Hello everyone!
My name is Emile, I am 20 years old and I am an engineering student (currently doing my second year). Last october, I had a first try at the 90 day detox and it took around two weeks for me to relapse. I would say that I failed because I didn't really understand the reason as to why I was addicted to video games and the last two months helped me realise the reason.
To give a little bit of context, I failed my first try at the detox, but it didn't seem as things were going bad. I succeeded in all of my classes, I had a girlfriend and I managed to do the things I needed. Still, with the lockdown, my social life has been seriously affected. Aside from my past relationship, there's was not much.
Near the end of January, I got dumped by a girl I really loved and it really took me by surprise. I was devastated. After a while, I told myself that I couldn't just keep being sad and that I needed to work on myself. As a result, I've spent more time calling my friends and being with my family. Plus, I've go back into training for the past 4 weeks. Even though I've not fully moved on, I can say that I feel better.
During those weeks, I tried playing video games, but I wasn't having fun. I couldn't understand why at first, but while working on myself and talking to other people, I thought about it and I think I found the answer. I believe that the reason as to why I played so much is because of a lack of social interactions. During my childhood and my teenage years, I spent most of my free time gaming, which prevented me from developping social skills and even though I became better at it during college, the lockdown was no help.
This day marks the beginning of my second try at the 90 day detox. To help me go through this, I'll try doing new social activities (the ones that I can since Covid is not gone) and I'll continue training since I believe it will help me be more confident in myself.
Thank you for reading an have a nice day!
Days without gaming: 1