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Hi Good vibes Thank you for the thoughts. I'm already journalling and I use a host of tools for self motivation but have found that since quiting gaming I've noticed that they don't seem to work as well. Even my meds for ADHD don't seem to work the same, but technically they should be helping with the dopamine drop. I'm thinking to only push myself to workout until whatever chemical imbalance straightens itself out. I'm hoping that in a few days I can get back to building up my business.

I'm 41, I've been gaming since I was 8 years old but as things got bad for me in childhood it became a go to for blocking out the world and pain, even though I knew I was missing out on my childhood and development, I'd learned to play less as time went on but would still binge from time to time if given the chance. I'm currently a stay at home dad with an ecommerce business that I am building and even gaming 2-3 hours per day when I can turns into the odd 8 hour gaming session and not working on my business which then makes me feel wretched. I'm more than ready to move on. I've tried to quit or control gaming many times but this time feels very different. I've also come to realise that a lot of my past trauma has been kept below the surface by gaming and getting as much dopamine as I can out of it. So far so good, I knew it would suck and it does but I don't think I will fail this time. I would be curious to hear from anyone who also noticed that after quitting gaming that they went through psychological changes, such as facing pain that had been ignored due to gaming and what advice they might give me for going through it. I'm also trying to work on the Jordan Peterson's Future Authoring program as well as the basic detox gaming program here, I really want to get past this point in my life but I'm honestly putting off working on these although I am thinking about them more and more so that is good. Anyway its really nice to be here and I hope that I can help and receive support from the community.