Julon

Day 7/8/9 Just a quick update. I don‘t really have that much time to post because I have to do a lot for school. Good thing is, that I have some motivation again and didn‘t game or watch youtube for the last days. My workouts in the gym have also improved since I really have time now and it‘s actually a lot of fun. Next week on thursday, I have an exam so I don‘t know how much I‘m going to journal. Current Streaks No gaming: 9 Days No(useless) browsing: 1 Day Nofap: 19 Days

The problem is, that this boredom usually leads to gaming related thoughts. And when I have thoughts about gaming once it is hard to think of anything else.

Day 5/6 well the last 2 days I had very much to do for school and didn‘t have that much time do productive stuff... even when i tried to, I was to tired. And the only thing i did was watching youtube then. I don‘t really have something relaxing other than gaming or watching youtube. I tried reading... but It‘s not relaxing at all. I‘m confident that I will quit gaming for 90 days... but quitting useless browsing is hard. Especially because I don‘t really fulfill my social aspect yet. I have high hopes for next week, because a friend invited me to celebrate carnival (which is quite a big deal im my city) with him and his friends. So will do my best to not miss any opportunities on these days. Current Streaks No gaming: 6 Days No(useless) browsing: 0 Days Nofap: 16 Days

Day 4 Well yesterday I watched about 3 hours of useless stuff - weekends are the hardest! But gladly i still went to the gym and learned for a bit. One amazing thing that happened/I did today Nothing reallY Workout/run 2h at the gym My wake up time 9am What went well today Didn‘t play games What I could have done to make my day better Put that f*cking mobilephone away. What I will do differently tomorrow start reading Current streaks No gaming: 4 Days No (useless) browsing: 0 Days Nofap: 14 Days

Day 3 Well pretty much the only positive thing today was that i didn‘t play video games or watch videos. Was very tired and not really motivated to do anything. One amazing thing that happened/I did today Nothing really Workout/run Not today My wake up time 8:30 am What went well today Didn‘t play games What I could have done to make my day better Do some exercise in the morning to get startet / don‘t hang out in bed so long. What I will do differently tomorrow start reading Current streaks No gaming: 3 Days No (useless) browsing: 3 Days Nofap: 13 Days

I love your journaling style - Simple but effective. The task list for each day is definitely a good Idea. I usually forget what i wanted to do and then instead lay in my bed or look at my smartphone. And seeing how many tasks you completed is definitely a good motivation booster.

Day 2 Didn‘t have that much time to do that much today because we had guests but still did my best. One amazing thing that happened/I did today I startet running again after 6 months of being too lazy for it. Workout/run Running 1h My wake up time 7:10am Weekly goals Less procrastinating Workout/run Monthly Goal Read at least 2 books Socialise Study more Exercise more What went well today Did not think about gaming. What I could have done to make my day better Less lying around in my bed to kill time What I will do differently tomorrow start reading Current streaks No gaming: 2 Days No (useless) browsing: 2 Days Nofap: 11 Days

Day 1 ( Here we go again) Had a very successful day, but I know that the first days are the easiest and the weekend is going to be hard One amazing thing that happened/I did today: got my first testimony that contributes to my graduation and the grades were good. Workout/run 1 1/2h at the gym My wake up time 7:10am Weekly goals Less procrastinating Workout/run 1 1/2h at the gym My wakeup time 7:10am Monthly Goal Read at least 2 books Socialise Study more Exercise more What went well today studied for 2h went to the gym, even though i found many excuses What I could have done to make my day better Less overdramatizing little mistake I make, because this is one of the main reasons why I have bad moods and start to feel depressed. What I will do differently tomorrow Instead of overthinking every process, I will try to meditate or go outside to free my head. Current streaks No gaming: 1 Day No (useless) browsing: 1 Day Nofap: 10 Days

Well I even went a step further and completely deleted all my gaming related accounts...I wouldn‘t have gamed if I didn‘t find my ps4 that I haven‘t used for 1 year. I‘m gonna delete those games too. And probably sell it. I think I need better daily routines so I don‘t even get to the point where I can even think about gaming. Therefore i will start with a new journaling style today, in which I write down my routines but also goals and streaks.

Thanks for checking up on me @XgamerYeah I didn‘t write because I relapsed. I was pretty much ashamed of my self, that I‘m making all these promises but still could not last for 3 days. In my head everything seems so easy, but if I think/ or see something gaming related I instantly get realy bad cravings for games. And if I don‘t play then, I become extremly unsatisfied or depressed and start to argue with myself wether I should or should not play games now. Tomorrow I will start to think of a new way i can maybe get out of this loop of relapsing every three days.

Day 4 Another day without gaming. Today I finally motivated myself to learn some stuff for school. Was quite boring but it was a good distraction. In the evening i went to the gym once again, sports really motivate me and I don‘t have to think about gaming for a second. Therefore I will try to do some kind of sport every day from now on.

Day 2/3 well... yesterday I sort of relapsed... Even though I didn‘t play any games, I watched a good amount of youtube videos. I just wanted to search for a song and then I saw some interesting thumbnails which led me into a long youtube session. But today was better, I had a very long school day and was exhausted, but i still managed to motivate me to go to the gym. I guess i will have to avoid youtube at all cost.

So now it‘s time to really commit to quitting gaming. I hope this journal will help me find more motivation by keeping track of my progress. I will try to keep the daily summaries quite short because I can really waste a lot of time when I‘m writing. Day 1 Today was pretty good. I woke up late at 10 am but still had a great day. I started off by finally Deleting all my gaming accounts, (Steam, Uplay Origin....) it was tuff because it was almost like deleting a chapter of my life, but also necessary and I‘m confident that this will help alot. I also did a bit of cooking today, what I never did when I was gaming. It‘s a pretty good time killer and the food you make yourself is much healthier mostly. In the evening I had a good 2 1/2h session at the gym and now I‘m trying to go to bed before 11pm (would go to bed at 1am normally).

Thanks for the replies. yeahhh... @Netzwerker I have tried this one video thing multiple times, never realy worked though. Yesterday i was working on a presentation and I had to use my pc ( normaly I avoid using it) I managed to work for 4h and thought one single video couldn‘t hurt... well the next 2 1/3 hours i spent consuming completely useless content because I looked at the sidebar which had some realy tempting recommendations. I now downloaded Destraction free youtube for my browser, which removes all recommendations and I have to search for specific videos. I think it‘s going to be better now.

Thanks for the Kind words! It‘s realy nice to have a community of people that support each other! I‘m Definitely going to check out the website and the list of activities.

Yes I have had this problem too! I was super skinny because I was afraid to loose a second in online games. I have gained 45 punds over the past 1 1/2 years . A tipp from me is to have many small meals a day, like 5 or 6.( at the start I had a very tiny stomach so I could not eat very much). Exercising also helps you when you can‘t eat, my consumption of food went up rapidly after i startet exercising.

Hello, my name is Jonas, I‘m 18 years old and I live in Germany. I startet playing video games at the age of 7 when I got a Nintendo DS. At this age I still had many friends and i was outside for almost the whole day, playing soccer or Badminton. So there was not much time to play games. But it all changed when I decided to go on a Secondary school where I did not have to learn latin, without my friends. I thought this wouldn‘t be a problem, because I was very good at making new friends. But the new classmates were completly different from me. They all were friends already and excluded me. Soon I became very lonely and at this time I discovered Minecraft. I quickly found many new friends online through the game and I startet playing more and more to replace the friends I didn’t have. My parents then limited the time on my PC to 1 1/2 hours a day. But I was able to find out the password of the programm that limited my playtime and was now using every minute my parents didn‘t look for me to play games ( Both of my parents worked very much). In sixth grade I already played about 7 hours a day. Because I often did not eat during this time I got very skinny and my classmates sort of bullied me because of my low weight . The lack of social interactions caused that I got a social anxiety and very low selfesteem which then led me into a depression.To free myself from all of this I startet playing even more and soon discovered shooters like CS:GO. I was addicted directly and got very good very fast. My grades went down even more but I still managed to reach 9th grade. At this point I haven‘t met anyone in real life for one or two years. My depression got worse and something inside of me said that I finally need to turn my life around. I decided to switch my school and I got a gym membership to finally achieve a body not everybody is laughing at. The new school was/is much better and I found two friends. But I‘am still stuck on my addiction. The last two years were full of quitting video games, then relapsing and watching youtube to replace all the free time when I’am not playing games ( I find watching youtube even more useless ). One of the positive things is, that I was able to put on 45 pounds of weight because of the gym, so no one talks about my weight anymore. But my problem is that I still stay at home and rarely meet anyone and I almost have no skills besides playing video games. In about one year I will have my finals and after that I will have no structured day and I will have to stand on my own two feet. In my current situation I wouldn‘t be able to do that, so I decided to finally really commit fighting my addiction by joining this community. I already startet with deleting all games, the bigger problem is youtube for me right now. I know that playing games or watching youtube as a reward doesn‘t work for me, because I will get stuck on it. So I will have to do it cold Turkey. Replacing all this free time with pleasurable things will be very hard and I would be very thankful if someone could suggest some activities. I will also be starting a daily or weekly journal when the stressful phase in school is over. I hope this time it really works. Wish me luck!