[Medical Student trying his best]

Plan: learning now 1-2 Hours, maybe after that going buy some food for later and then I would like to learn till 7-8oclock 

[Medical Student trying his best]

Short but good learning session

I want to start early tomorrow so I dont have to learn into the night. Learning early is way better

[Medical Student trying his best]

Hello,

I decided to open this journal, so I can log my daily work routine. I hope it somehow gives me more ‚pressure‘ to do my work. Right now I feel a bit bad in opening this journal although I should learn. But tbh I would just watch youtube, so there is no reason not to try this journal thing out!

Little introduction:

My gaming history goes pretty way back. World of Warcraft at young age, some Age of Empire too. Later I started with Runescape. Most addictive game was basically League of Legends. The time I started with League was in very intense time at school. Worked hard to get into medical school. Although I played much I got into it. Absolutely great feeling. I quitted LoL already for a long time now. I dont miss it, its a very good feeling to have quit it.

 

Whats the deal now? Well, I cant really work with internet on a ‚healthy‘ base. I can still just grind the whole day in front of it. I still watch very much on youtube etc. instead of doing what I am supposed to do -> feeling bad. I want to do the things I really want to do. My medical school. I want to do my learning. And after that I want to do several other things which are making me waaay more fun than watching youtube. But you all know... internet gives fast and easy dopamin. Other things more on a long time base.

 

However I am sure about what I really want to do with my life. Isnt that already something? I think yes and thats why I should be happy at least for that.(I need to be happy about more things in my life, which I always tend to say about ‚ah thats no achievement thats nothing special‘ I speak about simple thing like having a house, having food etc. but also huge goals which I fulfilled like getting into medical school.)

I know what I want to do. But next question: Can I do that? We all have goals, but not everyone can make it. Thats normal. So can I make medical school? I think yes. But I have to take myself as I am. Maybe I am not a work machine, but I can settle things so Its working anyway. I can study 1-2 years longer till I get my degree, which is fine for me. My huge goal is not to be extrem successful(like getting best grades), my goal is to do my working routine(= reduce meaningless things) Everything else is not in my hand. 

So I want to work now concentrated 2 hours. Ill write after it whether It worked out good.