Try surfing the urge... I also am getting a lot of those visions recently, but the truth is, I know I really am not interested in the gaming per se, instead I am interested in what gaming may give. For me it's a sense of recognition (Being the best in an MMORPG for example) so people respect you, you feel important. Then there's the temporary escape. For me for example, the farthermost event when these thoughts begin to come up is before a fast day, or after a heavy meal. So a fast day is just me feeding my thoughts with how hard something is and wanting to escape(the last time I fell in for gaming was also actually a day before fast day, in the winter, when my hands were very cracked from eczema). But again, I know that the moment I dive into the game I'll start feeling regret, because that just drives me away from my purpose.
As a younger me, I used to visualize myself as a gang leader in a server of 1000 players in San Andreas Multiplayer, but in the last time I fell for gaming about 500 days ago, I think I already brought myself to a position where I could possibly apply for the position. Then I would need to wait a few days or so before it got reviewed, and then even in the case it got approved I'd have to spend a minimum of two weeks at the position. At the moment I realized that every single day I spend there, not to speak of 2 weeks, is a day further away from my actual goals, and might mean me not achieving my self-defined, but what might also be my objective purposes before dying. I dropped it and deleted the game. I guess it is also what keeps me from coming back. Because again, for me most games were a long term thing with long term objects (MMO RPGs) not like a single player "Portal 2" or "Skyrim" or "Assasins creed" those I gave up after a short while, but with the MMO's I stuck for years. That is just my example... But think about what it is in your psyche that gaming fulfills, and look for ways to replace it. Remember REPLACE not "Eliminate" because we still need the things that it provided us with, otherwise we wouldn't be attracted to them in the first place...
Hey once more this is just a blob of info, but hope that it's understandable nonetheless. Let me know if this makes some sense or not and what you think on the matter :)
This also seems to make some sense, although from my experience it is hard to isolate the real cause, but we must keep asking the questions (Everything I wrote above is also just to the best of my understanding at the moment, it is learning in progress, and we discover new parts of ourselves everyday)
I hold myself too, for quite some time, but we must remember, yet again, to find a replacement. For example I started going up and down the stairs for 20 minutes or so after a heavy meal, I think it helps somewhat balance out the blood sugars, which then allows some blood to return to my brain, moreover I tell myself I'd do just 5 lessons of memrise (language learning app) and then I can read about games if I still want. The last few days it's been working for me.
Regarding the PS5 I do believe it was quite the fine move. Proud of you :)
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