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Sashiku

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  1. Yep, I don't really do any of the *gaming* aspects of it anyhow. I was doing poorly before I quit but now I actually got most of my to-do's done yesterday minus one. I was thinking of developing a *real life* quest log. Just to get me into doing things for real and then I can ditch it for a regular to do list. I just figure it would motivate me. I mean, my favorite two things about gaming were the story and questing, so making up real life quests sounds like a great idea. I don't think it will temp me or anything.

    I also figured for each completed quest I could reward myself with things I like. IE: Sno cones, teddy bears, walks across the river, making my favorite meal, going to visit a friend *all of my friends live far away and not all of them were met via gaming. Quite a few were met doing art.* or going to a movie of my choice. :)


  2. ~~~Day 2~~~

    I woke up today extremely tired. Not *yawn* tired *I can barely walk* tired. I couldn't even open my eyes fully for the first hour or so after waking and I went to bed at a reasonable hour last night AND took my thyroid medicine yesterday.

    I feel a bit irritable and had a bit of a grump at my mom who insisted I was lying about taking a bath last night even though the bubble bath and bath beads are still beside the tub and completely ignoring how clean my hair is. I felt so good after that bath. I don't take them often and preferred to shower because they're faster. After last nights bath I tried that site for meditation and it was pretty nice. i felt wonderful when I went to bed. I also unsubscribed from ALL gaming channels *there were probably 50+* so now my Youtube subscriptions are much smaller and mostly art and cat related now.

    My mother has also been really grumpy with me telling me I need to clean my house when yesterday I cleaned it for a few hours. I didn't get a lot done due to my ADHD and getting side tracked but at least I didn't get side tracked on the computer this time. I mostly got sidetracked by random objects instead. I hope I can get more done when I get home from my errands.

    I was wondering if using *Habitica* is considered a game? I was using it before to keep track of my daily tasks. Nothing I have found has worked as well with me. If you have an alternate site I can use please link it to me but i HAS to be interactive or I'll bore of it very very quickly and see no point in checking it. There must be some sort of way to tick off finished tasks and a reward section like in habitica. If only there were an artistic *task* software or website where you draw on the list or something. No idea.

    Anyway, I did have a dream about my favorite video game character last night *Nick Valentine* I think we were fighting swan... Not completely sure. Other than that, no real cravings yet aside from being on the computer in general. I did move my chair yesterday so I can't sit there anymore. Great idea I think.

    That's all for now! <3


  3. I was curious about something. Most of the people here seem to have been addicted to only one or two games. I can't really identify with that since I've played hundreds of games throughout my 10ish years gaming. I played MMOs first then moved to Coop games then to Single player games. The singleplayer game I played the most was Skyrim with over 1000 hours played. Second most played was Either Fallout 4 or Sims 3-4. I also had a ton of hours on Gary's Mod and Goat Simulator. I think my ADHD played a huge part in switching games often. At first I didn't switch much. My first game was neopets and I still played it every now and then for about 12 years. My second game and the game I was most devoted to was Maplestory. xD I played it regularly for a few years but ended up very bored of it.

    My question here is: did any of you have the same problem with playing tons of games instead of sticking to one or two?


  4. Welcome.

    I don't have ADHD (they once made the test, took an awful lot of time to evaluate it, then said "no" without any explanation -> ??? Thanks.), but i noticed that after 3 weeks now, it has become easier for me to concentrate - my head is clearer now. I hope it helps you too. (Not arguing for or against medicine here)

     

    ^^ Thanks for the input. <3


  5. Hey seems like you have gone through some hard stuff. Many people(myself included) escape in video games if shit gets real. It will be challenging but worthwhile to go through with the detox. If you need any tips or advice don't be afraid to ask. We are here to help!

    Yep, I have decided to go through it. I feel confident and hopeful that I can do it, so my mood is very good right now. :)


  6. Greetings from Mad Pharmacist!

    I can tell you 2 things for now:

    1)You're not the only one here who saved potential suicider

    2)Tidying up your house can drastically improve your discipline and makes you feel better. Just trust me, science proves this!

    :) Indeed! I can't wait to see my floors again. xD And have clean dishes/clothes.


  7. Hey and welcome!

    Most likely you will have to deal with cravings in the near future, it's good you uninstalled everything.Make sure to fill in time with activities you like and want to get good at.I personally try to draw everyday, I haven't touched my pencil in 5 days though(*cries*), and also I want to read something new everyday.

    Would love to see any drawing/animation/model you come up with.

    Keep us updated! 

    I wish I could draw with a pencil. ^^ My eyes are too bad and when drawing with a pencil I can only doodle. Finding a tablet saved me because I can zoom in and undo mistakes instead of having to erase 4000 times. *It probably truly is 4000* Here is a link to my art: http://forum.gamequitters.com/topic/1591-sashis-art/


  8. The first thing was my mother nearly getting beat to death by my brothers ex girlfriend who was addicted to some sort of drug. The cops say if I hadn't been there to pull that girl off her that she may very well have died. That sort of responsibility also stressed me out. I felt like I was responsible for my mothers well being when I couldn't even take care of myself.

     

    Look, regardless of the shit anyone's endured, none can completely identify with what you've been through. Traumas are these massive shit storms that we strive to understand years after they hit us. My ma had multiple personality disorder and lots of ptsd, so I ended up protecting and raising my older sisters and her regardless of my well being. So, I can't imagine what you survived, but I know it's been rough.

    Instead of feigning a slightest comprehension of your struggle, let me share some strengths and duties I've found through survival.
    You survived. This puts you well ahead of the majority of the human species. Fact is, it's easier to die than strive. Power to you.
    You faced shit. Most people who've endured extreme shit don't talk about it because it's considered taboo or poor discussion material. Thus, most people hide from their lives and hide their lives from others. This disenables them from growing from their hardships and disconnects them to the real world.

    I really appreciate your comment. I suppose talking about it has helped me get over it in a way. I only told my closest friends before now and it kind of ate away at me. So glad I can let it all out here and start healing the wounds of those trying times.

    My relatives say I'm strong but would someone who is strong really hide away playing video games for 10 years? I think if anything I'm just normal. There is a lot more to my story and I have been through a lot, but so have a lot of other people. From today on, I am going to try to think of the things that make me happy. Maybe then I will have true strength to overcome my weaknesses.

    Also, sorry to hear about your Mother. I am sure that was rough for you and your sisters. I have been thinking my mother may have something wrong with her because she never does anything but watch television and let my brother live with us when she knows he steals, lies, does drugs, and steals my money as well. I have been begging her to make him leave but she won't.


  9. I took yoga in College and LOVED it. I want to get back into it but I am So out of shape and I have very little energy due to my thyroid + no exercise that I don't know how to get into it again without wearing myself out. Any suggestions would be great. :) I would like to do Yoga in a couple days so I have time to get all the backed up work done before hand.


  10. I have been drawing for years but video games kept me from practicing as much as I wanted to. I even made up my own character and intend to write some books and illustrate her into them. My art style is very... cutesy and kind of odd. I really enjoy it though, regardless of my odd art style. I won't be posting any game fan art and trust me, I drew loads of it. I hope the amount of art I am posting isn't a strain on the servers. I won't post all my art here, there is just too much. Here is a link to my DeviantArt if you want to see all my art, including game art I haven't removed yet. If you don't like furries or ponies, please disregard this forum post.

    http://sashikuchan.deviantart.com/

    Okay, here are some of my favorite drawings.

    Two of these are brand new, done in the past 2 days. The *true friends* sketch and the one with the little girl riding the cat. xD

    TABLET AQUIRED White.png

    Sashiku White.png

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    Lovely Day.png

    Everypony Gets Sad sometimes.png

    How to catch a Derpy.png

    Mori's Logo TEST.png

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    Sunset Adventure.png

    True Friends.png


  11. Leah,

    Welcome! I'm a fellow quitter/relapser, and I can totally relate to ADHD worsening your addiction. I find that once you get away from gaming, ADHD (if managed correctly) can actually be a HUGE plus in getting stuff done, and engaging yourself in whichever tasks you decide to tackle. With a bit of self-experimentation and motivation, you will definitely find a way to channel your brainpower.

    The community here is great - lots of resources, journals, support, you name it. Hope you enjoy your stay!

     

    Thanks for your comment, I feel so relieved that people want to help and share their tips and stories with me.

    I actually just got diagnosed with ADHD 2 months ago. After that I suppose it was only a matter of time before I discovered the link between that and gaming.

    I actually LOVE to draw but have been way too involved in games to get a comic done I have been wanting to draw. I hope I can actually draw the comic out once I've recovered completely. The computer itself can be a bit addicting too, but I am going to push myself hard to not use it too much. I do have to draw on the computer as my vision isn't very good so I like to use painting programs like Paint Tool Sai to really zoom in and do tiny details in my work. I also mess up a lot, so the undo button is frequently used. :)

    I am sure you are right, I am trying to get treated for ADHD right now but I have had no luck getting medication.

    Anyway, thanks for your comment! ^^

     

    People here are more than welcoming when it comes to sharing personal experiences. It's great ^_^! I'm actually in a really similar situation; I got diagnosed with ADHD 3 months ago, and the only reason I bothered going in for testing was because I realized gaming got out of control.

    There's definitely a ton of artists here - check out some of the journals/threads, they post a lot of their work on here. As for the ADHD treatment, keep in mind there's a few different routes - I personally opted out of medication. Everyone's case is different, and you're not doomed if you can't get medication (definitely discuss this one with a doctor/psychiatrist, though). 

    Good luck with your first few days!!!

    yea, I wanted therapy more, but my therapist said that since my ADHD is rather severe that I should consider some lightweight medicines. I guess its worth a shot since my attention span is so small. I just want my life back really. If it helps me get there then I'll give it a try. :)

    Thanks~ I know its going to be hard at first. xD thanks for the wish of luck <3


  12. ~~~ Intro ~~~

    So, the day is over. It wasn't that hard because I've gone a day or two before. I think the real hardship will begin in a few days when i start feeling the need to play them again. But, I won't let it get me this time..

    So, I just finished uninstalling every steam/origin/other game I had and already noticed one up side. I was running out of disk space due to all the games and only had about 200GB left. Now? I Have 700GB of 950GB. :) My drawings take up a lot of room because they are all PNG format as I'm a digital artist so i was getting worried that I would run out of room. Feels nice to see so much memory on my hard drive. Not only that but my desktop is no longer cluttered. its nearly empty which is a nice feeling. I also got rid of my Nick Valentine Desktop image and used an anime one instead. It was hard because Nick Valentine is my favorite video game character of all time, but I did it.

    I also noticed I still had blender installed. I have always been in love with 3D modeling and animation, maybe I can pick back up learning how to use it again. I aspired to be an animator at one time but I knew it was impossible though... My eyesight isn't the best so I don't think it could ever happen. Instead, I want to be an artist who sells commissions and maybe a translator. I took Japanese in college before I dropped out a couple of years ago and I loved it. I was actually going to join the honors society a few months before really bad things happened in my life and I went to gaming to avoid thinking about them. The first thing was my mother nearly getting beat to death by my brothers ex girlfriend who was addicted to some sort of drug. The cops say if I hadn't been there to pull that girl off her that she may very well have died. That sort of responsibility also stressed me out. I felt like I was responsible for my mothers well being when I couldn't even take care of myself.

    The second thing was very recent, in January actually. I was saving up money for property taxes and had most of it when... it all got stolen. 2000$ poof, gone. This was another thing that made my gaming worse. I didn't know how to deal with my life at all so for years I just blocked it out.

    Anyway, back to the present. I am going to clean my house tomorrow... It is horrible. There are dishes everywhere, clothes on the floor, and clutter as far as the eye can see. My desk is a mess too and my poor pet bird's cage is pretty dirty. I feel so bad about all of it. I took such good care of my house before everything. I can't wait to see it clean again.

    Well, that is all for today. Goodnight~

     

    ~~~Day 1~~~

    I slept most of the day. I watched a bunch of documentaries last night *a common ritual when I'm nervous about something* mostly because I wasn't tired at all. Which is very very odd. I have hypothyroidism so I am usually horribly exhausted unless I take my medicine daily *which I forget 50% of the time*. But last night I wasn't tired in the least and went to bed at 7am. I am going to stop watching if I can and go color or doodle with a pencil or maybe do a puzzle. I am already finding all sorts of things I want to do with my time now. I have a small list of little things to do when I'm bored and big things to do as goals. Hoping after I get this place clean I can start doing yoga. I also have mild scoliosis so my spine curves inward slightly which yoga I feel will help me with a lot. Sitting for years has made walking around for short distances very painful. Painful enough I have to sit down till the pain stops. This means sitting down in the middle of grocery stores.. which is horridly embarrassing. I am going to go start on my living room. If I can get one room done a day, I will be happy.


  13. Leah,

    Welcome! I'm a fellow quitter/relapser, and I can totally relate to ADHD worsening your addiction. I find that once you get away from gaming, ADHD (if managed correctly) can actually be a HUGE plus in getting stuff done, and engaging yourself in whichever tasks you decide to tackle. With a bit of self-experimentation and motivation, you will definitely find a way to channel your brainpower.

    The community here is great - lots of resources, journals, support, you name it. Hope you enjoy your stay!

     

    Thanks for your comment, I feel so relieved that people want to help and share their tips and stories with me.

    I actually just got diagnosed with ADHD 2 months ago. After that I suppose it was only a matter of time before I discovered the link between that and gaming.

    I actually LOVE to draw but have been way too involved in games to get a comic done I have been wanting to draw. I hope I can actually draw the comic out once I've recovered completely. The computer itself can be a bit addicting too, but I am going to push myself hard to not use it too much. I do have to draw on the computer as my vision isn't very good so I like to use painting programs like Paint Tool Sai to really zoom in and do tiny details in my work. I also mess up a lot, so the undo button is frequently used. :)

    I am sure you are right, I am trying to get treated for ADHD right now but I have had no luck getting medication.

    Anyway, thanks for your comment! ^^


  14. Welcome, Leah!  

    This community has really helped me find ways to feel good without the endless Steam-a-thon that just left me drained and exactly where I started.

    I'm sure you can some great activities (check out Cam's list of hobbies, I just printed it out).

    My first real guitar lesson is tomorrow, I found a guy who does house calls.  I'm so excited, even though I can barely tune and hold the thing.

    Actually busted out my library card.  Sure I could do the kindle/ipad thing, but I like the smell.  And I like the pace of the library.  I stay away from the terminals, though.

    Graphic novels are a great source of cool shit and cool characters, that's half of why I gamed anyway.  It's kind of a new golden age for comics.

    I recommend Robert Kirkman's The Walking Dead or Invincible series, but there are so,so,so many others.

    Wish you the best, we're rooting for you.

     

    Out.

    I will certainly do my best. :)

    I am already feeling good about this community and actually feel like I can do it this time. Guitar huh? That's impressive. :)

    Oh! I loved reading before gaming! :D I had read the first 4 Harry Potter books about 5 times each. And sadly, I have a nice collection of graphic novels but I have only read 1 or 2 of them, or skimmed because I wanted to get back to playing.

    I also bought "The Zombie Survival Guide" last year and haven't even read it yet. I am going to read that as soon as I clean my house and get chores done. My house is a wreck to say the least...

    And yes, I loved the walking dead. :D

    Thanks so much for your suggestions and comment. I am so thankful!


  15. Hello everyone. I'm Leah, and I've tried to quit before. About 2 years ago I realized I was playing my life away i tried to quit but I had NO idea what I was supposed to do with the time I had gained and after a couple days of being bored as can be, I started right back up. I had no support at all, and all my "Friends" seemed to look down on me for quitting.

     

    I have been incredibly sick of games for about a year now and every morning I turn on my PC and sit in front of my 90+ Steam games, not wanting to play any of them. I have been making myself play them anyhow because of boredom and stress, which has only made me hate them more.

    I started gaming in my early twenties. I'm half blind due to my Optic nerve Hypoplasia so there is not a lot I can do on my own. Leaving the house is nearly impossible as I can't drive and I'm too poor to afford a cab, therefore, gaming was an easy fix... Except for the fact that I wasn't fixing anything. I was just trying to have the life I always wanted. Fantastic journeys to faraway lands, seeing things clearer than I could see them for real, being a heroine... And for a while it made me feel wonderful. I've never even left my home state before, so games were just a way for me to leave the house *in my own mind* and do something I couldn't actually do for real. Having ADHD only worsened my addiction, as boredom is something I don't cope with well.

    Now that I am quitting, I don't know how I will deal with the limitations again but I certainly have to try. I hope this will be a great community and that I will actually be able to quit once and for all with your help. <3

    Thanks for having me. <3

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