Yan

Entry 6.2 Day 22: No Useless Videos Day 854: Sticking to Food schedule Day 457: Eating Only between 06:30 and 19:00 (Last bite before 19:00) Day 5: Being in bed before 23:15 3 Things I did well no matter how small -Pulling the trigger on one of the shops for battery replacement -75% effort run -43 hor fast or so 1 Thing I could do better -Wake up 4 hours earlier in te morning.... Gaming count since relapse Gaming (Death, Slavery, Regret, Disease) - 5 Yan (Life, Individuality, Freedom, Purpose, Self-Fulfillment) - 23

Entry 5.2 Day 21: No Useless Videos Day 853: Sticking to Food schedule Day 456: Eating Only between 06:30 and 19:00 (Last bite before 19:00) Day 4: Being in bed before 23:15 - accidentally dozed off in the table and woke up after 23:15 3 Things I did well no matter how small -Checking out two shops for laptop repair getting two price offers -Morning workout -4 pomodoros 1 Thing I could do better -More prompt decision what to do in regards to battery replacement Gaming count since relapse Gaming (Death, Slavery, Regret, Disease) - 5 Yan (Life, Individuality, Freedom, Purpose, Self-Fulfillment) - 22

Entry 4.2(written on 5.2) Day 20: No Useless Videos Day 852: Sticking to Food schedule Day 455: Eating Only between 06:30 and 19:00 (Last bite before 19:00) Day 3: Being in bed before 23:15 3 Things I did well no matter how small -Morning run -Garage visit -Planning the next day after evening routine 1 Thing I could do better -2 pomodoros after evening routine Gaming count since relapse Gaming (Death, Slavery, Regret, Disease) - 5 Yan (Life, Individuality, Freedom, Purpose, Self-Fulfillment) - 21

I feel there's a problem with how you use "Lucky". I never played the lottery in my adult life because even if I managed to win and get "lucky" this wouldn't be my achievement, and is very unlikely to happen in the first place, not to mention repeat itself. I'd rather focus all my time and effort on developing the necessary skills to acquire money, then I may write it for myself as an achievement and also be at a position to hold this money. I've also heard often that the majority of lottery winners lose their money very quickly, and it makes a lot of sense to me. Since, they didn't earn it they don't have the skills to produce that kind of wealth or keep it. Here's are 23 of those cases, then there is this article says 70% of lottery winners lose all that money in 5 years or less, it doesn't link to a study though, but again if you'd like I'll dig deeper into it. It is also a bit like being happy because you were born tall, good looking etc. While these things, along as having two hands legs and eyes etc. Are things to be grateful for, they're not things to be proud of. Since you didn't do anything to earn them. I'd like to use my existing time on earth to do what I believe I've been put here for, which is what will make me proud and the closest I know to being "happy". Hoping for a lottery win does not fit into that category. Our predisposition to gaming might also be something we inherited, and that is not unlucky as i see it. It just is. Aswell as our parents and other things we got for good or for worse. Now it is about how we are going to use those predispositions. And that is the only thing that is "lucky" here, the fact that you know the difference between what depends upon you and what doesn't and focus all your efforts on the things that do, and do not consider it lucky when anything that doesn't contributes to your progress or not, because today it may contribute and tomorrow it can set you back. That shouldn't matter. All that matters is how you did the things that depended on you. Again, all this is just my opinion and I join you on your request to feel free to argue any of that 🙂

Entry 3.2(written on 4.2) Day 19: No Useless Videos Day 851: Sticking to Food schedule Day 454: Eating Only between 06:30 and 19:00 (Last bite before 19:00) Day 2: Being in bed before 23:15 3 Things I did well no matter how small -Morning workout -10 pomodoros -sending a sort of S.M.A.R.T. goal to my accountability partner 1 Thing I could do better -insisted a bit more on garage meeting at 19 Gaming count since relapse Gaming (Death, Slavery, Regret, Disease) - 5 Yan (Life, Individuality, Freedom, Purpose, Self-Fulfillment) - 20

Entry 2.2(written on 3.2) Day 18: No Useless Videos Day 850: Sticking to Food schedule Day 453: Eating Only between 06:30 and 19:00 (Last bite before 19:00) Day 1: Being in bed before 23:15 3 Things I did well no matter how small -Partcipation in a 10k race. Running first lap (10k) at 85% effort more or less and another 10k right after for myself at 75%% effort -1 pomodoro after evening ruine despite fatigue that i usually get at that point -having planned next day once more 1 Thing I could do better -Pponder a little what causes such sluggishness after evening routine and what could be adjusted in schedule to accommodate and stop me from dozing off out of schedule Gaming count since relapse Gaming (Death, Slavery, Regret, Disease) - 5 Yan (Life, Individuality, Freedom, Purpose, Self-Fulfillment) - 20

Entry 1.2 Day 17: No Useless Videos Day 849: Sticking to Food schedule Day 452: Eating Only between 06:30 and 19:00 (Last bite before 19:00) Day 0: Being in bed before 23:15 - accidentally dozed off in the table and woke up after 23:15 3 Things I did well no matter how small -Morning workout regular (Back Shoulderst,Stairs) -6 pomodoros -having planned next day 1 Thing I could do better -hold a little longer before dozing off Gaming count since relapse Gaming (Death, Slavery, Regret, Disease) - 5 Yan (Life, Individuality, Freedom, Purpose, Self-Fulfillment) - 19

Entry 31.1(Written on 1.2) Day 16: No Useless Videos Day 848: Sticking to Food schedule Day 451: Eating Only between 06:30 and 19:00 (Last bite before 19:00) Day 21: Being in bed before 23:15 3 Things I did well no matter how small -Morning workout regular (Legs,Chest,Stairs) -Having set a daily goal for pomodoros -Evening routine right after dinner 1 Thing I could do better -After evening routine remember to plan next day Gaming count since relapse Gaming (Death, Slavery, Regret, Disease) - 5 Yan (Life, Individuality, Freedom, Purpose, Self-Fulfillment) - 18

Entry 30.1 Day 15: No Useless Videos Day 847: Sticking to Food schedule Day 450: Eating Only between 06:30 and 19:00 (Last bite before 19:00) Day 20: Being in bed before 23:15 3 Things I did well no matter how small -Runnnig on a part of a potential race route -evening routine begin right after dinner -5 pomodoros 1 Thing I could do better -planed for tomatoes and pears starting tomorrow since today i was already eating the meals with quite short pauses in between, and this made the volume large on top of it, a harmful combination i believe Gaming count since relapse Gaming (Death, Slavery, Regret, Disease) - 5 Yan (Life, Individuality, Freedom, Purpose, Self-Fulfillment) - 17

Food schedule update (30.1-13.2) not including 13.2 Everythng remains the same apart for one more pear being allowed until they run out. I may make another change if i have ideas to improve eczema, if it will be done it will be on 6.2 Addition 20 minutes later(~) today 2 tomatoes, starting tomorrow up to 1

Entry 29.1 Day 14: No Useless Videos Day 846: Sticking to Food schedule Day 449: Eating Only between 06:30 and 19:00 (Last bite before 19:00) Day 19: Being in bed before 23:15 3 Things I did well no matter how small -Morning workout (Back, shoulders, stairs) -Staying with my apartment mate to clarify the importance of not interrupting me in the moment and pre-planning if he needs me for any activity. Furher detail: I have always said that, but I needed more time to get to the end of his thoughts I guess, to see if he really understands, spent about 3 hours today on that, while also reflecting in writing on the situation and just freezing for about 30 minute after having listened to his angry thoughts for a lot of time continuously. If he's not going to stop I might need to stop reacting so much since i think he's really seeking my attention much and also possibly might just want to bring me out of balance so that he doesn't feel too bad with his own lack of schedule [subconsciously] - that's just a thought, not a commitment. -8 pomodoros 1 Thing I could do better -Limit the entering into an emotional rollercoaster with my apartment mate, I think I let myself do that out of weakness and partially trying to avoid work, which i was doing anyway with an hour of reading news before he came. When he stopped the outburst as he usually does, just refocus on the pomodoros, so long as he doesn't angrily knock on my door and interrupt me again. That's the best I could do I guess, so long as I don't just refuse to listen to anything he says, which I guess would hold worse consequences in the long term. Gaming count since relapse Gaming (Death, Slavery, Regret, Disease) - 5 Yan (Life, Individuality, Freedom, Purpose, Self-Fulfillment) - 16

I apologize, I saw the airplane with holes story and rushed to comment, without reading this last sentence. Very sloppy of me. (I saw that after I already wrote the comment, and decided just to let it be, and let you clarify what you meant, which you did (thanks for that) 🙂 In any case I'll try reading and responding to the rest of the comment in the upcoming days. But for now enjoy your improving of writing skills benefit 😄

Entry 28.1 Day 13: No Useless Videos Day 845: Sticking to Food schedule Day 448: Eating Only between 06:30 and 19:00 (Last bite before 19:00) Day 18: Being in bed before 23:15 3 Things I did well no matter how small -Waking up at 4:00 for a 75% effort run and getting out of bed at 04:05. -Same,same. Sticking to schedule until the end of the evening routine. -9 pomodoros 1 Thing I could do better -The moment I deviated from the 10 minute deviation allowance, I allowed this "freedom" to let me read news for 20 minutes and try to enter on some gaming sites. All successfully blocked by my ad blocker. Amen to that at least. I haven't done that for quite a few days. Perhaps I need to maintain a longer time buffer, and not let myself chill unless I'm on the edge of the 10 minute schedule delay limit goal. Gaming count since relapse Gaming (Death, Slavery, Regret, Disease) - 5 Yan (Life, Individuality, Freedom, Purpose, Self-Fulfillment) - 15

If that is your calling and you focus around it, that's amazing! And it also seems to be that you accept the fact that when you focus on one thing you inevitably don't focus on another, which most people refuse to accept. They say things like "I'm just watching a little tv" whaat? That's my free time. No harm, as long as I did my 9 to 5 work for the day right? But everything affects everything else. Now I guess some lower intensity activities are indeed needed, but you can find lower-intensity activities that also contribute to your calling, for example you could be reading a book about your teaching subject. In which case is "doing nothing in particular" the right thing to do? When you say "nothing in particular" you mean just not having anything planned? Because doing nothing doesn't really exist I think, you're always doing something, even if that something is meditation, which is the closest to "nothing" i could come up with 🙂 You might be right that planning this stuff can cause you to "rebel" the structure eventually, and it might be what caused my relapse. But the question is in the long haul how much you "rebel" I think if my rebellion will be summed with 5 days in 3-4 years, I'm about a 1000 times more efficient when having everything planned all the rest of the days, and even if these 5 days I'm a 1000 times less efficient, it's still most very definitely worth it. Now whether it will indeed be days remains to be seen of course. But that is the question we should be asking ourselves I guess: What's more effective in the long term and make us more productive? I personally prefer not giving control to my present self. It most usually ends up not very productive/effective/fulfilling for me 🙂

I think it´s the same thing you were saying with "I'd rebel" just rephrased. Maybe these people did need the two elements: Luck and Hard-work. Maybe many other Hard-Working people didn't make it. But it doesn't omit the fact that hard work must be put in to achieve those heights. Whether we get "Lucky" or not doesn't depend on us, and that doesn't matter. At the end of the day I want to know I did all I could to have reached my full potential. What's up to god, is up to god. And it wouldn't get me "happier" to be lucky. What makes one happy is progress, and knowing you do your best every day. As far as I'm aware. Bottom line: You're again saying it's not worth going through all this hard work because you might not get anything in the end so might aswell not try to begin with... (If I understand correctly) Because if you never try you can never fail... But the thing is, when you stopped trying that's when you failed. On the contrary if you're trying and doing your best, even if luck doesn't strike you I think you're "successful" even without the accolades, because again "happiness" is not in the amount of dollars you have. There is a reason that there are both rich and poor people who suicide. It is because "happiness" lies in waking up one more day and putting yourself through the process with belief that you're working towards your self-actualization/potential. Just laying my thoughts here. Feel free to keep contradicting me, I may of course be mistaken and would love to hear your opinion.

Entry 27.1 Day 12: No Useless Videos Day 844: Sticking to Food schedule Day 447: Eating Only between 06:30 and 19:00 (Last bite before 19:00) Day 17: Being in bed before 23:15 3 Things I did well no matter how small -Morning workout -Again sticking to schedule until almost the end. Even managing to do 40 minutes of duo when in bed extremely tired, which is longer than yesterday (I think i pulled through one hour or so after evening routine yesterday, today - almost two -10 pomodoros 1 Thing I could do better -Try separating half of the lentils to lunch once more, perhaps this would reduce load on the stomach (even though i might have done this in the past, gotta keep trying stuff, since I still got eczema. Gaming count since relapse Gaming (Death, Slavery, Regret, Disease) - 5 Yan (Life, Individuality, Freedom, Purpose, Self-Fulfillment) - 14

One more thing we agree on, besides the fact that gaming is a hazard to be managed for the rest of our lives 🙂 It's awesome that you're intrinsically motivated, but saying that you would rebel if you had a definite schedule, sounds like a little of an excuse. You could say the same about completely not touching video games, and never set the "no playing guideline" because of it. But, truth is, it's just like any habit. Requires lots of willpower in the beginning to set up, and less and less as you go along, then some minimal amount to maintain, in my opinion. So as I see it, now when you have a "free" block of time, you'd use it for some useful activity. But if you had it written down, you wouldn't have to spend time deciding which would it be. Alternatively, you could write that it's gonna be one of three activities and that you're gonna rotate. Otherwise, It's a bit like entering a lottery when you say "I'll just trust my present self" It could be that this is the "Escape" I'm lacking which caused me to relapse, not having "relaxing" activities defined. On the other hand, I think that most extraordinary people Like Thomas Edison, Elon Musk, Phil Knight, David Goggins, Nicola Tesla, Ray Crock, Arnold Schwarznegger, Jeff Bezos, Warren Buffet and you name it, all had routines which require lots of willpower, and they just had to pull through. And they did (With minimal if any "relaxation", they found the "relaxation" in the work. So it's possible. It is not a "must" for you to rebel. it's a choice. Feel free to correct me though, it's a discussion, I might be wrong. Will keep breaking down the post later hopefully 😉

Entry 26.1(Written on 27.1) Day 11: No Useless Videos Day 843: Sticking to Food schedule Day 446: Eating Only between 06:30 and 19:00 (Last bite before 19:00) Day 16: Being in bed before 23:15 3 Things I did well no matter how small -Morning jog with another jogger I met some time ago. -Sticking to schedule mostly until apartment mate got an anger outburst once more, and I felt obliged to stay and listen until he's done. Also in the evening dropped to sleep about 1.5 hrs early, missing duo, 1 pomodoro, gq and message app checks. -8 pomodoros 1 Thing I could do better -Devoting some more time to one of the activities I need to do and focus on it. Taxes/Whatsapp restore/Print welcome message. Otherwise I don't get any of them done. Gaming count since relapse Gaming (Death, Slavery, Regret, Disease) - 5 Yan (Life, Individuality, Freedom, Purpose, Self-Fulfillment) - 13

Entry 25.1(Written on 26.1) Day 10: No Useless Videos Day 842: Sticking to Food schedule Day 445: Eating Only between 06:30 and 19:00 (Last bite before 19:00) Day 15: Being in bed before 23:15 3 Things I did well no matter how small -Morning workout (back,shoulders,stairs) -Sticking to schedule up to trial coaching call -12 pomodoros, even though i mstly was jus staring at the screen, that works for me nonetheless, gong through the motions is a start. 1 Thing I could do better -Planned more time for the coaching call + wrote a contingency for it Gaming count since relapse Gaming (Death, Slavery, Regret, Disease) - 5 Yan (Life, Individuality, Freedom, Purpose, Self-Fulfillment) - 12 @Ikar, working on producing a reply to your comment, gonna take a bit 😉

Entry 24.1(Written on 25.1 - Didn'tthink of thing i could do better within timeframe) Day 9: No Useless Videos Day 841: Sticking to Food schedule Day 444: Eating Only between 06:30 and 19:00 (Last bite before 19:00) Day 14: Being in bed before 23:15 3 Things I did well no matter how small -Morning workout (Legs,chest,stairs) -Absolutely sticking to schedule within 10 minutes delay max. Today I'm proud -14 pomodoros (hot damn once more 😉 ) 1 Thing I could do better -Block some additional gaming websites on my phone and computer Gaming count since relapse Gaming (Death, Slavery, Regret, Disease) - 5 Yan (Life, Individuality, Freedom, Purpose, Self-Fulfillment) - 11

I didn't really count the times, but I'm pretty sure these numbers are quite representative. I guess you have the 4 basic human needs that Cam said gaming fulfills being met: Social, Escape, Constant measurable progress, challenge? Is that so?

Entry 23.1 Day 8: No Useless Videos Day 840: Sticking to Food schedule Day 443: Eating Only between 06:30 and 19:00 (Last bite before 19:00) Day 13: Being in bed before 23:15 3 Things I did well no matter how small -75% effort run -4 pomodoros -About 43 hours water fast 1 Thing I could do better -After evening routine follow schedule in direction of my life's goals. Not useless news watching and surfing gaming forums =/ Gaming count since relapse Gaming (Death, Slavery, Regret, Disease) - 5 Yan (Life, Individuality, Freedom, Purpose, Self-Fulfillment) - 10

Sounds more or less like reality 😉 The first number could probably be multiplied by some 15 and the second by 4 or 5 and you're golden ;D Sounds terrifying being without scheduled time, like a source for infinite depression I don't even know what you mean when you say "relax" never had that item on my schedule for years. Work is my relaxation. And it worked quite well for a few years... Maybe it will make you rebel, or maybe it's just your blizzard brain speaking 😉 In anycase so long as you're happy with your approach that's the most important thing. Because there are no right and wrong ways to live life. So long as you know what you aim for in the long term and your manner of living serves you (Begin with the end in mind from stephen covey's book, knowing what eulogy you want at your funeral, etc.) you're golden 🙂

Entry 22.1(Written on 23.1) Day 7: No Useless Videos Day 839: Sticking to Food schedule Day 442: Eating Only between 06:30 and 19:00 (Last bite before 19:00) Day 12: Being in bed before 23:15 3 Things I did well no matter how small -Morning Resistance Workout -5 pomodoros -Sticking to schedule within 10 minute delay at most until I dozed off in bed X_X 1 Thing I could do better -Completed evening routine when i accidentally woke up at 19 Gaming count since relapse Gaming (Death, Slavery, Regret, Disease) - 5 Yan (Life, Individuality, Freedom, Purpose, Self-Fulfillment) - 9

Honestly I don't remember when I felt "Bored". I always have something to do. Do you use time-blocking? Or do you have chunks of "free time" in your schedule? This "free time" is the only thing that can make you feel bored in my humble opinion and assumption.