food as an escape about which I think all the time and waiting for.

Awesome job! Keep it up! I disagree. I find those medications as symptom treating, and distracting you from solving the problem at the core. That's not to speak about all the side-effects that this chemistry has on your body

GP stands for General Practitioner? And what kind of medication are you refering to?

Generally sounds like a plan. What do you mean by being quite there?

I do not do that continuously, but I have yesterday. Usually I aim for 8. in reality - the day before that I slept 07h 07m and the day before 07h 30m approximately Day 13 - Found a way to delete my Steam account, but have to wait 30 days 'till it will be permanent. But the game that I had most cravings for when I relapsed is actually samp. But they're on my old phone which I'll need to buy a new charger to turn on. So for now just that will do I guess. If I ever get a charger (I'll need to cause I have lots of photos and data on that phone) I hope I'll find the courage to remove the passes Day 11 (Food schedule) - Combined lunch and dinner again to go to sleep earlier, but that was planned in advance. P.S. feeling like I'm working a bit too little on the marketing project 😞 (2.5 hrs today)

Day 12 - Today has gone relatively well, I did 3.5 hrs of concentrated work, and deviated from my general weekly schedule only by about an hour. Dreading the short sleep time I've scheduled for myself ( about 3 hrs ) and the 5 hour workout that follows. Hope I'll survive X-X Day 10 Sticking to food schedule - Thinking it could have been cool to eat and not ride on a bike straight away, nonetheless sticking to schedule one more day 🙂

Amen. To make mistakes is human. To forgive is godly, and that includes forgiving yourself.

Day 11 - Didn't feel any significant youtube video cravings today. Maybe because I worked very little on my project (barely two hours, half an hour of which was accompanied with eating....) Day 9 (Sticking to food schedule) - Cramped up lunch and dinner today so that I could go to sleep earlier. But still going strong, thank you everyone!!!

Day 10 - After being awake for 20 hours feeling that I'm huting my health, and cravings to play hit me. But as yoda would say: "Still strong I am" Day 8 (Sticking to food schedule) - Ate some of the food of lunch at breakfast time today. While overall food was not gone over the top it is still a bad sign and should be stoped

Day 9 - I usually have a 4 hour bike delivery in my routine, but today it was a holiday and I could only do deliveries up to 15:00 Decided to finally prioritize it differently. Number 1: Health Number 2: My marketing project Number 3: Extra money (Generally for move to Spain) Eventually I completed only 8 pomodoros, when planned 12. I also started from the pomodoros, and eventually when feeling sleepy just droped into bed and slept for 4 hours. Then ate dinner, made some more pomodoros and slept further, with delaying the workout I had to do to the morning. That's what happens when you try to live up to your values. For now it was a one time thing and today I'll work 8 hours on bike instead of 4. Guess I'm still not ripe enough to act to my values and want to stick to my old routine (Working 4 hours, and not doing the 6 hours on my marketing project as I really want to) Sticking to schedule day 7 - One more day saved thanks to you guys 🙂 I even ate at 23:15 instead of working out because I didn't want to slip with the meal after 00:00 and then have no dinner today 🙂

Day 8 - Have been reactive today on the morning and became angry as a result. Which in turn caused anxiety, when feeling anxiety I had cravings to watch some game videos, but I remembered that I will have to tell you guys about it and it stopped me. Thank you for being here to the reader, and thank you Cam for this platform! Day 6 Sticking to food schedule - I measured my meal times today with the batch cooked food - takes me 1 hr in breakfast 1 hr at lunch and 1 hr at morning, will see If and how I can improve it.

Day 7 - In the evening when back from work, I've had small cravings to check what the status of the servers of a game I played, and whether it has high online. Nonetheless it is still quite weak Day 5 Sticking to food schedule - still strong! Also batch cooked dinner, Broccoli+Spinach+dates+rice. And got boxes to store it in the freezer instead of putting it in the pots and taking the place of half the freezer, I guess they just need washing now before using. Tomorrow will wash and update 🙂

Day 6 - Visited my mom today for her bday and helped brother setup his computer and handed over my minecraft account this is the closest I have been to gaming for a lot of time, I still do feel some small nostalgia, but I believe it's quite weak. Day 4 sticking to food schedule - Damn I'm adding too much to my workouts... I find myself in a situation where I devote twice a week 5 hours to workouts and the other days I work as a bicycle courier for at least 4 hours. (7 on weekend) I'm pretty sure this 500 calorie addition is not going to be enough. Just hope that I won't disappear until next two week food plan =/

What does ITAA stand for? 60 days free? Awesome!!!!! at 90 perhaps celebrate it in some way 🙂

Day 5 - Some small cravings, especially when thinking that tomorrow I will go to celebrate my mom's birthday and perhaps give my brother my minecraft account and help connect his new gaming computer, but they're quite weak. Sticking to food schedule day 3 - In the evening still some cravings, but generally sticking to it... Feeling a bit weak, but I wonder if it's my mind playing with me or it's really the being underweight effect. By the way I'm pretty active physically so that's why I've been eating 3300 calories a day and still losing weight... Hope that this increase to about 3900 is gonna at least stop the weight loss, although I doubt it.

Don't forget the only truth. It is poison. Our days are numbered! Use them so that you wouldn't regret anything on your death bed! No matter what happens, just remember this simple truth, and with time you will prevail, as long as you don't lie to yourself and start justifying this behavior

Mr. Goggins. Is awesome! Appreciate anyone who appreciates him 🙂 Keep at it bro!!!!!!!

Day 4 - Having thought about whether I should really delete my Steam account, which I didn't touch for more than 5 years aswell as my Minecraft account which I also didn't touch about the same period of time.. Especially since my little brother just got a new gaming computer, and I've been thinking of handing it down to him. (No going over food schedule day 2) - Today it has come to my attention that I'm terribly underweight. Height 174 cm Weight 51.9 kg. I was already underweight, 54.5, the last time I measured, but this is a new record. That doesn't mean I am to renag on this commitment. I will just adjust the schedule and weight myself again in two weeks(Adding dates and avocado, about 500 calories together. Peanut butter was already there, I was just cutting down on it in the last few days because I overate it earlier. Breakfast: Orange - 1 piece Tomato - 1 piece Cucumber - 1 piece Tofu - 75 grams Oatmeal(Dry before cooking) - 50 grams Soy/oat/almond/alternative milk - 200 ml Flux seeds - 12 grams Brazil nuts - 12 grams Almonds - 25 grams Sunflower seeds - 25 grams Bread - 3 pieces (About 90 grams, but may be more or less) Salt - about 2 grams Avocado - 100g Dates - 2-3 units (about 40g) Lunch: Banana - 1 piece Carrot - 2-3 pieces (about 200 grams) Peas - 100 - 150 grams ( Up to 150 to end the can of 335g ) Cabbage - 35 g Tofu - 75 g Red Lentils(dry before cooking) - 70g Nutritional Yeast - 6 g Almonds - 25g Sunflower seeds -25g Bread - 3 pieces (about 90g) Peanut Butter - 60g Dates - 2-3 units (about 40g) Dinner: Apple - 1 piece Cabbage - 35g Spinach - 100g Broccoli - 100g Rice(dry before cooking) - 70g Tahini - 50g Salt - 2g Dates - 2-3 units (about 40g)

Day 3 - For now, free of viewing gaming videos or any other useless videos for that matter. Day 1(Food schedule) Today I finally managed to completely stick to the food schedule. (I mixed the meals into two, but didn't go over the overall quantity) Moreover, I go to a library almost everyday to escape the eating urge, and do focused work, and there was food there too... But despite the cravings I withstood it. Yay me 🙂 Attaching pics of the foods in the library

Any solution you choose becomes more automatic the more you do it. But my suggestion is not to do it sometimes, because then it doesn't turn into your identity and doesn't become automatic. but rather to stop it completely, because the only way to need less willpower for something is to make it your identity. Will share in pieces across next days, as this takes lots of time. But thank you very much for your interest! When I messed up my hormones enough I felt satiety and even more desire to do very low impact activities, only then my short-term-pleasures self bypassed my rational self, and i started watching, because otherwise, I never do. I don't consider it something I want to do in moderation, but not at all. This "Entertainment" is unnecessary in my opinion.

Day 2 - Was extremely close to sticking to the food schedule. But slipped away with 5 grams of tahini, which is liquid sesame and once I poured it, it would take too much time to re-cook the meal, so I decided to eat it anyway. So sticking to food schedule is still day 0 😞 In any case here's my planned food schedule until Tuesday, including Tuesday. If need be, will make changes at Tuesday. Breakfast: Orange - 1 piece Tomato - 1 piece Cucumber - 1 piece Tofu - 75 grams Oatmeal(Dry before cooking) - 50 grams Soy/oat/almond/alternative milk - 200 ml Flux seeds - 12 grams Brazil nuts - 12 grams Almonds - 25 grams Sunflower seeds - 25 grams Bread - 3 pieces (About 90 grams, but may be more or less) Salt - about 2 grams Lunch: Banana - 1 piece Carrot - 2-3 pieces (about 200 grams) Peas - 100 - 150 grams ( Up to 150 to end the can of 335g ) Cabbage - 35 g Tofu - 75 g Red Lentils(dry before cooking) - 70g Nutritional Yeast - 6 g Almonds - 25g Sunflower seeds -25g Bread - 3 pieces (about 90g) Dinner: Apple - 1 piece Cabbage - 35g Broccoli - 200g Rice(dry before cooking) - 70g Tahini - 50g Salt - 2g Also, I decided to batch cook, but more on that tomorrow.