18 Jan - 23 Jan: I had to buy a new shower head because I managed to step on the old one and break it 😄  There hasn't been that much happening otherwise. I came up with a few pricing improvements for my lessons. I spent time with my girlfriend and picked up a new book from the library.

Welcome back! It's great you're seeing progress already. It's much easier to abstain when the benefits are not vague and murky. I've never really had any gaming friends, perhaps except my brother, so my gaming was never connected with any "real" people. If the friends can talk about other stuff besides gaming, I guess it's OK though. Well done on 16 days!

Day 16/90 Read more of Respawn Gym / reading last night. One chapter away of finishing my book. Probably the fastest I've ever read a book this long in my life. Yesterday I felt extremely focused. I still feel some of that today. Feels real good. I still miss gaming in general.

Yes, that's definitely something to analyze. Maybe gaming didn't present itself as an escape in your head the first time or second time when you ground the project, but perhaps the tenth time. And maybe you resisted it for another five times, until you acted on the thought the sixth time. I only "book" time for lessons with my students (around 25-30 hours a week). The rest of my time is not usually scheduled, I just normally go to bed at 10-11 and get up between 6-8 as necessary. It's good to be bored sometimes, just for the experience. As I wrote, even when I am bored (or overworked, the other extreme), I don't think of gaming as an escape. When I'm overworked, I find an activity to relax like writing or I come up with a plan to tackle the problem. I usually find something to do even when I am bored too. It actually gives me space to focus on lesser priorities like chores around the house that are not as essential (e.g. dusting, putting boxes into the cellar etc.) These reactions are my second nature now and they're generally positive. I don't have to "plan" to relax, which really sounds like an oxymoron 😄  And it works for me. There are always a few areas I'd like to work on more often, but I don't think I need to start planning for it. In fact, I think pushing myself into planning my days in detail would make me rebel and would cause more damage down the road. I usually do plan some activities if I have entire parts of the day free though. Maybe it will change in the future, but so far I am happy with my approach.

Entry 22.1(Written on 23.1) Day 7: No Useless Videos Day 839: Sticking to Food schedule Day 442: Eating Only between 06:30 and 19:00 (Last bite before 19:00) Day 12: Being in bed before 23:15 3 Things I did well no matter how small  -Morning Resistance Workout  -5 pomodoros -Sticking to schedule within 10 minute delay at most until I dozed off in bed X_X 1 Thing I could do  better -Completed evening routine when i accidentally woke up at 19 Gaming count since relapse  Gaming (Death, Slavery, Regret, Disease) - 5  Yan (Life, Individuality, Freedom, Purpose, Self-Fulfillment) - 9