Yan

To add on the previous post, this is my every-day meal plan. (In case you're interested.) But because I found out I was terribly underweight I gradually added to the breakfast 100g avocado, 60g dates 20g sunflower seeds, 20g almonds, removed the salt To lunch 20g sunflower seeds, 20g almonds, 60g peanut butter and olives raw 50g or olive oil up to 50g Dinner stayed more or less the same, with some variation of broccoli with kale and spinach.

Hey, Niko. Thank you very much for your interest and taking the time to reply. It's hard to say if it's an aftermath after my gaming, but it is a source for immediate rewards. And they did come together with eachother. At least when I relapsed a year ago, and when I used to watch entertainment videos many times since. In any case I have all my meals planned out and I eat within those boundaries. What does help me (and I just didn't do it at this time because I got distracted) is preparing the next meal while I'm eating, and stuffing it away before i'm done eating. So when I'm still in the eating mood it's not directly in front of my nose. In any case, thank you for the suggestion, but mostly If I plan the time correctly I manage to stick to the meals. My problem is that for example on workout days by the time I'm done with my workout and shower and morning routine, 7.5 hours or 8 hours have passed, and then I have 8 hours to stuff three big meals (the last one must be at the very least 3 hours before sleep, better 4. and so here is the problem. On the weekends I work 7 hours on a bike, (Not an e-bike) So I'm moving all the time, and so it is again difficult to fit 3 meals to be completely separated from the physical activity The last type of days is where I work on the bike only 4 hours. On those I actually manage quite well. The only meal that gets close to the physical activity is dinner ( But still this shouldn't happen) The solutions that come to mind for me are either reduce the amount of meals or reduce the physical activity or split it, which wouldn't be enough anyway on 7 hour work days, and on the 4 hour work days it breaks momentum too much so I'd prefer not do it. And so here's the vicious cycle I guess. I'd be surprised if you actually read this whole message xD

Entry 10.11 (Written at 11.11 in the morning) Day 53: No Useless Videos Day 51: Sticking to Food schedule 4 days 'till Spain trip -Booked a hostel for the day I land(yay me) and will go visit a few apartments at the same day to find an accomodation for the month. -Asked one of my roommates if I could leave a bag or two at his place to empty my room for the subletter, and he replied yes. Now I only have to figure out if another roommate will allow me to leave the other part by his place 🙂 Tomorrow, or today to be exact, I'd like to find another apartment to check out on the day I land, making it three, and check with the other two that it is still relevant.

Entry 09.11 (Written at 10.11 in the morning) Day 52: No Useless Videos Day 50: Sticking to Food schedule 5 days away from trip to Spain None of the tasks on the list were taken off of it, on the contrary, there are a few more. (Send aliexpres package back to sender, Exchange EUROs, buy health insurance for my trip time) I ate dinner partly with lunch, despite having planned to eat it differentky, can't allow this to happen tomorrow, so I should finish preparing it before i'm done eating lunch, so that there will not be super strongs cravings for it.

Awesome, will be waiting to hear how it goes! Don't expect it to be easy though in the beginning, It will only stick if you make it stick 🙂 It is the same as workouts, it requires some effort, but when you get momentum and it becomes a part of your Identity, you just do it. Anyway here's a random article:https://www.33fuel.com/blogs/default-blog/news-cold-shower-benefits with the boatload(12 in this article) of benefits cold showers offer. (I didn't read it through, just the subheadings 🙂 ) P.S. Here's a Ted x talk about cold showers that I did watch through 🙂

Entry 08.11 (Written at 09.11 in the morning) Day 51: No Useless Videos Day 49: Sticking to Food schedule 6 days away from trip to Spain Tasks to accomplish: -Organize small bag -Talk to relatives about staying at their place two days after landing so that my renter can get a full month in my room -See where I put my stuff while the renter will be at my room -Find accomodation in Spain Managed to not doze off today, that's a huge win. I also realize that a lot of the reason for this immense tiredness is lack of water after a big meal. Goals for tomorrow: Book some of these miscellaneous goals into the schedule

I think that If the parents are in no state to set a schedule for themselves and their kid that will fulfill all the 4 reasons why we play. It is a good solution for the kid to feel at least some competence. But of course ideally it should be limited by the parent, so as the kid doesn't develop the addiction. Maybe he should stop all together for a few months, and then the parents could discuss with him the importance of only having a set amount of hours before they continue. If they see that it's too hard for him maybe shouldn't play at all. (Especially due to his sensitive age. He can't set boundaries to himself) I'm just brainstorming here, I have no Idea about the "rightest" thing here, just as you don't probably. But if I were you I'd consult the books. What do we know? It's the blind leading the blind. Ask some specialists who devote their life to those questions, you'd most probably get a better answer from them.

Oh man, our mind is so slick....... "Technically getting out of bed" tries to fool ourselves. Glad you caught it. Regarding the coffee, some researches consider it to be harmful for your heart health in the long term. So perhaps consider changing it to a cold shower?

You have so many goals. I think that you, the same as myself lack focus and priority. We need to have a clear number 1 priority, Ideally in life and long term values, but for sure at least for the same day. Otherwise everything is just made half-way and nothing really gets completed.

Entry 07.11 (Written at 08.11 in the morning) Day 50: No Useless Videos Day 48: Sticking to Food schedule - 7 days away from trip to Spain. Today I did only one hour of work on my marketing project. Only 2.5 hours workout so that I could make it to the dentist, then I had a puncture in my bike and went to fix it straight away and took an unplanned shower, which eventually resulted in being one hour late on schedule. Which meant that If I continue the workout I won't eat the meals of today (Before 00:00) So I skipped the second 2.5 hour part of the workout. I also planned and ate everything in 2 meals. This is already not the first day that I do this, and eat a helluvalot in the evening and then doze off. I also allowed myself to doze off after the big breakfast. It seems I'm losing quite a few battles, and mainly because of dozing off after big meals. I need to make it a habit to stand up when I feel tired and withstand this urge to drop to sleep as it is unhealthy for my teeth, stomach, and hinders my entire schedule.

Very well said!!! Another example to reinforce what you've said - Try thinking "Don't think of a pink elephant, Don't think of a pink elephant, Don't think of a pink elephant" you'll always end up thinking of a pink elephant If you say instead, "Think of a blue elephant" a blue elephant comes to mind 🙂

Glad I could help! Even if it's the slightest bit! Thank you for asking about my journey! Some key metrics: -Day 49 of no watching Useless videos -Day 47 of sticking to food schedule (Defined amount of food or less) -Day 113 of eating only food I bought You may check out more details In my daily diary in the daily diaries sub-forum if you want the long (Scroll-like-long) details 😄 It's called No Useless Videos for 90 Days

Mhm... Got ya'. I think this definition of success will never allow you to truly feel success, and small wins are essential. (Constant measurable growth as Cam puts it) I'd consider concentrating on having a 21 day streak, then if you really feel like it you could stop for a day. Then you could try 45 for example, and stop if you really want (You don't have to) and maybe then 90 and so on. ( Of course if after 90 you really feel like you really don't want to continue, that is also okay. Although you probably won't as it seems 🙂 But you will still know you have succeeded at your goal ) But may I ask why is it so important to drink Coffee?

Entry 06.11 (Written at 07.11 in the morning) Day 49: No Useless Videos Day 47: Sticking to Food schedule Today Instead of completing my workout which I missed on Tuesday because of working on the elections from 06:00 till 22:00 I did a few other Important things and a 1 hour minimal workout, which means that with god's help, I'll have 2 days of 5 hour workouts in a row now and then another one after a break of a day. What did I complete? -Fixed the part of the bike which was likely the cause of the weird noises yesterday -Gone to dentist (but the appointment turned out to be tomorrow) -Translated a contract to sublet my room while I'm gone and signed it with the renter. My trip to Spain is 8 days away and I still didn't get an accomodation. Not to talk about my main goal which is finding a job there that will help me get a visa during the 1 month stay. I have started messaging property owners on Whatsapp in droves without record already (Used to write everything down to track) Because I'd really prefer not to stay at a hostel with a shared dorm. Although I will if I must.

Generally got it. A few more questions I'm still wondering about: -So what do you consider failing? How many days is success for you? -What kind of 15 minute work you mean? -Seems like you've restarted Objective 2, gonna donate 50$ now? Where do you donte to? 😉

Jon, I will not keep writing forever unless you also put some effort. Hope you find the strength. Give me something to work with here =/ Even if you write day 1 every day, at least write something. It's all good. As I said, it's no shame to fall. But it is a real shame to stay down.

Entry 05.11 (06.11 In the morning) Day 48: No Useless videos Day 46: Following Food Schedule Yesterday(Two days ago) - I noted weird noises from my bike in the evening as if it was going to break, and so I was worried today and went to a bike shop first thing when I got out for a shift. Since it's Saturday, most shops are closed here in Israel , but the one shop that was opened told me they'd have to take the bike overnight to fix it. Since I really wanted to complete 40 deliveries over weekend I decided not to keep it there and continue biking with the damaged part. This resulted in me riding very gently, therefor putting no effort, and feeling like falling asleep (I always prefer to put some effort, this way I can get more deliveries quicker and actually feel like I'm doing sports and accomplishing something) I hope I will go to another shop today(no longer weekend) so that they could fix it. Two more things in bullets worth mentioning: -The guy in the store offered me to rent an e-bike for the day until they fix mine. (Gladly I declined) Because it is a lot easier and faster to do deliveries with an e-bike, trying one could make me want it more. (The same as videogames) But truly it goes against my values because I've gone to this job so that I could do sports at the same time and have it be useful. Not just for money. -I skipped lunch in an attempt to make the day shorter and sleep earlier (At human hours). After some time I felt soreness in my hand, which I'm pretty sure resulted from the fact that my lunch holds 80% of my proteins in a day. -After having no coat and putting no strong effort on the bike I guess the wind got to me, and I feel slight pain in my chest. Got to start taking a coat at least for the times when I ride slowly and don't increase my heartrate.

Entry 04.11 (06.11 In the morning) Day 47: No Useless videos Day 45: Following Food Schedule It seems that for some reason the previous post didn't get postted although I'm quite sure I posted it. Oh well, I'll do my best to restore it. Two days ago I experimented with my work hour so that Instead of eating right after the morning marketing project (2 hours after previous meal) I left to do deliveries for 2 hours and came back to eat lunch. It felt a bit better if I look at it from a stomach feeling perspective. The problem is that to return home It might mean I'm losing momentum on deliveries (Because I could have taken a delivery that was going away from home, but chose not to in order to go home to eat) I have given it some thought yesterday/today, and I think that the next experiment should be packing both the lunch and dinner together with me. (The main goal is to avoid eating meals too close to eachother. I smile a bit less because I opened my mouth less not to have wind on my teeth, and generally my lip is still injured, so that affects my mood a little bit. As you know smiling makes you feel good after a while(According to one experiment), and vice versa.

Awesome. Agree with everything you said. Glad to have you here.

Awesome. What is your name? I am Yan (I'm on day 46 of no watching Useless Videos on YouTube). Nice to meet you. I'd suggest you start a daily journal with the goal of stopping to game with a day count. I'd Suggest 21 days at first. But likely eventually you'll need at least 90 to get the momentum going.

Hey, what do you work at? What is your goal with this Journal? Would you find a day count useful? I believe it is. Let me know what you think. (I read a bit of posts, but preferred to ask you rather than go over everything, so if it's included earlier, apologies. )

Hey Jon, I think if you had any habit that you've managed to build, you should think of it. In the beginning It was a little hard and weird, but as days went by, it became a part of your Identity. Take this success in mind, and know that this is exactly what it will be like. You just have to build the initial momentum (The beginning is usually the hardest) Just absorb pain for 21 days. I believe in you. If you broke the streak again, I'm still waiting to see you restart. No matter how many times you get knocked to day one, I hope to see you restart right away. Because it is no shame to fall. But it is a real shame to stay down!

Entry 03.11 (04.11 in the morning) Day 46: No Useless videos Day 44: Following Food Schedule Worthwhile mentions today 1. I woke up accidentally at 06:30, after dozing off at around 02:00, and decided to make a complete workout - 5 hrs, before a scheduled conversation at 12:00, (Also skipping routines in the process which I have just completed retro.) Feels Great to make a complete workout after three days of just minimal running. 2. Made a filling for my tooth, the dentist said I probably shouldn't eat hard foods all together with my front teeth now forever (I hope it's just his opinion, because another dentist told me it was quite safe), also it feels very weird like something is standing out on the inside of my teeth. 3. Without any warning I started feeling an extreme sensitivity to cold (Even when I breathe on it, it hurts), after researching a little bit, I found out I shouldn't have eaten cold or warm foods. ( Which I did, both, because the dentist didn't instruct me otherwise ) I also read that this pain might last a couple of weeks now and that it should subside gradually. I strongly hope that this will pass, and that I didn't do irreversible damage to the filling =/ Cravings to escape to mindlessly watching YouTube and self-pitty are immense(Fear of damaging teeth).

Jon, hoping to see you writing retro as always on yesterday 🙂 Stay strong!

Thanks a lot for checking in and reading through my journal Visitor! Here are the answers to your questions: 1. I suppose that by "scale" you mean measure. I measure my meals so that I will know that I'm hitting Minerals, macronutrients, calories, micronutrients, vitamins in the best way I can. Not to reduce weight. 2. I do not have to skip meals - I just put myself a certain amount of food which I do not go above. Ideally I try to eat all of it, but if I'm pressed in time I prefer to eat less than go over. That is also what I mean by sticking to food schedule - Eating as described or less. Because when I ate more ( in binge ) I used to be triggered to start watching gaming videos and such, also I didn't hit my nutrition goals. 3. My routine is at a very general level: 50 minutes morning routine: Journal, meditation, clean room, brush teeth, drink water and such. about 1 hour food. Then at least 2 hours of marketing project ( Ideally 6, this is the next habit I'd most likely like to build ) Then lunch Then at least 3 hours of regular bike deliveries of food. (Used to be 4 but i'm probably cutting one to fit more marketing project) I used to have dinner in the middle of deliveries at a break, but I am thinking to maybe put it afterwards. Anyway after finishing dinner and deliveries, about 3 hours for evening routing of reflections, reading books, watching useful video on youtube, checking my whatsapp messages and soc. media if needed, and mail, etc. (Edit)P.S.Those are 3 days of the week. Another 2 days on the weekend I work 7 hours as a courier and reduce the marketing project. Another 2 days I do 5 hour workouts of Chest, Legs and Abs, Back Accordingly, Go to shop once in two weeks on those days, Clean the house every week on those days (No courier work) and also Ideally plan my week, and talk to people in my apartment about notes that I wrote throughout the week (In reality I mostly plan days currently, but I am striving for the weekly schedule) (End Edit) That's pretty much it. If it is still not clear, let me know, I may elaborate on anything you wish. Thanks for your interest!!