October 29, Wednesday morning:
I may be truly outgrowing that one MMORPG. It's been a long month, despite some days also feeling shorter and almost wasted. Despite that, I have been cooking, cleaning, hygienic and perhaps even socialising easier than ever.
But I haven't made too many active changes - simply doing what I know I ought to when I reach whatever approximates boredom. What progress that I have made, I ought not to let be taken for granted (mostly by me).
This morning (and having slept successfully, I'll say), I was at my most conscious of my thoughts about the hours and day ahead. A friend or family member told me this month that procrastination with regard to personal problems can actually affect everything else you're doing elsewhere.
Certainly, many times I have gone to bed (though it seemed smarter in the moment) resigned or saddened about text messages or posts (news included) and then wondered why I semi-consciously picked them back up in the morning. Then, since I finished some studies a few years ago now, I decided to 'ease' into each day with a hot drink at the computer, instead of just practising good manners as I wish as many people well (and a good morning) as possible. Yes, I still have to be careful of mania, but I think that is my main habit to break.
I may sign in a couple more times over the next 1-2 weeks (subscription limit), if only to prove how little I get out of it - as I said before, this year, almost all of my in-game achievements have actually left me feeling either nothing or actually negative - and I usually only think of what you all here would think of it about half of the time; they've been low points with or without pressure.
Happy mid-week, everyone.
~ Matt
Gratitude:
~ I had last weekend to myself, which meant that I was less stimulated and more mindful - but which also meant practice staying out of trouble
~ Aside from one extra-hot day, I was able to enjoy the weather had here
~ My body told me that I was lifting too much yesterday, and I listened
~ I recognise that this truly is 'one day at a time'. I do wish to avoid running out of good things to say and ranting, to bring moods low enough to seek entertainment, though. Godspeed, guys.
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