Entry 6.4 Day 81: No Useless Videos Day 913: Sticking to Food schedule Day 516: Eating Only between 06:30 and 19:00 (Last bite before 19:00) Day 64: Being in bed before 23:15 3 Things I did well no matter how small  -11 concentrated work units -following schedule with up to 12 minutes delay besides 15 min for toilet [and this diary entry which is now 22 minutes delay, cuz of replying to Goku and writing yesterday's entry too and sleepiness which slows me down] -Morning jog 1 Thing I could do better -Contact a Nutritionist, I'm changing the food plan for more calories but I might do some harm with the glycemic index on rice, but I don't know how else to increase calories. Gaming (Death, Slavery, Regret, Disease) - 5 Yan (Life, Individuality, Freedom, Purpose, Self-Fulfillment) - 81

Entry 5.4 (Posted on 6.4, only 1 thing i did well added) Day 80: No Useless Videos Day 912: Sticking to Food schedule Day 515: Eating Only between 06:30 and 19:00 (Last bite before 19:00) Day 63: Being in bed before 23:15 3 Things I did well no matter how small  -9 concentrated work units -Afternoon workout -Even though it was out of schedule, reading about foods to gain weight, ideas for potatoes and rice, which I ended up ordering a rice pack for the next iteration of the food plan 1 Thing I could do better -make a smaller goal mastermind Gaming (Death, Slavery, Regret, Disease) - 5 Yan (Life, Individuality, Freedom, Purpose, Self-Fulfillment) - 80

No Idea what is the nine tailed fox     I think you're trying to justify why it's the world's fault that you're not attractive and that's why you have a worse lot in life and why you game, but truth is it is your choice 🙂 I don't know where you read this but it really doesn't matter. In any case, I think that for men at least being attractive is largely a thing of character, and if you're about in the category of 90% of men [jsut throwing a number here but I mean the majority] then it really depends on how you play out your cards and act. And also it really depends on the other person's taste. This is a very partial reply, I'll try replying to your post bit by bit[no promises] since it's just a blob of text thrown on page which is fine if it hels you express yourself, but still a bit hard to read and reply to quickly. Keep at it, and congratulations on taking your first steps in fighting yourself on the gaming subject.

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Please note if I’m saying positive things about myself here I’m not trying to be arrogant. I’m just trying to build up my confidence. If it makes for a more appeasing writing style I can instead just say “People have told me I’m a good writer or whatever.”    But I’m into positive affirmations I really do my best to not be annoying about them. Or to go on about how great I think I am. My goal is to feel and think well of myself. While being humble, not bragging. Complimenting and building others self esteem up. To be confident but not boastful of that confidence. So, I mean. It’s a journal, it’s pretty anonymous. It’s halfway between private and public. So, I figure some positive affirmation mixed it will be healthy for me.   When you see me write a positive thing about myself. Think a positive thing about yourself too. You deserve it, you’ve earned that kindness just by staying alive this long.    I am brave I am working with my anxiety and psychosomatic symptoms   I can do anything I put my mind to