Jake

Hello I'm jake. I am 15 years old, I hail from New York and I'm kinda stuck over video games. I first started playing when I was 12 or so, starting with browser games and phone games, simple ones that only would catch my attention for a few hours or so. Playing console games would give me horrible headaches, but eventually my tolerance grew and I could play games like GTA 5 and max Payne 3 for 2-3 hours at a time. Then one of my friends introduced me to counter-strike, and I have logged over 1000 hours over 2 years (playing on weekends and summers only). I believe I am almost completely addicted to it now. I am by nature over sensitive, introspective and somewhat insecure and cynical as a result of my oversensitivity. My parents really love me, but my grades are beginning to tank as my coping method to adversity is apathy, so if someone says something mean to me at school my ego is crushed inside and my conscience viciously attacks me for being weak. Then I stay home from school and pity myself and the whole horrible cycle starts over again. I love history and computers but my weak ego and drive coupled with my addiction and the fact that my parents are divorcing really destroys my ability. I need help making sense of my life. I am a deeply nostalgic person for the early days of my gaming life and for all the Disney classics I watched as a kid, and I don't want to stop the only constant thing in my life (gaming) unless I absolutely have to. Thank you, jake