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  1. April 14th Hello all. Another day, another opportunity to grow. I did not complete all tasks I set out to do today. There was a relatively large number of breaks that were unnecessary and today's work output shows it. The Probability and statistics course is being cut; it is not part of the bare-bones plan for acquiring the necessary course credits this year. I absolutely need to complete the Algebra course for this goal, not necessarily the other. I spoke with my father today and I'm going to visit him on Saturday for the Easter celebrations. There will be people there with whom I have rocky relationships. People who I like to think I care about. It won't be the easiest experience, I feel some trepidation before it. Yet part of quitting gaming and becoming the person I want to be is making amends for my failings and doing better in the now. Things can be separated into two categories, the things I can affect and the things I cannot affect. The past is unchangeable, I cannot take back what I've done. What I can do is fixing things as best I can in the now. I'll work on getting eight hours of sleep a day. I'm sluggish if I sleep poorly and my work suffers for it. This pace may be enough to complete Algebra on time but it is entirely too slow compared to what I know I'm capable off. Phone use has skyrocketed; it will be put back into its containment zone. Started listening to the audiobook 'Principles' by Ray Dalio when I'm going outside. Perhaps my focus has become frayed. Too many books, audiobooks, phone to distract me, poor handling on interuptions of productive endeavors. Staying on the narrow edge of being productive requires better guardrails than the ones I've had up these last three days. An hour will be used tomorrow to reflect on how I'm going about my day. To try and identify what the sources of lagging productivity, engagement, and ability then to see which ones I can root out quickly. Activities of the day: I will note that I'm counting 3.4 of Algebra complete for bookkeeping. Yet there is about 15 min of work left to get through before it is done. Kind Regards, A Fellow Addict
  2. April 13th. Hello all. It has been a long day of studying. It has gone well, but I had to force myself to sit still and study several times. Did not always succeed at that yet overall it went decently. Completed 3/4 of Module 2/6 of my Algebra and Geometry course. That is an amazing pace of about two and a half times normal fulltime studies. But its not enough it I'm to complete both exams next week. I may have to drop the Probability course to save the more important math course. Activities of the day: Active and hasteful learning is hard when its done for more than a few hours of the day. I'd have less difficulties completing with twelve hours of activities containing four hours of learning, than eight hours of only learning new things. Got more work to do tomorrow, booked the laundryroom and will see about fixing the ventilation of the appartment if it can be done in half an hour. Kind regards, A Fellow Addict
  3. April 12th. Hello all. Good day today. Looking at the schedule, I can see that I've been active throughout the whole day yet I feel as if I've not completed much at all. Some extra time was spent on cooking food for the upcoming 3-4 days and I had to repeat 1.1-1.3 in Algebra and Geometry as I was not comfortable with how shallow my understanding on that chapter was. Probability and statistics is easier than expected, primarily because it has a lot of overlap with the math course I've completed earlier this year. They both include a large amount of discrete maths. My plan do not require me to finish Probability and statistics next week, only Algebra and Geometry. If I feel like Alg & Geo is slipping come Sunday/Saturday then I'll drop the statistics course as it is a voluntary extra. I've mailed the councilor today. Setting things up to perhaps progress with programming courses once the Algebra and Probability exams are over. Hopefully she'll greenlight my activities and I can check that off so that the professor can consider my previous requests. Downloaded the add 'Turf' yesterday to perhaps spur me to expand on my walking routes. They are rather short for the scheduled half an hour to complete. Will try to complete Game Quitter's entries quicker. I've on average taken around half an hour, aiming to get that down to 0.25h without diminishing quality by focusing on writing faster. Weekly plan: Two primary activities; to progress with Algebra and Geometry as well as the Statistical course at breakneck speed in preperation for next week's examinations. Algebra is the primary focus. Should I somehow finish the intended workload with time to spare, then I'll squeeze in some programming. Gym visits is limited to a goal of 3x this week to save time for work. I know previously wrote that long-term exercise and a focus on health is better; but I am really strapped for time to complete these two courses right now. Wasting six days has made the statistical course an inch for being dead completion-wise. Will continue the mail conversation with the councilor tomorrow. Intent being to get a meeting scheduled for next week at the latest. Weight 99.4kg (go me, loosing much of my progress). Kind Regards, A Fellow Addict
  4. April 11th. Hello all. Short checkup, will edit this entry tomorrow to include a late weekly review and screencuts from the schedule. Ever since the last entry, I've mostly done nothing at all. Did not finish the Numerical Analysis assignment. Did not finish the math, nor programming 101 activities I intended to. Basically did nothing for a few days except ignore responsibilities (still completed the parallel programming course) , read fiction novels online, and order pizza and ice-cream home deliveries in copious ammounts. Haven't gamed. In a foul mood because of how I've acted over the last half-dousin days; so not much more I'm willing to add right now. Made a basic weekly-schedule to follow with the idea of saving my 'progress' towards the two upcoming exams next week. Regards, A Moronic Addict
  5. April 5th. Hello all. Won't make a long entry for today. I've been working with numerical methods all day, perhaps trying to work with it all day is a more apt description of my day. Skipped gym to get some more hours in as there are two deadlines coming quickly. I'm grateful that I started this project early as it is taking a lot longer than expected. Not as much of a breaze as expected, partly because it builds on knowledge of calculus 1 and 2 which I've not completed. Fear not, I shall struggle through this! The project has five questions. They require the related knowledge from F1-F5. I've completed the first one and am prepared to finish question two. Plan is to finish hurry up and finish this tomorrow so that I can complete the parallel programming assignment on Thursday. I'm having more difficulties focusing on this course than programming. The deadline is 13:00 on Thursday for this so I'll sit up for as long as necessary tomorrow to finish this. Kind Regards, A Fellow Addict.
  6. April 4th. Hello all. It has been a fruitful day. Not much has been completed today if judged in the manner of intended tasks and checkboxes. But if judged by the metrics of engagement and time; then it has been a good day. It is Monday so the week's plan has been assembled: In abbreviation, this represents completing the two ongoing programming courses, finishing up two the halfway point of the math course, and completing 2/5th of the course on Numerical Methods as well as the first project we have in that course. Algebra and Geometry need to be finished before 22/4. Being up to halfway done a week and a half before that will allow for leeway the coming week when regarding planning. Probably next week will include a large amount of time spent in preparation for the upcoming Statistics and Probability exam. Numerical Methods and Parallel Programming have assignments for this week with set deadlines. The general layout of the week's work is scheduled around finishing Num-Assignment by Wednesday and Parallel-Assignment by Thursday at the latest. There will be activities throughout the week not included here that I'll spend time on. Ranging from laundry to meal-prepping to whatever else comes up in the daily planning. Yet the above illustrated is the core of this week's work. Today's activities: A lot of time was spent familiarizing myself with the MatLab environment and completing tutorials for it. It was an unforeseen time sponge that I'd have had to deal with tomorrow if I didn't do it today. Generally speaking, the F1-F7 ('Föreläsning 1-7' in Swedish or Lecture 1-7) does not appear to be too difficult. I estimate that they'll take on average two hours to complete each with a good tempo. Scheduling with councilors is a lead time item, therefore it is important to get it done early. Will see about mailing one of them tomorrow. All in all, I'm satisfied with the day. Wake-up time wasn't the greatest but I've made a lot of the day. Kind Regards, A Fellow Addict
  7. April the 3rd. Hello all. I'll be getting right too it. Today was decent enough. Went to the gym after skipping for two days, didn't have my music with me which was a bit of a bummer. As can be seen; the last three days leave much to be desired. I'm almost done with the programming 101 course and up to speed with parallel programming. Work with Numerical Methods and the math course leaves a lot to be desired. The poor presentation on Friday did a number on me. What was inexcusable was continuing the lack of actions for the two coming days. It is not only 'filling the hours' I've missed today and yesterday. But every hour used innanely is a vote for the person I was. With every hour of concienscious and honest work is a vote for the person I wish to be. Weekly Productivity Score is 0,138. Did 3h of more work this week than last week, but the overload of red the last three days has driven WPS into the gutter. Dropped the ball there. Weight is at 97.8kg, this is probably a bit low but real weight shouldn't be much above 98.2kg. Won't write too much on next week's plans as that's for Monday's big scheduling session to figure out. But the TL:DR version of next week's schedule will probably be finishing programming courses and doing leaps in Numerical + Algebra & Geometry. At least I gymmed today. That's something at least. Fell asleep during the middle of the day after lunch. On a more high note: I've found an audiobook to listen to when I'm on the move. It'll compete with Huberman. Kind Regards, A Fellow Addict (no spellchecking this time)
  8. April 2nd. Hello all. On the phone again; will be a short entry. Slow and uneventful day. I've not completed the tasks I intended to do. A flight of fancy made visit my brother who is currently by himself. Intended to get work done there and didn't accomplish much. Set off back home late but catched the CGAA meeting, though at a buss station. I've recouperated my spirits over the last two days and today thought about some possible paths I may like to go down long term. What possible worthy pursuits and goals I'd like to reach and accomplish. Tomorrow is going to be a fruitful day. Will post the full weekly productivity/schedule review tomorrow. Kind Regards, A Fellow Addict
  9. 1st of April Hello all. Bad day. The presentation went poorly but I think I'll still receive a pass on this assignment. The professor mailed back, didn't respond to any question or request I made but instead suggested that I should go talk to the student councilors. That's something I'll do if it so pleases him, pleases him enough to respond to requests instead of disregarding them. Haven't done anything after I finished the presentations at around 3pm. Took a nap that extended to a few hours after I came home, then watched YouTube videos on military history. Missed the CGAA meeting and no gym. Writing this on the phone -> no screencuts of schedule to share at the moment, but the latter part of the day is all red. Will update this post tomorrow with that anyway. Will do some extra reading before bed. If I'm unwilling to work, at least I can ensure that some of this evening's time is used on something productive. New book is Think Fast and Slow. Kind Regards, A Fellow Addict
  10. March the 30th. Hello all. Decent day today. On a scale from terrible to amazing, it is of course on the very good end. Yet I've noticed that my evaluation of what benchmark daily activity is has shifted. Overslept to 10 am today. Redoubled my alarms so that I now have five alarms and one 'primer' that starts playing music at a low volume 10min before it is time to wake up. Coffee is a no-go after 4 pm, will see if that helps in making me sleepier at night or not. Regarding the Huberman podcast, I've realized that I've not followed it as well as I should. My body is a biological machine I know relatively little about, yet it has profound effects on my and my mental state. Its recommendations regarding sunlight intake, eating schedule, and heat at specific times of the day will be examined more closely tomorrow to see what alterations I should make to my schedule. Assignment 8/9 for Programming 101 is designing and testing a computer game. I won't complete that assignment, though I will make sure to learn about the programming concepts and relevant information from related chapters in the book. Should I be allowed to turn my assignments in late; then leaving nm 8 on the table will automatically lower the grade of the course by one level A->B B->C etc. It's a cost I'm willing to take to avoid games. Sent in a mail to the professor, asking for access to the Large Program 3hp that's upcoming, access to the assignments of Algorithms and Datastructures 6hp, and asked about the possibility of a late grading of Programming 101. The presentation and meeting for assignment 2/3 in parallel programming is tomorrow, work is already done but there's some room for improvements. Will do these on the buss-ride to the university. My motivation for going to the gym is slipping. Primarily because I'd like there to be more time for work. Yet I remind myself; on a long-term basis, isn't the gym better than extra hours of work? There will always be an extra project or assignment I could fill my evening with. While my measurement for productiveness is based on checking tick boxes in the daily and weekly plans. On a monthly, quarterly, and yearly basis, aren't the primary health benefits of exercising combined with its secondaries on mental sharpness, life enjoyment, and psychological wellness worth more? I think it could be argued that exercise and a bit less work daily will produce more output long-term than only working. Kind Regards, A Fellow Addict
  11. March the 30th. Hello all. Good day today. Went to the gym, woke up on schedule, and have been programming throughout most of the day. Finished the gym session early today and did my reading before CGAA so there'll be an earlier bedtime tonight. An extra hour of sleep is something to be thankful for, that one extra hour may keep me from oversleeping tomorrow! Regarding habits, phone use decreased today compared to yesterday thanks to it not being as easily available without conscious decision-making being involved. Posting my entire university workload/plan so you all can see how the road ahead of me is and if I'm on track. PLAN: University Resuscitation - Courses to Complete The goal is 45hp done this academic year, equivalent to 3/4 of a year's courses. That is the requirement for receiving state loans come autumn. I have 7.5hp completed this year, meaning I need to acquire a total of 37.5hp more. Math Courses Exam Date Computer Courses Information Physics Courses Exam dates Management Courses Algebra&Geometry 7.5hp 22/4 Programming 101 7.0hp Total: 9 Assignments Mechanics 7.0hp 17/5 and 7/6 Introductory 6.0hp 19/4 One Variable Calc. 7.5hp 9/6 Algorithms 6.0hp Total: 9 Assignments Prob. and Stat.6.0hp 21/4 Opp. Mngmt. 5.0hp 22/4 Multi Var. Calc. 7.5hp 3/6 Parallel Program. 3.0hp 3 Weekly Assignments Numerical Methods6.0hp 30/5+Assignments Large Program 3.0hp Make large&complex prog. There's quite a mountain of courses to complete. My base plan is to complete the maths courses for 28.5hp, parallel for 3hp, and Mechanics for 7hp; giving me a total of 38.5hp and enough for me to continue receiving state loans in year two. The points from Programming 101 and Algorithms cannot be counted on for the establishment of the basic plan. Yet Programming 101 is high up on the priority list as if I'm going to convince the professor to give me access to the Large Program course (required finishing both previously mentioned courses before today) despite my lack of required course completions, I'll need to present him a good picture of me catching up quickly and make it believable that I can finish that course. I've completed 6/9 assignments in programming 101 and 2/3 in parallel. Will try to finish 7+8 tomorrow and contact him afterward; potentially asking my TA (teacher's assistant, whom handles student groups for the programming courses) to take up my case to the professor. There are a lot of ifs here, too many to rely on receiving these course points in time when it comes to planning. Regardless of allowing me to complete the courses late or not, I intend to have caught up programming-ability-wise come next academic year. My focus is currently on Programming 101, Parallel, and secondarily on Algebra & Geometry. Once I've finished Prog 101, I'll split the time currently spent on Prog 101 on Numerical Methods and Algebra. Once parallel finishes that time will go to Prob. and Stat if I feel as if I can complete it in time, otherwise I'll focus more on the core courses. Management course exams are available to me, but I don't believe I'll reach for them as they're out of the way for my computer science degree, and focusing on programming/maths is better. Daylies: Counting gym time as equivalent to sleep. This makes it so that gym does not effect the productivity metric. While there's some overlap between non-productive-yet-good activities and the productivity metic, these are acceptable as I don't want to discourage daily walks, meditation, or journaling. But including 2h+ of gym time does not seem in keeping with the intention of the metric yet I don't feel as it should be detremental to it. Kind Regards, A Fellow Addict
  12. March the 29th. Hello all. A good, yet frustrating day today. Went to sleep at 11:30 pm yesterday so it'd be easier to wake up. Still, I overslept by 1.5h. Regarding today's activities, I've been sitting with assignment 5 the whole day. Not getting into the programming details of it but the way the professors and teachers' assistants have designed the downloadable content we use for the exercises was extremely shoddy this time. I've spent multiple hours pulling my hair out over programming problems that we're probably not going to start dealing with before year two at uni. I still have not solved them but I think I proved that the issue lies with the code they've given us that we're supposed to use as-is without really paying too much attention to how that part of the program works. Anyway, assignment 5 is done and I'm not going to change it unless the professor requires it for me to get a grade in the course. Not going to the gym today. There is a long list of things I also wanted to complete today and I don't want to push more activities back in the queue. I've checked out assignment 6 and thankfully it seems much easier to tackle. Should only take 2-3h. Will try to finish it today and get some reading in before bedtime hits. I'll start posting an image of the schedule and tasks with the daily updates. I think it adds substance and gives better insight than simply writing about them. Note again, about 2h30min of more work until the day is done so I'll finish reading and maybe assignment 6 hopefully before the day is over. I've noticed that I've been getting worse at managing my habits regarding phone use. The phone is now strictly used either at the leisure table or when going outside. At all other times, it is squirreled away into the nook of my kitchen counter in its 'containment zone'. If I want to listen to music then I'll have to take the phone with me to the leisure table. Start the music there, then put it back into its nook. The weight from yesterday was probably accurate. Going to eat less bread at breakfast and start preparing large bowls of salads for 1-2 days at a time. Kind Regards, A Fellow Addict
  13. March the 28th. Hello all. Today has been a good day. Overslept again but worked for a fair few hours. I've created a new metric derived from my color-coded schedule that is meant to be a measure of efficiency. It is easy for me to get into the belief that if I'm on the treadmill of tasks, and keeping my head above the water when it comes to bad habits it is little for me to improve. This also relates to that after a week is done, I rarely if never look back at older week's productivity to check for changes. The Daily Productivity Score and Weekly Productivity Score are meant to make my productivity or lack thereof more visible to me. Thereby allowing for improvements long-term and can serve as a positive feedback loop for the small improvements that have a big effect over a longer period. Daily Productivity Score is calculated by (Green Fields - Red Fields) / (Total Fields - Yellow Sleep Fields). I'm not counting yellow sleep fields as those represent intended sleep and shouldn't be detrimental to the metric. In effect, green fields increase the metric while yellow and red ones detract, red ones at twice the rate as the yellow ones. As part of a 'weekly review', I intend to check these metrics out and average them for the Weekly Productivity Score and include them in the monthly plan/review doc. I'm changing reading from being an end-of-the-day activity to something to be done during the day. The fewer activities intruding on sleep time, the better I'll sleep and the less I'll be prone to oversleeping. Keeping track of all these things may seem over the top. But few projects or tasks are successfully tackled unless one knows how one is doing, what the goals are, and what one should do next. These planning/recording/reviewing sessions allow me to keep on track and see what I should be doing next as well as encourage me by showing the progress I make. Things done today: Walked 8800 steps. Gymmed. Ate mostly healthily. Gymmed. Finished Assignment 4/9 and about halfway done on 5/9 on the programming 101 course. Scheduled activities for the week. Made 10-11 portions of stew. I weigh 99.1kg according to the scale. I think today's number is an outlier, I've been trending downwards and feel better than I did last week. Guessing actual weight is around 98.5kg. Kind Regards, A Fellow Addict.
  14. March 27th. Hello all. Ok-ish day today. Snoozed my way to 10 am and then did my morning routine + vacuuming before I had guests over. We had a great time together and went out for lunch, purchased some ice cream and had two traditional Swedish 'fikas'. It's good for me that I've started interacting with people again. Though I will say that my motivation today has been severely lacking. I've done about two hours of work today which is far from ideal. Thankfully there are mechanisms and good habit nets I've set up in my everyday environment that push me towards productive activities whenever I start up. Almost done with the Atomic Habits book. I'm using it and the 'Huberman Podcast' to tune my activities and environment to increase the likelihood of good days and decrease the likelyhood of bad days. Explanation of how my schedule works (example being today). The column of alternating blue-white fields simply denotes the time. Planned activity is something I enter when I sit down to schedule the day's activities. I generally do this after a shower and breakfast, after which a walk, meditation, and journaling after which activity of some kind follows. If I am late with planning, then the 'planned activity' fields are left empty after passing the 7:00->7:30 am sleep field is passed until I get to scheduling. Green fields are activities I've done during the day which I'm satisfied with. Yellow fields hold activities that are neither good nor bad such as sleep during normal times, time spent on scheduled activities that are not necessarily productive, and breaks where I feel that they have been of non-detrimental length. Red fields hold wasted time, bad- and destructive behaviors. I left the names of the activities in on this example to show an example of a less than ideal day and what kind of activities they could symbolize. A smiley is work or a productive activity that's not time-limited, meaning they are allowed to be moved around and can run over without stressing me out over being behind on the daily schedule. White spaces in the 9:00 pm region of the planned activity area mean that I've not decided if it is gym or work scheduled and I can decide when I get there. I've not scheduled gym time daily because it is not a forced activity. I go if I feel like it, I just happen to feel like it most of the time. Friday was a recovery day after Thursday's work marathon, you can see the work from Thursday night extending into 5:00 am Friday. I also keep a detailed daily activities log parallel to this where I log everything from daily habits, work planned each day, the time assumed for the work to take, how long I spent on each task, if it was completed or not, etc. This is scaled up to a weekly view as well. When my time horizon expands, I'll start up with the monthly planning of activities as well. Forgot to weigh myself today so no update there. Will post it tomorrow instead. Things done today: 6000 steps. Gymmed. My body has been telling me to cool it a bit, especially my legs as I've been running each day on the treadmill. Have walked instead of the treadmill and paced myself more. CGAA. Ate mostly healthily. Fixed the pair of pants from yesterday. Finished assignment 3/9 for programming 101. Half an hour of maths. Planned for my Numerical Analysis course and checked it out. Social with family. Will read some before heading to bed. Kind Regards, A Fellow Addict.
  15. March 26th. Hello all. Didn't feel like journaling on GQ today. If it isn't part of the 'back from gym' habit chain I'd not be writing this. Today I quit my D&D groups and blocked roll20/foundry. Purchased extra gym shirts and some sewing supplies to repair torn clothes. I'm fat enough that my pants (wool) scraping on the thighs wear down the fabric. I got some needles and good thread combined with some glue-nylon patches to repair the damaged pair of pants. Almost finished assignment 3/9 for the programming course. Tomorrow I'll have guests over so I'll vacuum the apartment again. It was time to do so anyway so I don't mind. Also woke up at 6:30 am as I went to sleep early yesterday. Will continue with the early morning wakeups and try to push the time I go to sleep forward. Things done today: 9300 steps. Gym (increased leg press to 180kg, would like to reach 200kg next month). Mostly healthy food. CGAA. Almost completed assignment 3/9 of the programming 101 course. Aiming for 7-9 by Friday so I can present it to my handler and try to get him to agree to allow me to complete the course late for credits. Purchased sewing supplies and fixed a pair of pants (need to reinforce the nylon patch). I keep a mostly complete record of all activities I get up to each day, noted down to the 30min mark as well as what I planned to do during that time. These 30min 'fields' are color-coded for if I acted productively and in a beneficial manner (green), did ok activities that were not in my opinion mismanagement of time (yellow), and ones where I'm actively wasting time or partaking in destructive behaviour(red). I may start posting an image of the color coloration of the past week on each Sunday if there'd be interest in it. Will read for 30-45min before going to bed. Kind Regards, A Fellow Addict
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