Hello!
This last few months I have been working around 60-80 hours a week in my dream industry. My position is still very entry, but I am given a lot of responsibilities and there is tons of room to grow. However, when I get home, I started to realize that my life is so empty. I just sort of turn on my MMORPG, and stare at a screen.
I am by no means a far gone addict. I have a job, I work out, and I think on the surface you wouldn't think that I have a gaming problem. I think in the past, gaming was much more of an issue. I was unemployed, gaming maybe 60 hours a week on the same MMORPG, eating unhealthy and it was just bad overall. Despite the fact that I am now a contributing member of society, I absolutely feel like I am not living up to my potential. I used to have more friends, I used to date more, and just overall this isn't the life that I want.
If I'm only alive for 80 years, I'd like the next few decades to be memorable. The truth is that very few moments in gaming are deeply memorable to me. I can remember trying to get the scarab gun in Halo 2 as a kid, or playing some friend slop games. But the ratio of hours spent to actual memories is so lopsided. The vast majority of time, I don't remember anything and nothing was gained. You can argue that real life is like that too, but I disagree. I think fondly about my real life memories, the photos I took with my friends, the places I went to, the feelings I had.
So anyway, I have decided to take a 90 day detox. I am already 12 days in and this is the first day I've felt cravings. It's honestly just nostalgia, I don't actually think playing the games would make me happy.
Honestly shout out Cam too for this video. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8hlroDQ_Qvo
I feel like I am on the edge of achieving something great. At a fork in my life where my dream job is at the tip of fingers. I have good friends and my family is well. I'd be a foul to be distracted right now. I'm not even unhappy in my real life, I am actually much less happy while gaming than even my worst day at work.
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