PastTense

So I have been sleeping all day. Last night I fell asleep with headphones pn but with battery in. I woke up but slept. Slowly mastrubated for what felt like two hours and slept more. Got up with clothes on than back and slept more. Got ip folded clothes. Then slept more. I didn’t even study yet at its 6:13pm

yesterday I watched some streams of video games. and yet again out of habit entered chess.com, though I did not play. today I have been IT scrolling fro a good 1,5 hours. yesterday I also expanded Lines worksheet into an A2 sized monster. for gaming, IT, overeating, fitness. etc. NEWS: I got an email that my LOL account has been forgotten!

Today I managed to not catch a stream of someone video gaming. I am still "using" by watching YouTube, scrolling randomly on reddit, and taking a few too many naps. however I did manage to go for a run today. which is nice. Itaa zoom meetings has taken time. I got a 10 day reminder to finish all overdue assignments in social studies. I got some advice on simply chainingg screen time code often, type in notes app, and then disabling safari altogether, but still have it available. also consider buying a phone box. or lockbox. gov told me to get registered at shelter to get social welfare. I still live at the ranch where my father holds out. my sister pushes me to move out so he can buy a house for her. I am behind in pushing back on the already completed ill, inheritance gifts, and more.

Today I made 1 move in chess online. Then Quit. i had and continue to disable bottom lines due to gmail, looking stuff up, which meand I can’t didable safari easily. Am now lying in bed slowly beginning to masturbate. Shouldn’t I save it for tonight? Idk i just cut my hair, used antipimple stuff on facr, still need to shave though

Today I managed to stay away fromnplating videogames. I walked 10.000 steps, unpacked some cool bedlinene and pillows. however I am still using twotch to watch age of empires 2z no top players were on but saw bit of the (always interesting but after treaty, less so) Nomad style. I didnt watch a study stream properly and didnt do poloodoro. I do not speak spanish. Also, I think part of me fell in love with the opposita even though she is kot a sex worker (like just study, no obly fans) she looks like a filmstar. i do not need parasocial relationships in my life. also I did a bad thing. To an ASMR stream, I masturbated! I looked around for some and found one with eye contact. i gotta say, everything video is bad because it means porn access. Be it reddig gofs or twitch “earlicking” the latter of which resembles an irl intimacy session. I miss that greatly. and sure its nice to get dopamine. But its fake. it seemed I gave some advice in that even though you should reset your days since X use, you should also track “1 day out if the past 3 months. Which makes it a percentage comfort. You are still largely doing better than previous, even though you started from scratch. I really think the padt two days have formed some interesting talks. And I should restudy all of my notes at end of q1. . They are in aplles Notes under GAA ITAA. Different kotes have the names of the meeting types. i thinkk I want to make mens, and ACAA regular things. mentors ate also being considered.

Yesterday I urge surfed by imagining how it wiuld be to play temafight tactics and age of empires 2. I watched part of a stream of aoe on twitch. Then searched for study streams. They helped tremenduously, as there are boone studying on this countryside mudhole ranch

today relapsed playing online chess in bed. I watched a brief stream of spanish streamer doing age of empires 2. on the Mac I did not play. as for IT, have been wasting time on twitch, YouTube, and reddit.

I learned that I should block twitch and refrain from mentioning the platform to others.

okay so today I did not game, and it marks day 2 of not gaming not even chess.com or agar.io. however I did wake up and watch twitch streams of age of empires 2. this si due to being afairly alone on this ranch in depressingly cold weather. and not having a job or studying.

I gamed on pc, browser, for roughly 30 minutes. the game was agar.io nothing else, just the one. though I did open chess.com , but did not finish a 10 minutes game. I just moved one or two pieces. however I did rewatch tv shows and bought n audio book fro a jog. I never jog.amotivation as buying cake at a shop which was sadly closed. I arrived outside opening hours.

Hello I'm not sure how this works but this is intended as being the daily journal for my video gaming habits, and or other happenings in my life. this journal will go for 90 days on /off. did I game today? yes/no? pc? mobile? board game? estimated amount of time how many different games did I play?

wow the templates seem way too elaborate for me.. I just need to even open the journal or it'll fail hard. and where do you guys strore the journal? it sems my note app on the MacBook is filled to the brim with different topics and project uses. " Today I gamed at all? on pc? phone? did I install a game? did I uninstall? if yes o any of these, where was I physically? how did I feel mentally? wasI with someone or alone?

How on earth is this different than the subreddits for various topics? like reddit.com / r/keto, fitness, loseit, mealprepsunday, etc etc? initially this seems to be just another commercialized "forum" a business made to retain clients. by the way are there any virtual meetings?

👋 Hi everyone my name is PastTense and I’m a gaming addict. its not like I have three screens. I have a gaming chair I never use, and a macbook pro and a smartphone. for the past year I’v transitioned from uninstalling LOL from macbook, to installing wild rift, returning to PubgMobile an occassionally installing kingdom rush. All are somewhat decent games in that they keep you entertained. my issue is with installing then uninstalling the games. currently I have other problems to tackle. Landlord wanted me out sox months ago due to flatmates gossippy nature. One of them still does this and might hve taken legal action this time. I’ve been coasting om the fact that he didn’t resign my contract in a legally valid way. I handed over the communication to a lega practice which I then stopped paying. Ao they haven’t forwarded any mail I was supposed to have recieved. I might get kicked out 1st of March. Homeless. I could go back to my father. Only.. hes a nasty person. Tried to kill me three years ago. And have me comitted to a mental hospital because he didn’t want to support his “competition”/black sheep. At best he only cares to do the bare minimum to support me when others are looking. Meanwhile he hndsomely assists my older sister fonancially. And also gossipped and dabricated stories to my godparents. Eventually they believed every last bit of it. of and I got fired two weeks ago because a girl who hit on me, didn’t actually want me and then claimed harrassment. In my opinion its way way nastier than it should be. I never called her anything demeaning or touched her. I sent some mails to her friends but nothing I view as serious. This got into a police rapport and now I find myself having to sue dor Libel and defamation. They freaking called the police! When asked to provide proof, they couldn’t back up their lies. i live on 8sqm or equivalent of 2,5 one man beds. Woth common living areas. Only, due to the conflict with flatmates being smokers, is rendered useless. especially the past two weeks I have been lying in bed all day playing pubg mobile, crying. oI grew up isolated on a tiny ranch, left to my own devices woth gameboys. As such I am socially inept. I can buy contact lenses, comb my hair. I cannot control my dandruff of facial acne. and I haven’t been to the dentist for two years due to poor finances. Otherwise I am a tall handsome guy. Age 31. I have had four girlfriends for 0,5-1 years. It seems they all moslty used me either as bed and breakfast, genuine boyfriend for loneliness, sugardaddy, or similar. Except I dont have a lot of money anymore. About two years ago I bought a personal trainer program which gave em iniitiative to workout seriously. But due to paychological terror of moving back home to my dad, back then, The goals were not met. For Bodyfat percentage. at 6’3” weighing 223 lbs, I am a bit overweight with a beer belly. Bf%is 22-23, muscle mass is 45% according to electrostatic measuring.

In two months I have thrown aside half a year. lol made me not go to exams. just uninstalled today. I only knew it three months ago. before that, PUBGmobile, before that, AOE2 let's see how this one goes...