Alejandro

Day 55: Uber Eats Set up a zoom meeting for tomorrow Home workout Uber Eats Netflix

Day 54: Uber Eats Podcast(s) Did my physio exercises Home workout Uber Eats Some Netflix

Day 53: Uber eats Stopped in at my dad's Uber eats Uber eats

Day 52: Went out for breakfast Did some Uber Eats Hung out with my dad More Uber Eats Home workout Watched UFC

Day 51: Went to the gym Did some Uber Eats Worked on an xmas gift Hung out with my dad Did some more Uber eats + some training Did my physio exercises More Uber Eats Some youtube

Day 50: Did some xmas shopping Uber Eats worked out at home More Uber Eats Watched some youtube

Day 49: Tidied Went to Starbucks Uber Eats Read my book Watched a few shows

Day 48: Slept in Ordered an xmas gift Watched a show Met my dad for lunch Uber Eats Watched a show More Uber Eats Watched some youtube

Day 47: Went to physio Did some journaling Did some Uber Eats Had a zoom call More Uber Eats Watched some youtube Thankful for: the sun

Day 46: A little different of a post. I wrote down my thoughts / what's been troubling me most over the past little while instead of my typical journal : I am unsatisfied with where I'm at in life. I am frustrated with decisions I've made, those decisions leading to where I'm at today. I have no clear direction in my life other than wanting to move out. I'm 27 years old still living at home. I am frustrated with the prolongment of my gaming habit. For so long, I KNEW deep down that I shouldn't be gaming, but I continued regardless. This is because it 'felt good' in the moment and it was an escape from responsibility and dealing with my emotions in a healthy way. It feels like I am just waking up now to life and observing things around me. In many ways, my head was buried in the sand all these years and I have expelled my time into the void. I am grateful that I've stopped gaming, and I know that I can't regain the lost time, but it frustrates me nonetheless. I have no education, career path or adequate financial stability. I am not 'getting ahead'. I have no one to blame but myself for this. For so long I have ducked responsibility and culpability for my actions. I have been an adult for 9 years and it feels like only recently I have been wanting a better future. Cutting out certain things in my life has been positive, but I am still left with some significant gaps. I prioritize fitness, my mental health, and sufficient sleep. I'm unsure how to make myself more financially stable, while keeping my mental health in check and not detesting every minute spent at work. I fear being miserable and destroying my body in a field of work I dislike (I've made this mistake before). My resume is heavily outdated and COVID has made job opportunities more scarce (not an excuse, just a fact). I also fear the continued damage, and mental turmoil I am inflicting upon myself by not living on my own and advancing in life. More importantly, the longer I am not on my purpose, the more painful it is. I've always been super self critical, and that part of me tends to berate me into submission a lot of the time. Yes I know I am only 46 days gaming-free, but is increasingly difficult to remain patient/hopeful for a better allotment in life. The work has to come from me, and I can be very disciplined, it is just a challenge for me to manifest that discipline into making the next big step in my life. I've only ever had my summer job that I've felt passionate about(A summer camp for kids/adults with special needs). That was robbed from me this past summer due to COVID, which has denied me feeling truly purposeful for over a year now. I continue practices such as working out, yoga, and breathwork, but they seem to only keep my internal panic at bay for so long. I lack meaningful relationships and role models. I push people away and am a recluse in a lot of ways. The toolset I have to navigate the world is limited and I am unsure how to carve my path/put my dent in the universe from here. Not the most uplifting entry but I needed to get my thoughts out yesterday. KEEP TRUCKIN' EVERYONE

Day 45: Went to the gym Caught up on some journaling Did some laundry Did my physio exercises Did some uber eats Had a short visit with my sister Did some more Uber Eats Watched some UFC Thankful for: the UFC

Day 44: Moved/tidied a few things Did a home workout Did some Uber Eats Caught up on some journaling Rearranged a few more things More Uber Eats Thankful for: my headphones

Good stuff. Some interesting and valuable thoughts. I can fall in the habit of all or nothing thinking, so seeing your journal was refreshing and a nice, gentle reminder of a few things. Thanks for that. Keep truckin'.

Day 43: Did a home workout Did a crossword Got my winter tires put on (I had to cancel a yoga class I signed up for because I forgot about my car appointment. I was bummed about this because it's hard to get into the yoga studio these days due to waitlists, but c'est la vie.) Did some Uber Eats Helped move/paint a few things Caught up on some journaling More Uber Eats Watched a few videos Thankful for: My physiotherapist

Day 42: Did a crossword Helped move some things to the curb Did some Uber Eats Sent an email/made a few forum posts Read my book Did some more Uber Eats Watched a show Thankful for: my clothes

That sounds historical ! I'm reading 'The Rational Male'

Sounds like you have a good game plan. It all sounds great. What city do you live in, by the way? Also, in regards to not quitting gaming forever, like mister @Cam Adair says, try the 90 days without it and go from there. Your outlook on wanting to game or not could be totally different than it is today. I wish you luck on your journey. You're in a good place with lots of resources !

Hi Jason! Welcome aboard. My story shares some similarities with yours (N64 was my first console as well but my first game was pokemon stadium ! I also struggled to balance schoolwork and sleep in highschool). I'm sorry for the loss of your friend. That's one of those things you can never be prepared for. It sounds like your therapist was a gem - that's good to hear. A good therapist can make all the difference (not sure how many you've had over the years, but I myself have cycled through a few and it was a trial and error process). I was in your shoes ~41 days ago. Making the big decision amidst a pandemic, with no clear direction other than knowing that the gaming had to stop. I didn't purchase Respawn either, but what I've found most helpful is keeping a daily journal. It's very simple and it doesn't need to contain much, but it is an excellent way to keep accountable and to process your whole day's activities and feelings. I still sometimes struggle with trying to fill gaps of time in my days, but it's good to have certain downtime activities to fall back to if you're left with nothing to do. I enjoy reading, doing word puzzles (I like crosswords), podcasts, listening to music, sometimes making a post on these forums, or watching a TV show. Hopefully that's helpful - feel free to message me if you have questions/concerns. I am in no way an expert and am only ~halfway through my 90 day detox but I was where you were not too long ago so the starting out part is still fresh in my mind! I'm excited for you.

Day 41: Not the most eventful day, due to quite the snowfall outside, but that's alright! Did a crossword Did a home workout Watched some shows Started my new book Thankful for: books

Nothing exciting I'm afraid ... I was just helping my parents paint a few railings since they're selling their house. HOWEVER I am curious about painting for recreation, I just wouldn't know where to get started. What do you paint @Pochatok?

Day 40: Did some painting Did some Uber Eats More painting Mini workout More Uber Eats Watched some Youtube and hit the sack Thankful for: Hockey

Day 39: Slept in Cleaned / brought a few things to the dump Did some painting Worked out + did my physio exercises Did some Uber Eats Watched a few shows Grateful for: my new pillows

Day 38: Slept in Did some laundry Saw my brother and his gf who came into town Watched a few shows Did some Uber Eats Watched some boxing (Mike Tyson vs Roy Jones Jr.)

Day 37: Met my dad for lunch. Did Uber Eats Did my physio exercises Hung out with my nephew for a bit Did more Uber Eats Ate a burrito Thankful for: burritos