Hey, I can relate to what you're talking about a lot! If you want to give up porn, you should be aware of the reality of this movies. AND I don't recommend watching documentary movies, because they also have some scenes from porn which can trigger you. I know an awesome blog about porn&masturbation, however it's written in Polish. Anyways, here are the great TEDx talks about porn movies: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gRJ_QfP2mhUhttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gRJ_QfP2mhU https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wSF82AwSDiU I subconsciously realised that these movies are completely fake after watching one of them, and I decided to not get into it. I also know how our gaming status (character's level, skills we have etc.) can affect our self-esteem. I've been affected by that even when I was in primary school and playing Tibia. The character's level was displaying to other players and if you didn't have high enough level, they didn't want to even talk to you. Also, you was easy target for others, if you were low level character, just like me most times. I can recommend this documentary about status anxiety: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t1MqJPHxy6g Hope it helps and you'll give a new post soon!