Starting my journal

[JensonE]

This will be where I reply with my thoughts and other feelings about the day.

Aug. 20th

Today was quite hard to decide I won't play games from now on. Many of my friends are much better at controlling their habits than me and because of past conversations they think all I want to talk about is whatever game we enjoy playing. As a side note, I crashed my car yesterday. I felt like such an idiot. I was listening to a video on YouTube and decided to look over for two seconds. Next thing I know is I could barely open my car door and my entire front was smashed. It's more than likely going to be totaled, and with past debt I had I'll end up having to repay my family thousands of dollars, not to mention the money I'll need to get a new form of transportation. I feel so empty, like everything I've ever accomplished has no meaning anymore. The only way I feel like I can fill it up again is by being a good gamer, but that alone has led to these consequences. I really want to stop, for me and everyone it's affecting.