Monday afternoon: 'Relapses suck' doesn't quite do the process of recommitment to an electronic game justice.  Today, I finished the levelling system on the game I've regularly slaved at for 15 years (back then was when I had started to daydream about repetitive visual clicking goals). Aside from making a time goal of it at all, I shouldn't have built up the moment of fireworks in my mind, or paid attention to those who questioned/congratulated me on the endeavour. I had what was probably a kind of panic attack, because I couldn't figure out how to record or capture my screen for said fireworks, upon reaching the last-to-maximum level. It's a strange thing, having a mental condition that sees you avoid many pitfalls that an average-yet-healthy citizen might not, but being able to become trapped in routines that regularly neglect either the body or mind for some periods of time. This one involved my body, I think. In short, I haven't met/known a person, especially now, who can honestly say that such a goal/journey is worth it/worthwhile - if only because it only takes one poorly-timed catastrophe to wreck a person's situation; or a million, steady mouse-clicks. Glad to be here to explain that. Peace for the week, and start of a new season! ~ Matt Gratitude: ~ My dishwasher came apart, so I began to enjoy a handwashing task ~ I saw a manager-type at the grocer's holding it together well, after overhearing him discussing sick leave for mental health ~ Obviously, the climactic anticlimax of a fully-levelled official game profile - not to be imitated!  ~ Reading a sci-fi novel once again for the first time since I bought the series, during my 2023 detox

Entry 30.8  Weeks until average life expectancy: 2763 (80th birthday)  Day 227: No Useless Videos Day 1059: Sticking to Food schedule Day 662: Eating Only between 06:30 and 19:00 (Last bite before 19:00) Day 40: Being in bed before 23:15 3 Things I did well, no matter how small  -Monthly Review -1 Hour German Lesson in the morning -At the very least 1 Pomodoro of Marketing =/ 1 Thing I could do better -Limit mywself to 10 minutes of flight checking. Once I allowed myself to go over, the schedule got out the window Gaming (Death, Slavery, Regret, Disease) - 5 Yan (Life, Individuality, Freedom, Purpose, Self-Fulfillment) - 230

Entry 29.8 (Written on 30.8) Weeks until average life expectancy: 2763 (80th birthday)  Day 226: No Useless Videos Day 1058: Sticking to Food schedule Day 661: Eating Only between 06:30 and 19:00 (Last bite before 19:00) Day 39: Being in bed before 23:15 3 Things I did well, no matter how small  -308 clean German study minutes -Afternoon workout -When I saw I'm delayed with flight booking I moved it to the next day 1 Thing I could do better -Possibly do separate exercises for the German Passiv, because it took me a boatload of time to complete it's exercises... like 40 minuets or so, when equivalent lessons sometimes take 5 minutes. Gaming (Death, Slavery, Regret, Disease) - 5 Yan (Life, Individuality, Freedom, Purpose, Self-Fulfillment) - 228

Entry 28.8 (Written on 28.8 at least the 3 things done well and 1 thing better, the count updated at 30.8)(Posted on 30.8 because of site technical issues) Weeks until average life expectancy: 2763 (80th birthday)  Day 225: No Useless Videos Day 1057: Sticking to Food schedule Day 660: Eating Only between 06:30 and 19:00 (Last bite before 19:00) Day 38: Being in bed before 23:15 3 Things I did well, no matter how small  -Morning jog -40 ish hours fast -handing in financial report finally 1 Thing I could do better -perhaps wake up earlier to have time buffer to call tax authority regarding the 100 euro fee they put on me. Gaming (Death, Slavery, Regret, Disease) - 5 Yan (Life, Individuality, Freedom, Purpose, Self-Fulfillment) - 227

Entry 27.8 (Written on 27.8 at least the 3 things done well and 1 thing better, the count updated at 30.8)(Posted on 30.8 because of site technical issues) Weeks until average life expectancy: 2763 (80th birthday)  Day 224: No Useless Videos Day 1056: Sticking to Food schedule Day 659: Eating Only between 06:30 and 19:00 (Last bite before 19:00) Day 37: Being in bed before 23:15 3 Things I did well, no matter how small  -finished all the homework of jurgen once more -2 pomodoros -when conversation with michael didn't happen today, learning german instead 1 Thing I could do better -Consider asking Jurgen to focus more on individual rules than overall text corrections? Gaming (Death, Slavery, Regret, Disease) - 5 Yan (Life, Individuality, Freedom, Purpose, Self-Fulfillment) - 226