Ray Cao

Long time no see! It's 9-Apr-2023 now!!! Today is 68th day now! Cause of quitting game, I have almost completed the software testing course. But it's hard to find a fresher (or even intern) position now in my country. The competition rate is so high, 1/~40. It means that there may be at least 20 - 40 candidates for a software tester fresher position. And I don't have many strength so that I can be the best candidate. (I'm over 30 now. I'm male, not female. I have graduated from IT school since 2015. It's a long time!) I feel so depressed at some days. AND I RELAPSED 4 TIMES. Although I deleted Steam and Riot game accounts. But somehow I still keep 1 game account, Wargaming one! I had played World of Tanks for long times in the past. So in depressed day I downloaded the World of Tanks and played it, 4 times (4 days). Now, I deleted my game client, haven't find a way to delete the account! I found a way to work as a tester, online freelance tester! I found some platform that help people to work as a tester online!!!! That's it!!!

Hi everyone! From Friday to Sunday is my 38th - 40th day. Yesterday, I play a football match on the futsal field in the afternoon. My teams lost some games at the beginning but we won other games at last. I felt so happy. Today, I kept studying Software Testing. But it took me so much time to fix some bug. I post my problem into Stackoverflow and some guys suggest the solution, then I found the right solution for my case. Thing I'm grateful for yesterday and today: Some guys help me to cut my nail freely so as to I feel safe when being a goal keeper. My team played effectively at the end of the football match. We score 4 goals in a row. My younger sister bought some street dishes then shared with me. I watched some funny movies on the Youtube. I found a way to fix my bug problems. Mom called me to talk with me. I found a way to deal with my old colleague that she bought my books but not feel satisfied about them. That's it!

Today is my 37th! I kept studying Software Testing course. Almost complete it. I think it's just about 2 - 3 weeks then I will complete. Then I can apply CV for some tech job. Can you give me some experience to find a fresher software tester job? I'm 30 now! I feel quite embarrassed about finding a job at this age (30). Quite sad about my life! That's it!!!!

I did deleted my game accounts. I don't regret at all. I regain my time to study for the future. About sport,... Yeah, you can try to find a sport to play. In my country (Vietnam), futsal football is popular so that everyone can play it. But it's quite risky. I had got injured a lot after several years playing futsal football. Some injuries cost me lots of money. Other sports that's fighting but not too risky as football are badminton, ping pong,... or you just go jogging,... The first match is the hardest match. If you don't like play sports, you can just walk. The more you walk, the healthier you get (but under 10000 steps a day). It's cheap, but good. It's free. It's flexible! That's it!

You know, I had studied at an IT college in the past. One of my college friends, he studied in Software Engineering major. One of his courses is Game development. In game development course, there are some gaming psychology lessons. He said, "to make a successful game, you have to understand the psychology of player, you have to know them." It means that psychology, strategy to hook player is a MUST-HAVE criteria when someone designs a game. It's like you have to add spices to dishes you cook. Game is a kind of entertainment. And entertainment things are not made to be boring. So, if you don't want to addict to game. Or you have to quit it, like Respawn tell us, or you have to be so self-discipline, you have to got something to stop you whenever you get over the red line. That's it!!!

Hello! Yesterday and today is my 35th and 36th day. My two Riot and Steam account is deleted completely. Now I only study, exercise and another activities. I'm going run out of money so I can't go outside for any meet up event (cause going out for some event cost money). So I stay at home whole day to study, do exercises (go jogging and play football), read book, meditate to relax. That's all! That's my life now! Thanks for reading!

Hi! I'm back! From Thursday, 2nd March to today, Monday, 6th March is from my 30th to 34rd. I didn't write daily journal, but I also didn't play game. My two game accounts (one is Riot, another is Steam) are deleted completely. I had set up deleting progress since 3rd February, 2023. Sometimes I felt lonely, sometimes I felt so sad so I wanted to play game again so bad. But I didn't! After 1 month quitting game, I had been studying a lot. Quitting game, I regain so much time to study, to do exercises, to go jogging. In last 1 month, I went outside to joint about 3 meeting: speaking English; playing board games;... I play football every weekend. I bought some books to read. I have been studying my software tester course so that I can find a tech job in next month. That's all!

From Sunday to today, from 26th to 29th I have been studying Software Tester every day. There is no weekend. There is no Saturday, no Sunday. With me, just a day! Wake up, do some stretching exercises. Then come back to study until evening, then go jogging, then eat dinner, read some books then go to sleep. After punching one man in last futsal football match on Saturday, I was so worry about being revenged. OMG! I couldn't sleep well. I send private messages to him to apologize but he didn't see, didn't reply. So I decided to stay at home next Saturday, not go playing football. I will off for a week. Sometimes, I feel boring and want to play game again. It's 2 days left then my Riot game account will be deleted completely. OMG! Think about it, I feel so sad. Sometimes I want to stop this deleting progress. But then I remember the Respawn, remember the commitment at the chapter 1: Quit game to change my life. So, I keep my commitment, although somehow I still feel regret and hurt because my account will be gone forever. Be discipline! That's it!!!

Today (Saturday) is my 25th game quitting day! I completed an assignment of automation testing course. I can study new lesson tomorrow. I got a futsal football match tonight. I met a guy that I don't like him, either does him. He keeps telling what I have to do. And I didn't like it. I think he got some biases on me. That's why he always feel uncomfortable when he plays with me in the same team! And when we played in two different teams. We got some touch each other. Then I got angry and punch him one time right at his right eye. Then I had to leave the futsal field to get calm and to make every thing in order again. Some part inside me feel good, the other don't. But I got the feeling that I want to hit him that time. But now, I don't want do it anymore. So I think I have to find a way to solve this problem. That's it! That's my day!

On last Friday, it's my 24th game quitting day! I kept learning Software Tester. I'm learning Automation test lessons. The online school gave an account so I can enroll and learn IT courses on Udemy freely. In the afternoon and evening, I went jogging, practiced some football skill to prepare for the match on Saturday. That's all!

Last Thursday is the 23rd game quitting day of mine. A day with nothing new. Keep studying. Go jogging. Practice speaking and listening English. Life of studying. That's my life now!!!

Hi, I'm back!!! Wednesday is my 22nd game quitting day!!! I had kept learning the IT course. I had been studying about Java, OOP, Exception,... I met an college friend in the evening. We used to study in the same college. After graduated, he applied for IT jobs. But I didn't. Now he is a team leader. And I am nothing. He shared me some knowledge that I thought it's so valueable. He plays every night, "1, 2 games each night", he said. But playing game is not a problem of him. He got a job, a family, time,... And I got nothing. Time is the only thing I have. So I have to use it wisely. That's all!!!

Day 21, Today I'm still learning, go jogging. WOW! it's been 3 weeks. So 3 weeks ago I have decided to quit game. I did it after spending 2 days to play game and didn't do anything else. I did it because I didn't want my 2023 is still bad like 2022. I did it because I want to change my life. A life without game but with something else. It's quite late for me (I'm over 30 years old now). But just started. I can't get back my past. But I can do something so my future will be better than now. So It's 10 days left then my two game accounts will be deleted completely. Fighting!!!!

Day 20, Today, I keep studying my IT course. I'm studying about OOP (object-oriented programming) today!!! It's not easy. It's quite hard. So I spend too much time to understand it. Programming is easy to try, but not easy to find a job. After studying and having dinner, I went outside to go jogging. Going jogging help me to relieve stress. That's it!!!!

Day 19, Yesterday, I limited time for using social medias and installed ColdTurkey so that I can't procrastinate (by go to Facebook, Youtube, check email,...) when I study. Today is Sunday! In the morning, I got up late. I felt so boring, so lonely. Thinking about not use Facebook Messenger for a long time made feel quite mad. I didn't want to study. Maybe I need to entertain. But not game, or social media. So I went outside, found a coffee shop to chill. I came back home at 11 am o'clock and started to study. It was quite late but at least I keep studying (I had been running out of money so I need to find new job as soon as possible). I had studied for about 5 - 6 hours until 8 pm. I was exhausted so I stop studying, went to kitchen to cook dinner. After dinner I went down stair and went jogging for about 1.5km. After going jogging, I feel so comfortable!!! And my day is still have no games! That's it!!!!