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Day 56 K thanks I have another question though it something I have been wanting do for awhile but what are your thoughts on role playing (not games) more like a chat-room and person acted as character of your favorite tv show and are playing that role in the chat-room example 1,I play sponebob so anything I say has to have sponebob feel to when I m talking 2.Some can play another character and interactive with me This could lead to some interesting stories but would be okay to do this in this app or is best to leave that alone unitil I done with my deteox? Garteful: 1.Everything that I have 2.My Car 3.Shelater 4.Church 5.Bible study

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Day 55 I would like to discuss something that I call reflection time, this means it a reflection on where I m at, what I have been thinking of, what I might do. It not desgined to be obession of gaming just a reflection of it. Reflection time: For the last few days I have been thinking of upgrading my TV. PC, because I came to realization that time for myself never upgraded within the world of gaming and stuck me to 2005/2006 era of HD while everyone moved forward. This something I have noticed for over the last few days and thinking of upgrading but I m trying to decide whether any of it is worth it or not. Option 1: Is to build complete new PC originally for gaming and vr but more so for video editing and doing YouTube soon enough, with VR to do movies, issue is I just upgraded the hardware in this pc, and this pc will only last 2 more years before this windows 7 Ultimate goes obsolete but I kind of wondering if it worth building full feldge PC with the smartphone and tablet take over. (the person who helped me build it said it not recommended to upgrade to windows 10) Second I plan to turn this into more of home theater system PC anyway even if it HD only after it goes obsolete. Option 2: Buy a laptop that has everything I need with good battery life and start taking with me to coffee shops/library/ ect. without being at home, which would be nice but security could be an issue with that and weather be bulky or not. Another reason is because home is to tempting for other things that why this would be better option, plus I work better not at home than I do at home. Option 3: Buy Imac pc for everything but I m not to fimaualr with that operaton system option 4: Build a mini PC that way I can take it on the go and still have screen for me to work with with good battery life Option 5:Buy new tV much need since my tv is an old HD Ready tv 720p apex 32in before LED TVs, problem with this is I watch more on my pc than I do my TV, but have thought about doing smart TV that way I can stream pc to my big screen since I have bunch of DVDs and few blu rays and kind miss watching them. TV would be 4k to. So what would be your suggestion, I'm mostly doing this to get into modern times without being left behind. As for other things they are going pretty well and in NOvemeber I will start my new routine which allow a me to learn a couple of things to. This to put me back in the right time with socitey and gain the loss from gaming which keep time stagnet for a very long time, Grateful for: 1.My current PC 2.My friend for building the pc 3.family 4.Soical events groups 5.God

Days 52-54 I have been busy of late that why I have not wrote as much here as I could. I have completed the intro which is about 10scenes of my movie project which I m proud of, and m8ight get a job soon, don't know yet, Plus in November I gonna release a new schedule. The current one I m on is not working and noticed a few changes I could make to make things easier on me. So look forward to that. Oh by the way I m apart of the come write us nation writers month where I have to write novel of 50,000 words in 30 days unfourntly I wont make the closing ceremony but I m going to potluck dinner tonight for singles, so I m excited about that. Things are slowly turning around and I m excited about the new adventure. Grateful 1.Job training program 2.My other dad and (biologic dad lives in AZ which I m going visit him with my sister.) 3.My dog 4.For completing something today That it for today

Day 50-51 each of of our journeys is different, I'm just letting you know where I'm at mentally and what I might be planning soon. It just took longer for me to realize these things and I may need more than the 90 day detox For today I have completed a scene in my movie I don't show anything unless ready to reveal it, second thing I have completed a new agenda for the month of Novemeber that help a lot better than I was doing, depending on how well I like it and if I continue with it, Thirdly I got email from the church about being involved in internship there, Fourthly I have social group called Write with us that I will be going to tomorrow at 5:00pm which I m excited about where writers bounce ideas off one another and close to where I live, I have question and noticed this over the last few days. Did you find yourself doing things that you had been taught normal now but when you were gaming you were more aggressive in driving, eating, ect? I have noticed that I have become a lot calmer now. Grateful for 1.Job training Program 2.Salt Lamp 3.Being calm 4.eventbright app 5.Family That it for today

Day 48-50 Sorry I have been writing in as much, it because I was busy with other things. Now I have been doing some reflection on myself, and the games I use to play, not to the play them but what did I enjoy doing, what was about persona all about and how I apply the say to real life. One thing is turns out I wanted to be out going person, always traveling to new places discovering new things, plus strategy on how to get there, and how to go about it. Turns out I actually might want to travel since it reflects what I wanted to do in games and visual novels(stay away from). Due to being on autopilot so long I did not believe in myself to do these things but it becoming clear that I have desire to explore go to different locations and spread the message that I write about to different church, I even had inventions or dreams I would have loved to create. For now I m just laying out a foundation for YouTube channel and ideas on how to market and get it noticed for it, plus I m still working on movie projects as well, grateful for: 1.Seeing myself in a new light 2.Having my true personality back 3.Who am and who I m going to be 4.Dreams I long to do 5.The Church 6.Family 7. Freash air 8.animals 9.everything I have

hello there welcome to the forums, one thing I did when I did my detox I went full cold turkey and you probably should to this means no gaming video, streams, info, console games, pc games or even anything tech related must be eliminated during this detox (this what I did). If your gonna watch them then you will be tempted, this why in my own detox which I m still going through I went cold turkey, hide your game consoles away if you not interested or sell if you want to but it up to you to decide what you want to to do with them and no one can tell you one way or the other other than yourself. I hope this helps you.

Day 47 I had to do some more edits in my project, but hopefully by the end of the day I will have the intro done. Second I have decided to change my routine once again so I can adjust to it better so each month I will add a new activity that will not conflict the other activity. So basically in addition to the movie project next month, I will add learn Japanese and that will be the goal for the month is to be able to learn that language then in December I will add something else. So to give recap 1. October complete a movie project (script & animation complete) 2.November: Learn Japanese, plus complete new movie project (for the month of November), plus get voice actors/actress during the month of November & December by auditions (with October movie project complete). 3.December (not sure what but be something else) This is the goal for each month because I have been listening to the podcast and thought of what are some achievements I could do and since it takes awhile for me to get use to to things, this seemed the best way by choosing goal for each one month. Also I don't when I will do it probably next month but I'm gonna move internet from 3:00pm to 5:00pm to hopefully get more goals done during the day. At least this what I m gonna try to do each month, we will see how well this works out. Grateful for: 1.Everything 2.Life itsefl 3.Having goals 4.Working towards a dream 5.Just who I am as a person.

Day 46 Today I worked on more of my movie project yes I know you get trying of hearing that but it takes a really long time to do these and do them right, plus my consistent editing. I thought I share with you all on that Sunday I got answer what I m suppose to do, and apparently the answer is stop to trying to make something happen quickly, go with the flow for now then it might be clear. It could be my mind is still in a little chaos and still needs more time cleaning out before heading in the direction I need to, I have question when you were gaming were you oblivious to things around you but when you quick everything seem to have more life to it, you noticed more around you? When I started this quit there was a book I wanted to read when I started that never happened so this month I started reading that book (kindle version) am still reading it. I have considered giving internet in my house but do to the work I do I cant really do that right now, but it has been considered more than once. I feel so much better right now both to the detox and giving over that cold Grateful for 1.Bible study tonight 2,Having a church 3. Eventbrite app to find new social groups 4.My Car 5.Life 6.family 7.House 8.Room 9.Fresh air 10. Our dog

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Day 45 I listened to 2 podcast today and am completing more in my movie project to. Instead of wasting my time I m more than focused on getting something done rather just sitting here doing nothing. Even though I have the script written, it will be rewritten to match the animation because sometimes their not scene I can do so I have to work around it. Beside I seem to have caught a cold the other day not sure from what. Last night I did not go to the fall festival because me feeling under the whether. I feel really good (expect cold) about things like I kind put child-est things away and focus real tangible goals, even though the movie projects is one my goals, let me explain when I mean by content. What I mean is when I start the YouTube channel in 2018. I want to have 4 movies done by then so when I upload them them I can get feedback, fix what I need to fix and so that I do not run out video content. It would be based on month to month basis. I have 2 channels in mind one is faith based channel and another not so much but will focus on different things, each one has purpose and I already see some strategies to get their. I will tell you the first movie is my ambitious film while the next 3 will be related to more web series format. This also to have content upload to TMU site which I m apart of as well. Have I run out of ideas yet nope I keep getting new ideas for movies. Each project will be completed in 1 month so when I upload them I m way ahead of schedule. May learn Japanese and grammar skills at the same time to but I have goal at least. This also might explain couple of things if you were wondering. Grateful for" 1. Piece of my life has returned 2.Family 3.Being creative 4.Communities I m apart of 5.Having breath & life 6.The animals 7. Fresh air

thanks but I found an app that works best for me and that Eventbrite app, it seems to list a lot of events in my area if you want to check out I will give you a link https://www.eventbrite.com/

Day 44 Something unquine happened to me last night. I was watching some of my favorite shows when it all of sudden I got bored with them or were not enjoying them as much because I started asking why am consuming so much? It like the identity has returned to me like puzzle piece being put in place again, like the life from gaming that peiece has return to my body. It very hard to describe but that the best I can describe it as. Has this happened to you before? Second yesterday I went to fall festival and did a corn maze which I like doing (not the kid mazes the giant corn mazes) so of you will understand which one I m talking about. I have another fall festival tonight at 4:00 in the church near me so I will be dressing up fro that. ' Thirdly unfortunately meetup does not work for me, it not that not good app or anything but for my area I have found everbrite app to be much better on finding events in my area plus it through them I go to anime weekend Atalanta every year. Grateful 1.Life returning to my body 2.Getting answer in direction I need to go 3.redoing my routine to fit my creativity 4.The church I m becoming apart of 5.My relationship with Jesus 6.The communities I m apart of 7.Having breath

Day 43 Well today is normally my do nothing day, so on crunchy-roll (anime Japanese word for cartoon) I watch my very first simlcast which was super exciting. Made me feel like a kid again when you get once chance to watch it. I will have to wait to next Saturday for the next episode. Plus I m coming to realization that instead of trying to catch up on all the shows, I will stick to the ones only airing because their will always be shows I miss or want catch up on but it not worth doing them all so I m mostly going to focus on newer shows than older ones. I will finish shows I have already started then focus just mainly on new shows. Now I have filled in or ask job opportunies within my area lets just I have had no luck anywhere. Is because I m to stubborn or is because their isnt anything here? Im not sure. I have asked at 3 hotels, buster ice cream, filled out applications to publix and other places but with no luck. The best I can do right now is work the plan I have set for myself and that to launch a YouTube channel in January 2018, because I really don't know anywhere else I can go right now. By the way I m trying something new and that buying physical medium like manga that way I m not on pc as much and something about owning something and having it tangible is really exciting. Im garteful for 1.My bed 2.The ability to go to conventions 3.my room 4.My TV 5.having electrify 6.Having water 7.living in nice neighborhood.

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Day 42 For the last week I have been regressing back to what I know which browsing internet hoping to get somewhere but not finding the effort to do anything, so I had to remap a new routine to help with this issue, but one good thing has come out of this I have been working on my movie project and have goal to finish it by the end of the month but everything else has been to the way side. So new routine since I like to do stuff in the morning more than the afternoon will be 1.6:20am wake up 2.Breakfest 7:00am (their anime show I can watch at 7:15am in the morning which not good motivation and comes on every week since I have crunchyroll) 3.Gym/walk at 9:00-10:00am 4.10:30-12:00pm movie project 5.Lunch 12:00pm 6.Go out of the house and do grammer skills 7.Internet be reduced even further 3:00-7:00pm 8.Dinner 6:00pm 9.8:00-10:-00pm read That what I have outlined for now, I will see how well this works. Even though I should be looking for job, I m starting to realize why I cant have one is because if Im not willing to learn then I will never grow. Which another thing I found about myself is that I had at some point decided to not grow any further. This caused my nothing but issues and I need to open the door to learning new things. Making movies is one thing but I like learn Japanese which I have software to do so but hard to fit that in routinize when I want be away from PC when everything I do is on PC makes extremely difficult. I should also mention I miss old days of tv where did not have internet or Netflix where everything is available at once. Why you may ask? Well that because you could look forward to something after week and if their show that only air once a week, you have that available to you. I think having everything in front of you all the time kind makes you lazy not because you don' want do work it just their and their too many possibles that we get overwhelmed with to many options this why I prefer to do shows once a week because it a requard system for me and I m not as tempted as I would been if it was in from of me. s Still trying to figure things out. The things I m grateful for. 1.the ability to speak 2.health in my body 3.Having a car 4.Having house to live in 5.Muvizu (software I use to make movies) 6.software I have to learn new stuff 7.Family That it for today.

welcome Zntrix you made big step and I do agree with workinprogress cam videos will help you. I think you should go cold turkey that way your have less chance to relapse.

Glad to see your back in action but I see a couple of problems here. First of you need to be more definitive with your goals sort of like what do you want to accomplish this month, start small don't try to do too many things at once otherwise you will burn out. The second thing is what I call a tornado effect in which your body is craving games yet your mind is trying get back to reality, I v already had this happen once before but I did not give in to that temptation and the first week is the toughest but if you get through it then your solid. I think you if you really want to get rid of this then this means no mobile games, brain games, console games, PC games all have to either be deleted or put somewhere your not tempted during 90 day detox whatever it takes, I have noticed changes in my life and starting to realize thing I never saw before. Have project or goal set a deadline so it force you to work towards cause if you don't you find yourself (like me) regressing to what you know. that my thoughts.

Day 41 Thanks I gonna find a book sometime today so, though I thought I share something you guys might find intersting and something I have been thinking for the last two days. their as series I watch Chuunibyou demo Koi ga Shitai! that talks about Chuunibyo which some say it not real syndrome some do, eighth-grade syndrome is another word for and a good definition is The typical symptom is being caught by delusions of grandeur. Once it gets into their mind, they start to regard themselves as a great person, the greatest in the world. They also create their own world of delusion as if they were God. I got from here http://lang-8.com/461574/journals/1769016 So how does a relate well think about for a moment gaming transports us to world where we don't have to grow up and we can continue to engage in our child behavior. another way to say is as gamers we refuse to grow up even though we are growing up we just don't want to accept the reality of things and I think this chunnibybo though Japanese is very good example of this syndrome we may have and why the detox is so hard sometimes. I know I m coming back to reality trying to think is this something I should Continue to purpose or is their something else, One thing I have noticed at one point i don't when it happen I closed off all doors to learning new things, I refused jobs to to learn new thing unless it matched with my hobby and upon realizing this, I have kind rethink how do I learn again when I have closed those doors so tight that they barely open. This where I m at and though I really like making movies everywhere else is telling me to close those doors even though I refuse. That both blessing and curse because I have some many people depend on my for muvizu assets software I I use to make movies and yet a lot doors seem to be shutting down that prevents me making further films. Plus I realized I m better at making long term goals than sort goals to get to those long terms goals for what ever reason. So the lesson here is I need to be more open to learn new things. This what I find so interesting in my life right now. Grateful for today 1.Game quitters 2.Spending time with grandparents yesterday 3.Having food to eat 4.having clean water 5.having money 6.the community here 7.Programs I m like job training

Day 40 today i I was kind pressured by my parents to do brain game to help home my skills with math but I’m in the middle of my detox but I have say played it did not like it, made feel uncomfortable playing saw how it can be addictive so I have been thinking of others ways to do this. So I deleted the app am gonna a get one those books to help train my brain math b cause I be lesson phone and I can see some progressive with that rather than machine giving wild numbers. That it for today. I prefer not to play any video game that includes apps as well. So tell me your thoughts on this.

Day 39 Just wanted to let you all know that I worked on my next movie project some more and shaping up nicely do to me perfecting everything until I m happy with it. That it for today.

Day 38 I have been thinking of VR of late not for games but the reason I would like to be involved with Virtual reality is to offer a positive message rather than what it actually used for. To get early on so I know how things work and stuff. Yes I know it temptation and I m not talking about doing it now but it mostly to make Virtual reality videos and how it interacts with you. Though this could be sign that my body is wanting VR for video game interaction to. Second thing is that I have desire to travel and this even happened when I was gaming wanting to travel across america and speaking to different churches and the strange thing is I m normally a really re severed person. I would also like to visits other countries as well like Japan, Israel, Italy Venice city in water, maybe others and I normally not social person. Maybe I will become more social in the future. I m currently listening to the podcast right now and the main reason for doing it is to keep reminding myself why I m doing it and so I do not relapse at any point because if you remind yourself of why your doing it then it becomes easier. That it for today hope you have wonderful day. Grateful 1.Being alive 2.Country I live in 3.Our dog 4.The animals 5.Plants 6.Fresh air 7.Internet

Days 36-37 I m in sort of dilemma in scheduling myself. The main problem lies in that much what I do is on my PC where temptation is greatest on being consumer not a creator. I have also reverted back to this mindless browsing consuming and wanting to get there without getting their moments. The second problem lies is in the morning where in the morning before noon because I have the most energy and I m trying to fit that in their and trying to figure way to be out of the house at the same time. Since I have no laptop where I can take anything, it makes it more difficult to figure out the best strategy. Plus I want to fit gym in the morning to, The current one was go to gym, go to library learn grammar skills come home but I m currently trying to come up with better plan than this. What I have been considering is still the gym in the morning from 9-10am and then pc 10:30-12:30pm then library or park if it nice out to practice grammar skills. 1.Wake up 6:20-6:50 devotion 2.Eat breakfast 6:50-7:50 3.Gym/walk around the neighborhood 8:30-9:30 4.Pc 10:00-12:00 on Movie project, learn Japanese, grammar skills, screenwriting all on different days of course not on the say day. 5.12-12:45pm Lunch 6.Go window shoping from 1:00-3:00pm 7.Return home at 3:00pm for internet access What are your thoughts on this plan, my third problem is getting enough rest not say I go to bed to late more like 10:00pm needs to be knocked down to 9:00pm and I refuse to take naps if I can so I need suggestions on how to do this. Fourthly good news I will be getting involved with a church near me and some their ministries like in post production which I will be learning tomorrow at 2:00pm so I m excited for that. Plus I gonna start listening to the podcast now since i finished the YouTube series. Grateful for: 1.God being a blessing in my life 2.Finally found a church I get plugged in at 3.PC I have 4.Life 5.The house I live in 6.My Car and the ability to drive 7.Having money to do things

Day 36 Today I would like to discuss about the meeting I had with person from the church and I have to say I m really excited from what we talked about he could use the help in the church so on Monday I will be watching and the work he does and learning how to do post production using adobe preimire. (I normally use cyberlink powerdirector 13 for most my own productions) Second thing is I asked around for job opportunities in my area at hotels, and postal office. What am I grateful for 1.Waking up 2.Having freedom 3.The relationship I have with my family 4.The ability to drive so That it for for today hope you all have wonderful day.

glad to see you here This so true, you become more aware of who you are actually rather than someone who is passive,