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Day 34: "Just a bit longer."
It's days like today when I'm physically not feeling too well, just overall a bit lethargic, when I get cravings. And I really seriously started considered gaming again, but the thought of "let's just wait till 60 days" made me stop. That badge on r/StopGaming really is just a number on an online forum, but the eagerness to reach 60 really is enough. Whenever I try to decide grand things like what to do after 90 days, my thoughts lean towards gaming. That's why I decided not to worry about that for now. I'll first reach 60 days, then think about it again. But on day 60, I'll delegate the decision of whether I should game in moderation or not to myself 30 days in the future. Then, at 90 days, delay the hard thinking again. And again. And again. In an infinite loop and eventually, I'll have quit for so long. At least, that's what I think I'll do.
Yeah it's best not to decide until the detox is completed. When you get there, think about any positive changes you've experienced in your life and whether these would vanish if you went back to gaming.
*sigh* I guess i was a little too harsh on myself when i meant what i said about quitting gaming, you guys are right, it really depends on how far your life has progressed during the 90 days vs. just beating the calendar, think it might be better if we actually sit down and really think about this after the detox rather than going on a whim.
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Good luck and just be yourself for your first day in school, people are there for attention anyway, remember that.
I'm not sure I get that Pete. Can you explain the "attention" part a bit?
Just don't let anybody get under your skin, sometimes undergrads are out of control and seek attention. Also, nice pictures.
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Day #13
Thought I would wait in the morning for this post because doing this while tired was getting difficult consistently
I had a good day, was my second final day of work. I do really see now that boredom or lack of things to do is the killer. Its imperative to fill your day up with things to do otherwise you will be very likely to relapse. And, you just put up as many barriers as you can in to help you overcome the urge to go back.
My urge to play world of warcraft creeped back on me, you see that whole other virtual world where you can easily it with real life and plead yourself to go back.
But it always ends the same.
Few weeks playing I then go "what the fuck did I just do?" You have nothing to show for it. Zilch. And the opportunity cost continuously builds. I can lose anymore precious time and thats why this journal is so important.
Thanks guys
Glad you resisted Zeeko, just focus on your hobbies it'll help in the long run.
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Day 77, glad you got your dog taken care of, remember just focus on reps, you got this.
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Day 12:
Felt good in my abnormal psychology class today as i gave an example on the question of how do people with misinterpreted and misperceived behaviors react in reality. I responded with "gaming, as it causes brain-rot", got those nonchalant looks by a few, heh. I forgot to do one of my assignments in another class but luckily my professor extended the due date and allowed us to finish the essay paper by Thursday. Didn't waste no time so I went and knocked it out at home, took me a few hours but i feel accomplished.
Earlier, as i was heading to my car, i noticed that a girl i introduced in class last week kept taking quick glances at me, so i waved at her and smiled and she smiled back and laughed. Could i have finally pulled of that potential date? idk.
It's just interesting how so many people in college can think critically but are really opinionated. I recently started drawing again on a makeshift notebook and posted what i drew on DeviantArt, an online art page dedicated to artists, for the first time. I wanted to break my comfort zone and chat with other artists to share art related opinions with, so that's what i did. Got no views yet, i just need to keep drawing, they'll come. Might also read a few more Tom Clancy chapters before tonight.
As i started thinking about my gaming past, i realized that i really lost interest in playing. The group i was gaming with noticed that and actually wondered why i was playing with people younger than me if i had real life responsibilities. Had no real answer.
Anyways, my cold's getting better as i wasn't dying in my bed this morning, come to find out that the AC was clogged with dust. Not fun. Below is my goals i put up from before, since @Hitaru pointed out my mistake on the Forums. ; )
My Goals:
-Maintain a 4.0 GPA
-Get my car fixed
-Manage finances better
I'm Grateful for not procrastinating and meeting people.
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8/21/2017
Day's without gaming: 13
Thanks for the kind words everyone. Today was a lot easier as I was traveling. About to go spend time with a friend who is a big gamer so hopefully I can avoid the temptation while i'm over there.
Np simmsjt, hope you do the right thing
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Yes I remember those...and Net Force...
I read a ton of Tom Clancy back in the day. Most of what I know about modern tanks, ships, and aircraft come from his books. ?
Nice, do you remember the Ops Center series, Mettermrck?
Cool, you know that's honestly how it all started with the main protagonist being recruited to do espionage work, Jack Ryan, in the Net Force and Ops Center series, i didn't get a chance to see the movie in 2016 though. Since Clancy died, the books didn't have any good authors except Greaney.
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Good luck on your assignments, giblets, just keep studying.
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Welcome!
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Day 76, nearly there....
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It took me many tries to really see the process through. You're right though, you do learn a lot from each attempt. You can do it! ?
Same here, before i even saw this forum, i had a really tough time trying to quit, i just decided that enough was enough and i started browsing youtube for help on quitting games, saw this video and it lead me here.
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I read a ton of Tom Clancy back in the day. Most of what I know about modern tanks, ships, and aircraft come from his books. ?
Nice, do you remember the Ops Center series, Mettermrck?
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@Hitaru What do you think of the 3 videos I've sent you links to?
Didn't watch them yet!
(but I will, I promise)Today I was conned 166 euro in probably fake concert tickets and there was a short but strong fight at home. My mother showed me the website, I did the transaction without double-checking her online stupidity and apparently it's my fault, won't give me money ever again, etc. I completely lost it and started screaming at her while she taunted me. It's not me who paid thousands of euros in fucking garbage, ugly as fuck furniture that can't be touched or used in any way, because my life is empty of purpose. It's not me who plays offended when I ask for money to invest in myself but would instead give me 50 euros to party in a heartbeat. It's not me who doesn't have real friends and it's going to die alone and regretful.
Way to go Hitaru, again bitching about your mother, isn't that like so fucking old or something? No, please, I need to know. Why, why do I keep this toxic relationship going on? Why do I keep having this big ass stealth contract of expecting her to actually not being a victimist, hypocrite, self-centered bitch? Why do I keep thinking that parents must be loved because they are parents even when they are not good for you? But who taught me that? Them! It's a self-preservation tactic. It's a fucking self-preservation tactic based on guilt, and I bought all the fucking scheme. I'm only here because I don't have anyone else to latch onto, but she, she perpetuates that. She made me like this, and now I have to fix it.
So no José, start accepting already. You are going to die and you are alone. And you are going to fight for yourself because in the end, all that your mother cares about is her ego, in its many forms: job, money, furniture, a sparkling clean house and all the stereotypical things that make a worthless life. There's the habit. I know it. It's just a habit. Not finding a job? Habit. Giving up? Habit. Pretending to have a normal relationship with your mother? Habit. It's my mother or my life. When my mother dies, I will regret every single second I invested in her and not in my life. She wouldn't do the same thing for me. Not a single second more. Starting from now, silence treatment. No more asking for money. No more expecting to be fed and taken care of.
I'm destitute. That should give me the proper motivation once and for all.
Srry to hear that, Hitaru, it was a bad experience and now that you know how to approach it you can react more consciously the next time it happens. Just don't do it.
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Welcome man, good luck on your journey!
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Cool. I visited some sort of not-so-standart trainig group where the main point of every exercise was to give one's brain unusual work. One of these was drawing out your condition at the moment. It was not quite artistic drawing, always ended up as pretty abstract art) Color choice was good indicator of whether one was going towards overly passive or overly active state.
Heh, never thought color in certain drawings was a determinant for mental stability, i usually would draw my pictures with a blue or red hue. Cool,
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Good to have hobbies to keep your mind preoccupied, qwethm987, I haven't played in years since my first recital at an elderly retirement home.
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Day 16
Sleepy again. These monday train trips somewhat wears me out. Luckily I arrive early and have some time to wake up properly and a "second breakfast". Day at the office was uneventful. There are some strange frictions on the project as it nears it's completion, but I think we'll sort it out this week.
Catching up on some home chores. Hope I'd be able to finally fix my pad this week. Sorry, not many events or interesting/inspiring thoughs today, just writing this since it's a daily log.
I periodically think of "some specific platformer" last days but prefer to avoid it since I don't want to lauch another search cycle. I wonder if 20 minutes of doing nothing at evening are better than 20 minutes of playing. Perhaps it reboots one better especially when tired.
Hey you deserve it @HappyCat, better to spend time relaxing the only way you know how.
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yo thanks dude. how long have you been sober?
11 days right now, learned a lot about myself in the past week than most other people did, tbh, i felt like a butt when i was gaming.
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Nice, -n.g-, do you draw online as well, seems like you would make a good artist?
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I oddly started to have relaxed feelings of gaming, even when i sold everything, like i had a mental trigger to play my system now. Instead, i drew it out, literally drawing how i felt at that time. So, all in all i'm having a good day so far.
Is this some kind of art therapy? If it's not I might be not getting the sentence. ^^'
Yeah, you can call it that HappyCat, it helps to draw what's on my mind and to show my creativity, so to not lose my mind in solitude. It's like meditating, but more low brow.
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Great, Zeeko, just keep at it!
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There's nothing wrong with sharing your personal details as long as you're not worried about privacy. They may seem irrelevant to you but they are aspects of your life and it enables us to see a clearer picture on how you're doing and get to know you better. ?
First let me say, good resisting those urges, mithras!
Second, no matter how long or short your posts are on here, as long as you express yourself and prove to mithras that you are constantly not gaming and focused more on improving mithras, it shouldn't matter if you can logic on the forums or not, it's about the integrity of what you say. Just look at other people's journals.
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Day #17
I know this feeling. It always comes in retrospective. I had to quit musical college because I didn't have time for it. I could have made an opportunity for myself before I graduated the universiry, but I was scared of trying and mostly spent my time at home.
This is something I want to get rid of. The fear of trying something new or risky. Life is too short to not do what we really want, or the best we can be, or worst to live looking back in regret.
I really need to sleep so I will keep this short. The more I stay away from videogames the more I want to improve my life. I feel like a fog of my mind is vanishing.
Yep, it'll be all over soon, just keep on improving, Daniel, your mind just simply needs to remove the space occupied by gaming.
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I learned a litte Hangul from being deployed in South Korea but i'm not fluent at it, seems like you spent more time working and slightly more on you-tubing, good work Tom2!
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