Abdul

Been struggling over the past few days with playing mobile/browser games. Need. To. Stop.

It's been a while... I feel like my life is really a mess at the moment. I have relapsed a few times playing for a few hours then uninstalling everything. The real problem was my addiction to Twitch. I tried to convince myself that gaming isn't watching other people play. This turned into watching people play video games for up to 6-10 hours per day. I will be sure to post journal entries at least a few times a week. I stopped because I thought I could control my gaming urges and improve my life. While I was able to control my urges over the span of several months, eventually i buckled under pressure and started gaming. What I will be working on: Post a journal entry if I am thinking too much. I often overload my brain with too many things. Waking up at 5:30am instead of 7am. Why? I want to start my day right. Breakfast. Reading. Exercise. NO Phone. No excessive Netflix. Anything watched should only be done Sunday Afternoon. Anyways, I am off to clean my room and get ready for class tomorrow. I am sure it will be a struggle, but I will do my best to succeed.

Hi again! I ended up playing video games a few days after my break started . Not really sure why I did it. It only took 3 hours to realize that games aren't really fun which is the same experience I dealt with the previous 3 times I relapsed. My urges have so much power over my life right now. I stopped reading, player the guitar, and any other hobbies I tried picking up. I plan to start reading and learning cross stitching during the break. In other news: This semester's GPA was at a 3.480(5 classes) with my previous highest semester GPA being a 3.09.

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Day 49 Overview Porn/NoFap – 10 Days Meditation – No Exercise – Yes Reading – Yes Weekly Goal: 5 Productive Days (1/5 Currently)

Day 48 Overview Porn/NoFap – 9 Days Meditation – No Exercise – Yes Reading – No Weekly Goal: 5 Productive Days (1/5 Currently)

Day 47 Overview I have noticed that my weekends are largely unproductive. Will need to figure out ways to make sure I am productive from morning to evening rather than afternoon to evening. Porn/NoFap – 8 Days Meditation – Yes Exercise – Yes Reading – Yes Weekly Goal: 5 Productive Days (3/5 Currently)

Day 45 Overview Need to try to meditate every day. Will try to improve on that tomorrow. Porn/NoFap – 6 Days Meditation – No Exercise – Yes Reading – Yes Weekly Goal: 5 Productive Days (3/5 Currently)

Day 44 Overview Porn/NoFap – 5 Days Meditation – No Exercise – Yes Reading – Yes Weekly Goal: 5 Productive Days (2/5 Currently)

Day 43 Overview Porn/NoFap – 4 Days Meditation – Yes Exercise – Yes Reading – Yes Weekly Goal: 5 Productive Days (1/5 Currently)

I actually managed to stop watching porn & masturbating for over 6 months when I was 16 years old. When I started straying from religion, I started to realize that I could masturbate & watch porn without "sinning". This was probably what started several years of addictive masturbation. 1) It is addictive 2) My brain seems to be pretty "sexually charged" days after watching porn which makes it more difficult make good decisions. Day 42 Overview Not really sure what happened today... 1) I found out that my car has a large power steering leak. 2) I wasted 6 hours because I wasn't informed that my siblings had detention and were later planning on going skating(?). 3) The loud noises from the power steering pump were annoying as hell. 4) I received a copyright infringement(NBC) email from my university letting me know that I had my vpn on when I downloaded a tv episode torrent last week. Was fined $50 and had to take a 2 hour quiz thing. 5) Had three fire alarms go off while studying in the library in the morning which resulted in me losing at least an hour of studying. 6) Someone hit my parked car at university. 7) Got home at 9PM being unable to fix my car or do anything. I guess I just have to plan for a better day tomorrow. But I cannot believe just how many bad things happened today. Porn/NoFap – 3 Days Meditation – No Exercise – No Reading – No Weekly Goal: 5 Productive Days (-1/5 Currently)

Dude, awesome you did 4 days, but you should be more aware about the fake shown in porn. What do you know about the whole industry? Do you know how these people (I mean, porn actors/actresses) has to annihilate their health, families and even whole endocrine system? That's something you have to answer before you start watching to bullshit again Greetings, Mad Pharmacist Yep! one of the reasons I am trying to stop. Day 41 Overview Porn/NoFap – 2 Days Meditation – No Exercise – Yes Reading – Yes Weekly Goal: 5 Productive Days (0/5 Currently)

Day 40 Overview Porn/NoFap – 1 Days Meditation – Yes Exercise – Yes Reading – Yes Weekly Goal: 5 Productive Days (3/5 Currently)

Day 39 Overview This week has been super tough avoiding porn/masturbating. I managed to go 4 days without doing so, but I have been watching porn for the past 2 days. Just about every time I have done so, I am on Reddit /all browsing random stuff and I eventually come across nsfw stuff. I have decided that it would be in my best interest to block Reddit for the time being. Today has been rather depressing and unproductive. I seem to really struggle moving weekday mindset into weekend mindset where I potentially have more time available. Tomorrow, I need to draft a general schedule to determine how my usual weekend should go. Porn/NoFap – 0 Days Meditation – No Exercise – Yes Reading – Yes Weekly Goal: 5 Productive Days (2/5 Currently)

Day 38 Overview Porn/NoFap – 0 Days Meditation – Yes Exercise – Yes Reading – Yes Weekly Goal: 5 Productive Days (2/5 Currently)