Zane

Aww come on what did I say about cholesterol man ?

I weigh 122 lbs now. My goal is to weigh 170 lbs within a year. Of course, I'm shooting for healthy weight, with a large proportion of muscle mass. Thanks Joe lol video games are bye bye. Congrats on being a moderator haha I asked out two girls to lunch this week; both had boyfriends. YAY. Also, I think I've officially ran out of potential choices in my social sphere. Now... well damn, I gotta think of something. Yesterday my Argumentation class had a debate over whether college should be free. I thought that was really fun. I don't think college should be free; or rather, I know that its impossible for college to be free, since someone has to pay for it (ahem, taxpayers). So whoever thought "college should be free" was a jackass lol

Yay, I weigh 121.4 lbs wearing no clothes! A month ago I weighed 115 wearing clothes lol. I gotta keep up the good work

Hello Game Quitters Community ?I spent my last weekend in my hometown to visit my family/ siblings. Also, I went to lunch with my favorite teacher from high school and his son. Later that day I visited my friend Jehremy who is paralyzed from the neck down. I learned some really good news when I visited him. Apparently, he does have very weak movements in his body, and his family/ he hopes that he can work on reworking his body to move again. I hope so too. I've gone 36 days without video games. This is my longest I've gone without video games since perhaps before high school. That's pretty important. It's my first achievement, even if it's so far only a time measurement. Today I was reminded just how important it is to be outside your comfort zone, despite how damn hard that fucking sounds lol. Best of luck to you Cam, I hope your mentorship project shows good results. It was good talking to you. Y U no answer your texts though lol.

Yes I am coming from a place of lack. There is a hole in my life that I cannot fill with "pursuing my purpose" as Deida would suggest. Yes, I started reading the book a couple months ago. It is FightMediocrity's favorite book. I thought it was decent although the language is a bit iffy. Anyway, this hole I'm talking about, I never really thought that tinder could help me patch it up. Devoting myself to working or studying or weight training only takes the edge off. I can function and I'm putting good habits together but every day I'm reminded of this huge gaping hole. I need to meet people in person, but I can't, because of the phenomenon that I described. I feel like it sounds like I'm making excuses. I'm super serious when I say I've never encountered this lack of social energy before. Perhaps I should start going to random coffee shops to meet people. But in that case I admit I would have no idea how to get things going. I would be intimidated to approach someone in those circumstances, boy or girl. I wouldn't know what to say. Anyway, next weekend I'm visiting my siblings and I'm excited for that. They live in Modesto where I used to live. I miss them and I'll be happy to see them again. Also gonna have lunch with one of my old high school teachers And, my birthday is in a couple days. This week should be pretty good; at least I hope it will be.

I would die.

what are you gonna do when there's two thousand people posting here huh?

I mean, when I came back, there were like three times as many people here than when I left

?wut ?

lol how bout this Found a bunch of good ones when I uploaded your photo to google image search

omg that girl is beautiful. where are you getting these

I love it! I can't wait until I hit 90 days

The purple girl is pretty cute. Wish her hair was a normal color tho

23 days, no games, and no temptations to play them. Although... I had to see what changes Bungie made to Destiny with their latest release. It looks like the game finally has a story. Also, out of curiosity, I checked out the online destiny info tracker. I haven't played in 5 months, but I'm still ranked in the top 1 percent Lol and half the time I was letting my 11 year old buddy Logan wreck my K/D

Not that bad, I guess. If I loved her then of course it wouldn't matter. Haha so after that conversation we had on sunday I decided to try out tinder again. In one day I got 8 matches. Over the course of the day five of them messaged me and immediately gave me their phone numbers/ email and were like you wanna get to the dirty stuff? And all five ended up messaging me to go to some site for webcam or some bullshit. I haven't had any other interaction on tinder since. This is why I think tinder is really dumb. It's alluring to people like me who can't find anyone, but its full of bs and free advertising for girls cams or whatever. Also, it distracted me big time. Like, for the past two weeks I've been putting together great habits. I've been on track with my eating and weight training goals. I've benn doing my homework and getting good sleep. But thinking about tinder the last two days was so distracting that those habits dissapeared immediately, and I had nothing to show for it. I'm back on track again but this situation only reaffirms what I thought about tinder/ online dating in general. I mean, I wish I was wrong, but this is the hand I've been dealt. I feel really good today for some reason. I've got energy and I got effortless dopamine. Most days aren't quite like this. I did have a good workout this morning. I'm out of practice with public speaking but I gave two orientations to the tutoring center I work at in front of two classes, without much effort, and I was surprised because the last orientation I gave did not go near as smoothly. Also, to Cam, that teacher I was talking about says she is still working on scheduling before she responds to you. Make sure to mention which days you will be in San Jose if you haven't already. The coolest surprise of the day was when that teacher told the class she wants to give away her ex's three wakeboards. There was a drawing and I get first pick And I love wakeboarding! Even though I've only had three opportunities to wakeboard in my life, I am quite good at it and I enjoy it immensely. Wakeboards are expensive, and she's giving one to me. I don't know if and when I'll be able to use it though.

Hey man, you're making a mistake! I read your entry and I had to say something. I know you don't feel like looking up the units, but you should! This link has a short article which can provide a basic understanding: http://my.clevelandclinic.org/health/diseases_conditions/hic_Cholesterol/hic_what_do_cholesterol_numbers_mean? When it comes down to it, all you really need to worry about are your HDL and LDL levels, and how they compare to each other. The higher the ratio of HDL to LDL, the healthier you are, and least at risk for heart disease. HDL is found in a lot of healthy foods, and eggs is one of the most important sources of HDL! I eat on average 20-25 eggs per week, and I probably should eat more. Eggs are incredibly good for you, in fact you should really check out this link: http://www.healthextremist.com/are-eggs-good-for-you-30-reasons-to-eat-eggs/ ?That link tells you all you need to know about eggs, and even links studies where participants who ate more eggs had lower LDL levels, than those who didn't, and higher HDL levels, which is EXACTLY what you want. The number you got for cholesterol is not near as important as you think. If you read the first link I gave you it will tell you what you want the numbers to look like. If your cholesterol level is high but your LDL levels are low and your HDL levels are high, then you're very healthy. ?I do think the rest of your strategy is sound. More exercise is great, and walnuts are a healthy source of fats. I like them too Seriously though, eat as many eggs as you can

20 days without video games. I normally wouldn't count, but I decided why not. The larger that number grows, the higher my confidence grows

lol you guys are funny. I do in fact have a friend who met his current girlfriend on tinder, and they are a very cute and happy couple. I'm happy for him. But... when my aunt first suggested I try out dating sites, I was horrified.. The idea of dating online doesn't feel romantic, or natural, it feels desperate. But, twice now I've tried tinder/ OKCupid. I gave them both a running shot twice. After a few weeks of tinder, I had like 2 matches and one girl was a webcam girl who kept texting me to view her site and I was like haha no thanks (It probably was a 40 year old man texting me). On OkCupid I didn't get a single like or message the first time. The second time I had only one meaningful experience. I was set to go on a date with a girl, who was very cute as well, however she flaked on our date, saying she was really sorry, but unexpected events/ return of someone she knew, changed her mind. Other than that I got a guy who liked my profile because he wanted homosexual company I suppose (after reading his profile). Since then I've checked once or twice, and had no interaction, even though I messaged a lot of women. Dating sites seem to me to be as harmful to the mind as porn is, and while my friend (and Joe) may have found success, I'm a bit disgusted with it. It doesn't seem natural to me. I mean, I wouldn't want someone to ask how we met and say "oh we met online" even if I did find someone. I've never faced this problem of not finding people in my community. Not in high school, not anywhere else I've been. Unfortunately this situation has led me to cultivate a scarcity mindset, despite my desire not to endorse such a mindset. It's like growing up believing you will always be poor, because you haven't met people who have money. But when you do meet rich people, they teach you a better mindset and stuff. Well, I haven't met any women in so long, it's just so sad. I might as well be on a nuclear submarine. Anyway, what did I do today. I went to the gym, walked for hours, then cooked a stew for 4 hours. It should last me a long time. Before I go to bed I'm gonna have to write a response to a story called "On the Rainy River" by Tim O'Brien, about a guy who runs away to avoid being drafted for the Vietnam War. I'm probably gonna write about how I would do the same to avoid being drafted myself. Imagine that, being forced from those you love to go put your life on the line and kill people, all in the name of U.S foreign interests. I've read about the war, it began when the U.S decided to send forces to defend French Imperial interests in Indochina, and ended up turning into an "anti- communist War." Eww. I just. gotta. stay. the. course. thank you all for being here for me

Also it's embarrassing to be harping about it still after so many months, but unfortunately I can't get it out of my head. ?

Sorry, I forgot to specify, when I said "none of the girls are attractive" I was also talking about their personalities. Regardless though, even physical attraction is an ABSOLUTE necessity for a healthy RELATIONSHIP, otherwise it's just a friendship. For better or worse, dating is about eventual procreation, and both parties must have a very clear motivation to procreate. You can't rewrite those human instincts, nor should you. I'm talking about people in general. But, this situation is especially sensitive and important to me, because I used to have a great relationship with a girl who had both (great personality/ looks), and it was the best experience of my life. I desire to find a similar experience again, this time having learned from my mistakes, but I am heavily discouraged due to the situation I described in my previous entry.? I hope this describes my problem better. This isn't a problem I'm comfortable with describing to people, because I don't think they'd understand, and I would feel judged. I'm sharing it with you guys.

You're very positive man and I'm glad to see how well things are working out for you. You handle the good and crappy days with a positive spirit and that's awesome

?Nobody likes meditation Haha jk. Its really great stuff man I thank you very much

I have so many bad habits I need to break. Like biting my fingernails all the time. Oh and also, I talk to myself CONSTANTLY. I used to talk to my ex for 3-4 hours each day. Now I talk to myself 3-4 hours each day. lol. Anyone else have this problem?

Hey everyone! I haven't made a post in a couple weeks but I've been checking up on these forums every day. I've been game free for something like 17 days, which is the longest I've gone without since summer of 2013. Even then I played as often as I could, but I've gone all in with my personal change and I'm feeling great about it. My final temptation to play games was with my computer. I was worried about a few weeks ago but now I'm not even concerned. I am pretty happy to not play anymore. And, I've been (slowly) replacing my time with better activities. I've continued to read, work out, and for once I'm staying on top of my homework. My homework actually interests me for once, in part because I love my classes. Like I said before I have an English argumentation class and a business class. Both these classes cover topics and activities that I'm growing passionate about. I've always gotten a kick out of arguing against the majority opinion, and this class seems specifically designed to support that. Instead of posting regularly here I've actually been making posts for an online English memoir class which I'm taking for general education. It is pleasant to open up about my life to others, as it is something I've really only starting doing this year. As for my business class, I'm learning all sorts of things about economics and economies and I'm keeping up during lectures, which is phenomenal, because in the past I've never kept my attention on the teacher for such extended periods of time. Some of my other habits are suffering... I haven't kept my room clean or been advancing with my completion list, meditating, or getting a proper amount of sleep. But I have been taking cold showers, working out, eating healthy (though not eating enough for my training), and today I talked on the phone to my little siblings and I intend to make plans to visit them soon. I ordered a book on amazon which I hoped would replace my desire to game or watch entertainment. It's a book based on the Halo series, and I never read sci- fi but I said why not, its a cool replacement for the video game I used to love. I ended up getting the book and reading it for 5-6 hours each day, finishing it in two and a half days. I couldn't put it down. I have to say that one of the biggest challenges in my life would be my inability to find a balance of what I want and need to do. I lack the discipline to maintain discretion; to, say, read the book for an hour each day instead of 5-6 hours. I spoke to students from other schools taking classes at my school, and those students concurred with me that there is a strange phenomenon at my school. Nobody is social, nobody hangs out, or meets outside of school, nobody dates, and none of the girls are attractive. It's crazy how even other students concur with me that there's something very odd about my school. Also, when you've gone over a year without meeting a girl you'd like to date it really gets to your head. This is really getting to me. My problem isn't even that I can't get a girl on a date. My problem is that I cant meet any I like, and trust me I'm not even being picky. I don't know how else to explain this very real problem for me. I'm at a loss for what to do. I've checked meet-ups in my area. After choosing a big list of interests, there are surprisingly few meetups available (and this is a big city). They are all meetups taking place at awkward times, late at night, and often charging for entry. Meetups don't seem to be a very viable option. Not at least until I start driving. How else can I meet new people? This never used to be a problem for me. In high school I was never lacking for friends. I'm a lot more social now and confident in myself but I can't meet anyone my age or who is- can anyone offer advice? I keep thinking that if I were living in a college dorm I would have no lack of friends but since I am not around anyone and nobody wants to hang out or anything I have gone a year without making any real friends, and I'm getting impatient. I was able to make 10 new good friends each month playing video games a few hours a day, not even trying to make friends. Haha they're all on facebook asking where have I gone. I still talk to some of my old high school friends, but they are so spread out all over the place, and I lost my closest friend 11 months ago. Despite how negative some of this may sound, I'm actually doing fine. In fact I would say I'm doing better than ever. That is probably why I'm so concerned and ready to change my social situation. I'm definitely 100 percent in this

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