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Remigjus

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  1. How are you doing now?

    I'm doing great! Thanks for asking.I haven't been able to post  anything in a while , because I was ill(rotavirus) , so I wasn't able to do anything else, besides lying in bed  ????. About gaming, I'm  staying strong!!! Although every morning I  wake up with a strong urge to play , it fades out somewhere  around afternoon, and rarely comes back during the day. I'll start to post regularly  in my daily  journal , from tomorrow :). See you soon!

  2. DAY-4 (After relapse)

     

    A New Hope

    So, the day is over. Not much to say , for the whole day I was hibernating inside , because  the weather was terrible.

    • Mood - Normal
    • Cravings - 3/10
    • Time spent on gaming videos - 0.00
    • Time spent on videos unrelated to gaming - 5mins
    • Total  time spent on Youtube - 5mins
    • Productivity - 5/10
    • Time spent on Gaming streams - 0.00
    •    Reading progress:

                Mastery by Robert Greene - 20/275 ( pages) - No progress was  made during the past 2 days. 

    •  Books to read :

                         The Art of War by Sun Tzu

    • Commitments for tomorrow:

    • Workout for 2 hours.
    • Do everything according to my  day schedule.
    • No YouTube.         
  3. DAY-3 (After relapse)

    A New Hope

    I was more productive today than yesterday ,but  not at the level that I expected... I guess I still have to work on that. Cravings weren't strong at all, but there is one thing that keeps bothering me these past days... You see, a few years ago I was playing this MMORPG and it got shutdown.Then a group of people decided to revive it . They promised to rerelease it over the course of one year, but they're still working on it up till now. And the problem is that they're planning to release it soon. I really loved that game, like REALLY. That game was my life , I've made  friends by playing it, I enjoyed it even more than being outside. I feel like this is the only thing that would lead  me to relapse again. I'm afraid of that , because this time I would relapse for good...

    • Mood - Good
    • Cravings - 2/10
    • Time spent on gaming videos - 0.00
    • Time spent on videos unrelated to gaming 0.00
    • Total  time spent on Youtube - 0.00
    • Productivity - 4/10
    • Time spent on Gaming streams - 0.00
    •    Reading progress:

                Mastery by Robert Greene - 20/275 ( pages)

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       Books to read :

                         The Art of War by Sun Tzu

    • Commitments for tomorrow:

    • Workout for 2 hours.
    • Read 10 pages.
    • Do everything according to my  day schedule.
    • No YouTube.         
  4. DAY-2 (After relapse)

    A New Hope

    Nothing special happened today , despite me being not productive and lazy(and the weather was shit), but I hope everything is going to change tomorrow! I still struggle with wasting my precious time by watching Youtube , but I'll try to overcome this problem as fast as possible otherwise I'm going to relapse again, and I wouldn't want to experience it again :D 

    • Mood - Good
    • Cravings - 4/10
    • Time spent on gaming videos 25mins
    • Time spent on videos unrelated to gaming - 1hour
    • Total  time spent on Youtube - 1hour25mins
    • Productivity - 2/10
    • Time spent on Gaming streams - 0.00

          Reading progress:

              Mastery by Robert Greene - 20/275 ( pages)

             Books to read :

                       The Art of War by Sun Tzu

             Commitments for tomorrow:

    • Workout for 2 hours.
    • Read 5 pages.
    • Do everything according to my  day schedule.
    • No YouTube.              

                        

         

     

  5. DAY-1 (After relapse)

    *cleans the dust*

    A New Hope

    Hey everyone it's been a while...

    As most of you know , I relapsed yesterday , so I'm going to start  from zero. I'll try to  post here regularly  , but instead  writing a wall of text every single day(I'll write something if I feel so), I'm going to try something different. Just to keep this journal alive, because the last time it almost turned out  into a Monthly journal :D 

     

    • Mood - Normal
    • Cravings - 6/10
    • Time spent on gaming videos - 2mins
    • Time spent on videos unrelated to gaming - 40mins
    • Total  time spent on Youtube - 42mins
    • Productivity - 0/10

           I might add more options in the future.

     

  6. As the title of this topic says, I relapsed yesterday.The reason why I relapsed is because, sometimes I don't know how to say NO without feeling guilty. One of my internet friends was annoying me for the whole day to play with him ( he knew that I quitted gaming). I was afraid  to give him a negative answer , you know maybe I'll hurt his feelings and we'll not be friends anymore or something like that. And of course I agreed to play a bit ( to be exact for 4 hours). 

    To be honest , I saw it coming ( me relapsing), because I did everything  the other way round. Every day I've watched  tons of gaming videos /streams so I had to deal with cravings for  24/7. It was just a matter of time until  I'm going to relapse, because I was teasing myself to play. So every day was filled with stress/anxiety until the point where I couldn't fight back anymore.

    After relapsing , I feel more motivated to quit , because I felt like a failure in life. It made me sick  that my hard-won  1 month "sobriety"  has veered into the ditch.

    To avoid relapsing  in the future , I've deleted Skype, installed an add-on to my browser wich can limit my time spent on various websites or even better , block them. 

     

     

     

  7. What do you guys do when you feel too distracted to make stuff? 

    Basically , I sit there untill my head starts working again , although most of the time it takes around 2 hours for it to start doing something , but out of those 2 hours I can get 10-20mins of being productive/creative , or even more (depends on my mood). It's really annoying that I cannot  be 100% focused on things that are important for me. I hope my brain gets back on track someday. 

    But, man, when you think about it, it's really a good motivation to stay away from games on the long-term, isn't it?

    Yes indeed. That's one of the main reasons why I quitted gaming , because  I couldn't think soberly. Throughout the whole day my thoughts would be only about gaming and almost nothing else, that really pissed me off. So yeah I've found gaming as an obstacle towards my future.

  8. Welcome to the forums buddy! I Congrats on finally joining  :)

    My creative sessions are limited to a few minutes at a time because my attention span for things other than games has greatly dwindled

    I suffer from the same problem as well , I can be creative/productive for 10mins-1hour ,but  then I get distracted by unrelated thoughts and it's very hard to regain  focus .

  9.  

    Day-14

    Two weeks have passed since the last time I've touched a video game!

    The second week has come to an end, and without a further ado let's get straight into the details.This week was a lot more  different than the previous one, and It just felt more closer to a normal week(A non-gamers week). Probably because  I don't need to blame myself for constantly  playing all the time instead of doing stuff wich is important for my life , and ending every single day with the same poisonous mindset. And of course this week was filled with cravings (although not that strong) , gaming nostalgia (I even got flashbacks of games that I've  played years ago) and my new nemesis-procrastination. Like seriously , I'm constantly delaying things for 5 minutes and those minutes turn into hours , maybe it's just a side effect of gaming or just my serious lack of willpower. I hope I'll overcome this problem with time.

     

  10. Welcome to the forums friend! Glad to hear that this forum boosted your confidence  by 20% , it really helps. About the Daily Journal , I would highly recommend for you to have one , because then you can measure your progress , learn from your mistakes , and it's just fun in generall to read your old posts.

  11.  

    Day-8

    On the 8th day of my Detox  my mood was a complete opposite than in Day7. I felt a lot more better, so I was more productive , but only for a few hours , then my energy and my motivation disappeared for the rest of the day, and I started to procrastinate again (That's why I'm writing this at Day9). I still find it hard to stop watching YouTube , although I decreased my time spent on YouTube , but I still see it as a obstacle.

     

  12. Day-7

    The first week without gaming has come to an end, and I need to say  it was probably the most stressful week I've ever experienced in my life. It was full of cravings, the whole time I was just procrastinating (that's why I didn't post something here on daily basis),and  I felt irritated by everything. Throughout the week my mind was full of crazy thoughts , hell at some point of time I thought that there is no reason for me to quit playing , and I should start again. So yeah , this week wasn't one of the easiest for me , but I hope with time it will get better. Yesterday  was  very emotional for me , because I think I've made the hardest  decision in my life, by saying goodbye to my gamer friends. They were the only thing that was holding me from quitting for a long time, untill yesterday I finally did it.To be honest , it took me like 30mins before I could hit Enter and send a goodbye message to our group chat. The only thing that was holding me back from doing that earlier were the memories of  entertaining , pleasant times   that we have experienced, and of course the fact that I would miss out something important. We were even planning to do a meet up  someday... And yes I know that I can still keep in touch with them via Skype, Facebook or something else , but it will never be the same as before when I played various games with them almost every single day.

    -For the next week  I'll try to significantly  reduce my time of using Youtube because it got out of hand.(I would spend like 3-4 hours a day  just by watching stupid videos.)

  13.  

    DAY-2

    Day 2 has  passed , to be  honest nothing special happened today. I didn't  experience any strong cravings , although  my brain attacked me again. And I need to say I almost fell for that one , because today my math teacher told me that I've passed my math exam , wich I thought I wouldn't , dunno with whose help I made it :D. So I thought  it should be a great day to celebrate my achievement by playing video games . After re-thinking this idea multiple times I realised that I might end up being stuck in the same mindset. For the rest of the day I've picked up books wich I'm going to read , created my daily  schedule. Although I still don't feel very productive  I feel a lot more better than yesterday, probably being lazy and procrastinating things is just in my nature. Also I'm not sure if I should write something here every time , since there are some days when just nothing interesting  happens or that is worth your attention.

  14. Hey once again , just  "survived" my first day without  gaming and I'm going to share my experience.

    DAY-1

    So the start  of  the new chapter in my life wasn't so easy as I expected. Because yesterday I was so motivated to quit  gaming , that I deleted all  of my games including steam, origin  etc. basically  there are no signs that represent gaming in my PC , I even changed my desktop background  with  something about game quitting. I should thank Cam for boosting my motivation , but today I woke up with very strong cravings to play... To be honest I nearly relapsed on my first day without gaming , the idea of " I'll quit playing tomorrow" attacked me again , because my brain is very smart  when it comes to  find reasons why should I start playing again. For example today is Sunday and as we all know Sunday is the last day of the week.. So I'm being attacked with thought's  like " This is the last day of the week , I'll quit the next week"  and the next day  my brain finds another way how to force me to play again , and it never stops. Back to my first day , after defeating  the urge to play games , I felt very sluggish for the rest of the day , literally I  couldn't do shit... The only thing I was capable of doing was just mindlessly browsing the internet and chatting with my gamer friends. Well, atleast that's a start :) 

     

     

  15. Hello , my name is Remigijus , I'm from Lithuania.Gaming took a serious role in my life , because most of my free time (I had a lot of it ) I would spend just mashing my keyboard.. So with time  at a slow pace I got addicted to video games without even noticing it. The idea of quitting video  popped in my head at the end of my last summer break . I had so many plans for that summer , but guess what I've spent the whole time   by playing those god damn video games  instead of trying  to improve my social skills. Every day I was stuck in the same mindset ''I'll quit tomorrow'' , but it never happened. After realising that video games are an obstacle in my life I took some action. Surprisingly I managed to reduce my gaming time significantly  although I couldn't get rid of them completely. After relapsing for the past 2 months I decided  to take the 90day detox and join this community.

     

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