Entry 20.12(Night 21.12)  Day 811: No Useless Videos Day 809: Sticking to Food schedule Day 412: Eating Only between 06:30 and 19:00 (Last bite before 19:00) Day 115: Being in bed before 23:15 3 Things I did well no matter how small -After big meal reading a bit of intelligent investor instead of news.. -Out of bed at 07 22 which is an improvement in contrast to 10 or 9 that i had some days -8 pomodoros 1 Thing I could do  better -Still force myself to g through focused work after heavy meal?

I think I understood a peculiar form of self deception. The more I shirk my responsibilities, and neglect my health, the more I justify lack of success on things outside my control. It can be the employer that withheld my wages from me, the promotion that was unjustly given to somebody else etc. As this starts happening, morale and energy hits rock bottom. This causes a downward cycle of further hiding from responsibilities and blaming it on others.    I am really below my target level, for over a year.

Well done on posting daily. I would not place my state of mind and feelings at the treatment you get from others. They're not under your control, so whatever they act, accept it, and do what depend on you 🙂 If you're expecting someone to act in a certain way you're giving them power over your emotional state. Instead just concentrate on what you could do best in that situation where he didn't act optimally. Hope this helps. This is just my opinion though 🙂

Entry 19.12(Written on 20.12)  Day 810: No Useless Videos Day 808: Sticking to Food schedule Day 411: Eating Only between 06:30 and 19:00 (Last bite before 19:00) Day 114: Being in bed before 23:15 3 Things I did well no matter how small -2 hr 20 minutes run -About a 42 hour water fast -Going to shower at around 22 00 without delaying or dozing off 1 Thing I could do  better -The moment after a big meal is critical, I know I get eczema bursts which make me want to reduce movement and just stare at the screen with things like news, but I could do it slowly.

I came to return a loaned book and had to go upstairs to the library. The security guard on duty was finishing his sandwich and as a matter of fact cussed me in a dirty way, asking for my library card. I said I didn’t have one. The library worker on duty came down to let me in. I haven't got the right attitude at all with this. Will let him have a piece of my mind.