So it's been a while, but first I was overstressed and then I moved in and was really really busy... I am on my day 3, actually. Glad to make it this far.
I need to write a bit more about myself, rather than about my problem.
I am Alli and I currently I am studying to become a baker-confectioner in Finland. The field is really new to me, I've just started and I am very excited about my studies (and my future work) has in store for me. I've been baking at home before, but nothing professional. This is one of the reason I am quitting video games. First, I need to gain practical skills that will help me in my life, not something imaginary and obviously video-game related. Second, I just love creating things and feel appreciated for what I am doing.
I used to be a very creative person. I used to enjoy painting with watercolours and writing short stories. A year ago or so gaming took that away from me, so I guess the plan is to bring it back. Other my hobbies include swimming, biking, fitness and yoga so I want to bring movement in my life too. My relaxation hobby is probably reading. I love science fiction and fantasy, but I can read pretty much everything except non-fiction (haven't found my book yet). I will track all my new habits daily.
I moved here from one former Soviet Union country, that currently has some political problems (and it doesn't narrow the list, like, at all), so English is not my native language. Sorry for any possible mistakes :) I am also learning Finnish and since the teaching is in Finnish, I need to keep up. I like learning languages and in this situation my knowledge is crucial. And in my home country, we don't really believe in addiction (if you are addicted to something, that is because you are inherently weak) and it is considered inappropriate to go to therapy. I also always have to worry about saving face and not to let my family down. Two main sources of anxiety and paranoia in my life.
I think I am more of an introvert, I am really bad at communicating people online especially now. But I still need connection in my life, but I figure it on my way to somewhere.
So, that's what I have to say about myself apart from my addiction. If you happen to pass here after all these many words, nice to meet you:)