Dagnet

Dear readers of this forum, I am 22 years old, I have recently graduated from university with a degree in chemistry. I've been playing PC games since I was about 5 years old. I had a lot of fun gaming in my teens, it was a social thing as I had other friends playing too. Now I am older, I don't play with anyone but myself and I am feeding an addiction that prevents me from being in the real world. I am living at home with my parents at the moment and I am trying to think about what to do with my life but instead I often end up gaming for the whole day and not doing anything in the real world besides cooking and some exercise. Gaming is ruining my self confidence and my ability to socialise with others. It's taken over my whole dopamine reward system to the point where talking to anyone is a chore and I can't be bothered to socialise with anyone and I just want to get back into the game. Last night I told myself in the shower before bed that I would not play World of Warcraft: Shadowlands tomorrow. That didn't last long at all: I was eating my breakfast of last night's curry at my gaming desk while logging into WoW. Next thing you know it, I've spent the whole day in this chair playing 2v2s and 3v3s where the only thing I did elsewhere is drink some grapefruit juice, let my dog outside into the garden and take a piss. I've got a girlfriend who is DTF (virutally at the moment as we are not living together at the moment) yet I can't be bothered to speak to her when she's messaging me as I'm lazy and forget about external life by just playing WoW. The only dopamine my mind wants is getting the most kills in battlegrounds. The past week I've been uninstalling the game, telling myself that I will never play again to end up just reinstalling the morning after and playing the game anyway. This is almost a daily occurence now. I'm as addicted as I've ever been and I am as vulnerable as I ever been. Instead of putting myself out into the real world I end up just spending all day playing WoW. My addicted head thought, "if you want to quit WoW maybe you should start playing LoL again." I really want to stop... I am on this forum to quit. I'm looking for an accountability partner to talk to about my gaming addiction. I'm on this forum to find out what has worked for other's. I'm on this forum to be in a place where I can relate to other people.