Liz

Hi, I am Liz. I feel like an idiot, addicted to video games? Well I believe I am as well as other addictions. I am in two 12 step programs. It seems like I put down one thing and up pops another. I have come to the conclusion that I am an escape artist, escape from life that is. I am a procrastinator and will go to any lengths to accomplish this. Thanks to the 12 twelve steps I have a very hard time lying to myself and others, and for this I am grateful. My husband just had surgery for lung cancer (excellent results) and is due to be discharged tomorrow. Instead of cleaning my dirty home to prepare for his homecoming I have been playing online games! I thought, "what is wrong with you, what are you doing"? I am not young, I am a professional and I present a totally different persona to the world (one of being calm, and well put together) all of which is not true! Many years ago a therapist told me, "you're a master of the game", and she did not mean it as a compliment. Meanwhile, what I'm feeling on the inside is total chaos! I read about keeping a daily journal online. I thought, "I can't bother people with that" yet I am always available to help others............