It's been over a week, I'm staying out of games, it was a little bit of a rollecoaster.
My profession has some similiarities to gaming. It triggers similar neural pathways, so during first few days of detox, when everything else feels numb, it suddenly becomes one of the most interesting activities available. It doesn't have to be bad on it's own. I'm my own boss and putting more hours is definitely fine, but they also need to be quality hours and I should be focused and mindful which wasn't exactly the case this weekend. With extra stress and emotions I ended up really close to relapsing, I had couple of drinks instead, which definitely isn't a good substitution in a longrun, but at that moment was probably the lesser evil.
The good things however are that since I've started detox a little earlier than this journal, I've already made it for over one week. With only occasionally caughting myself scrolling some social media, but definitely much less than in the earlier attempts, where I'd sometimes wake up and stay in bed scrolling memes for 1,5 hour.
Putting more structure to my life is still on to do list, same as taking care of some things that I've been procrastinating for a really long time.
Another really good thing is that I did spend 1 or 2 hours learning the language of country that I live in and I'm planning to finally book my first lesson on italki by the end of the weak. Learning German is one of the top priorities right now, at least to the level where I can have some very basic conversation - and then just learn by simply using the language.
I'm surprised again that not so simple act of writing this stuff down is really helpful, thinking about all those things and taking the effort to write them down seems really beneficial to me, it's very likely that I'm gonna put more of my goals in further posts.