dirac

Ok first day passed. I kind of enjoyed that day to be honest. I didnt have anything to do as I still have holidays and I am still sick so I really just gamed all day - about 10 hours. I didnt really do anything else. I didnt even cook I just ate leftovers from yesterday. I had quite some moments where I got really mad while playing dota where I was thinking about quitting again. But I am not that sick anymore and on monday I am starting a new workout routine. Im kind of torn apart at the moment to be honest. Somewhere between wanting to stop gaming and not being sure if I really want to quit because I just dont know if I can actually fill this gap in my life. But tomorrow I am buying some furniture for my room and I am gonna redesign it. Im planning to make a real comfortable reading corner, maybe this will get me to read more. I am also putting it where my computer is right now, kind of hoping that due to some psychological effect it will still draw me into that corner of the room even when the computer is somewhere else. To be honest I am not even sure how I feel at the moment. I am not feeling bad but I am also not feeling great. I think quitting is always easier when you kind of hit a rock bottom because it gives you a lot of momentum in a way. Its really hard to quit when you are at a place that you can tolerate. In the end what do I want for myself? Do I want to have an amazing live, successful happy, being a strong smart man or do I want a chill live, kind of mediocre but in a way happy ? Lots of thougts in my mind right now but I am still planning to stop gaming.

I am quite embarassed to be honest. I started this journal entry thing, completely determined to stop gaming and then because I got sick I fell into a hole of gaming again and didnt even post once in this journal. I decided that from now on I will post everyday even if I am gaming and I will try to include the hours I gamed (if I did) just to keep tabs on my gaming problem. It really fascinates me in some way that I have so much trouble with it.

Thanks for the reply James! I will look more into how and when I can train when I am sick, I always kind of had this idea in my mind that my cold will get worse but maybe this is not the case! Coding is actually also a nice idea I mean I can do it while laying in bed so I dont have to be super healthy for it.

So the worst day went horrible because I can start straight from day 0 again as I woke up with a cold and all my initial motivation went out the window. I still struggle quite a bit with replacing game time with meaningful other stuff, especially now during my holidays. My plan was to work out alot and hard but now I have to wait till I recovered from my cold. I am actually thinking about starting to workout anyways and just go a little light and see how it goes. I am always scared its gonna make my cold worse somehow but I never really tried so far. Hey Adminiculum, thanks for the wishes. I am an udergrad physics student, sadly I dont have any advice on hardmode nofa, because during the whole time I was in a relationship and went easy mode so to speak. But so far I think nofap and no game go very well together partly because for me having bad games in league always drove me to porn to feel better somehow. For hardmode nofap it would probably make sense to quit gaming aswell or whatever drives you to fap in the first place.

Hey guys, I finally decided to write a journal here. I used to do it on a nofap forum. There I did it for like 70 days and then stopped because I felt like I dont need it anymore and I am proud to say I am at day 163 and its going great! So I thougt if it helped me this much on nofap, maybe it will help me with nogame aswell. I actually had been "clean" for about 2 weeks before I started to game again on monday. The week prior to that I was on vacation with my girlfriend and I felt so amazing on that vacation. I felt like I am actually alive again. I was interested in the world, in history, science and philosophy again. I just felt so good and read every evening. I didnt even watch netflix or youtube or anything. I felt calm, at peace, in love with the human existence. But when I came home on monday after about 10 hours of traveling I thougt it would be justified to game because I was really tired and exhausted. Big mistake! I gamed for like 8 hours on monday then I gamed for another 10 hours on tuesday and already felt really bad and depressed again. Today it only got worse when I started the day with 3 hours of gaming. It only got worse when I stepped on a scale before my shower and I realised that I lost 4kg of muscle. This hit me really hard. I stopped working out regurlarly about 2 months ago and while gaming this much I also forgot to eat sometimes or just ate tiny snacks so I didnt meet my calorie requirements. Gaming just keeps on destroying parts of my life that I thougt I had under control. So welcome to my daily journal. I will try to post every day, more for myself but I would love it if I could inspire others a little. I will talk mostly about how I felt everyday and what I did. Wether I was getting closer to my goals or just general stuff. My goals right now are: Train hard ! I will do the wolverine workout plan for the next 10 weaks and see where it gets me. I also want to start reading again, and read for atleast 1 hour a day. And I want to learn chinese for 20 minutes a day. And I am sure there will be more that I will figure out on my way. Kind regards Dirac

Hey guys! My biggest problem is that when I am sick I always fall back to gaming, even after a long streak of not gaming I still fall back to gaming . Because when im sick I get really depressed and lose all motivation to do anything and it usually stays like this until i am healthy again. I am not talking about severe illnesses just like normal colds but they prevent me from working out and for some reason make me feel horrible emotionally. So what do you guys do when you are sick ? Or when depressed and not feeling like doing anything? Cheers guys

Hey guys! This is my introduction post. I am a 25 years old physics student and I struggled with gaming since I was 12. Ive had times where I hardly played at all and times where I played a solid 12+ hours per day for several weeks. I dont want to dig in too deep into my past as I think its not that relevant. But over the last years I actually didnt game as much as I used to , I think its because studying physics actually replaces many of the reasons for why I game already, as it supplies you with challenges, constant measurable growth and many likeminded friends. My problems are the holidays. After every exam period I usually have like 2-3 months of holidays where I almost everytime fall into a gaming hole where I do hardly anything else and let all my good habits like working out and eating healthy drop. I become miserable and depressed after like 2 weeks. Then I uninstall all my games just to install them again after a couple of days (sometimes even on the very same day) and game for hours and hours again. This usually goes on like this for the entire 2 months with 2 weeks where I travel and cant game and actually feel good. And in the beginning of the semester I struggle really hard for about 2 weeks to get back into a "normal" life. This time it got so bad that I felt so miserable that I purchased the respawn guide and I am more determined than ever to go through with it. I wasted enough time of my life with gaming. I felt depressed and hopeless often enough and I am sick of it. Some people have achieved a shitload of stuff by the time they are 25 and I feel like a man-child who sits infront his screen and eats pizza all day. I want more out of life. I want more for myself and this time I am gonna get it!